P. Parrish - An Unquiet Grave

Then. .

Just a blur of houses. Three, four? Other houses and other faces who didn’t have enough. That’s when he started to run away. They kept finding him and bringing him to other houses.

Until they brought him to Strathmoor.

The memories from this house had always swirled thick and black in his boy-brain and chased him into adulthood. But until this moment, he had never known they were real.

Louis stared at the red brick house. A car came ambling down the street toward him. The deep thudthucka-thud of music grew, pounding in his ears as the car drew abreast. The car passed, the fading music a dirge for a dying neighborhood.

Louis put the car in gear and drove away.

Shells of burned buildings and evergreens that hid the sun followed him into his dreams that night. And when the sun falling on his face woke him, for a moment he didn’t know where he was.

He dressed quickly in the quiet house and went downstairs. There was a note from Phillip on the kitchen table saying he had gone out and not to expect him back for dinner. He had left a fresh pot of coffee.

The sun was bright in a cloudless sky, and he had to wear sunglasses to see as he drove back to Hidden Lake. He pulled off to the side of the road as he drew near so the troopers at the gate wouldn’t hassle him.

He cracked the window for some fresh air and, for a few minutes, he sat watching the two uniforms move in and around the entrance.

Yesterday, after he returned from Detroit, he called Detective Bloom and arranged to meet him here. His intent was to offer up Buddy Ives as a suspect. He knew he should have turned over all four names right after Zeke was killed. But he had been trying to protect Dr. Seraphin.

There was no way he could do that now unless he took the fall himself. And he had decided that was exactly what he would do: tell Bloom that he alone had found the names in the E Building files. Dr. Seraphin had a lot to lose. All he would get was slap on the wrist and a trip out of state again.

Louis got out of the Impala and was halfway to the security booth when one of the troopers spotted him and started over.

“Took you long enough,” the trooper said.

“What?”

“We called an hour ago,” the trooper said. “That crazy guy is back again.”

“Who?” Louis asked.

“Charlie, the Fairy Queen.”

“He’s inside?”

“Yeah,” the trooper said. “This is the third time in two days we caught him here. First time we ran him off. He was back three hours later. Second time, we turned him over to Chief Dalum. But he’s back again.”

Louis suppressed a sigh. “Where is he?”

“Sitting on the steps of the admin building. He’s fucking up the surveillance, man. He ever shows up at night, somebody’s going to shoot him.”

“Can I go in and get him?”

“Yeah. The guys inside have just let him sit there so they don’t blow their cover. I’ll radio them you’re coming in.”

“Thanks.” Louis started back toward his car, then turned. “Hey, I’m supposed to meet Detective Bloom here. If he shows up, tell him I’ll be back.”

“Will do.”

Louis eased the Impala through the gates and to the front of the administration building. The place looked deserted, the ground a rolling ocean of white. Louis’s eyes flicked up to the dark windows and he wondered how many cops were up there, wondered if there were rifles trained on him right now.

He saw Charlie huddled on the top step. Charlie saw him, too, but he didn’t move. Louis had to park and get out, again feeling a dozen eyes on his back.

Louis stopped at the bottom of the steps. “We need to go home, Charlie,” he said.

“This is my home.”

“Not anymore. Don’t you live with Miss Alice now?”

“I can’t. I can’t leave until the apple babies come.”

“You can leave. You have a new home. C’mon, I’ll take you back to Alice’s house.”

“Not until the apple babies come.”

Louis looked around the grounds, then back at Charlie. He remembered something Dr. Seraphin had said at her lake house the other night, that madness should be viewed from the inside. He had tried reading the book she had given him, but it was dense going. The only thing he had gotten out of Laing’s ideas was the notion that you could “converse” with the insane by trying to enter their world empathetically.

“Charlie, I got an idea,” Louis said. “We’ll go buy all the apple babies you want. Where do we get them?”

“I don’t know.”

“Let’s go look.”

Charlie’s head came up quickly. “Do you know where they are now?”

“I bet we can find them.”

Charlie stood up, pulling at the dangling wool straps of his multicolored hat. Once in the Impala, Charlie was quiet, sitting on the edge of the seat, eyes focused forward, hands on the dash.

Louis pulled out onto the highway and gave the trooper a final wave. Bloom’s car was nowhere in sight.

“Do you have music?” Charlie asked.

Louis turned on the radio. It was tuned to a rock-and-roll station, and Charlie just stared at the dials, his head tilted toward the speaker. It was something by UB40, “Red, Red Wine.” An easy song with repetitious lyrics and he could tell Charlie recognized it. He even started singing softly.

“You know that song?” Louis asked.

“Yeah.”

Louis let him sing, glad his mind was off the apple babies. But then the song ended and “ Candle in the Wind ” came on. Charlie didn’t seem to know that one.

“Do you have those things with music on them?”

“Tapes? I don’t know. Look in the glove box.”

Charlie opened the glove box and took out the two cassette tapes Phil kept in there. Louis had no idea what was on them; then it occurred to him Charlie might not be able to read anyway.

“What song are you looking for, Charlie?”

“Emma got to come feed ya.”

“What?”

Charlie was staring at the tapes, and he started to sing again. It was low and slow and he was jerking his shoulders up and down to the staccato beat in his head.

“Boomp, boomp, boompa pa boomp. . boom. . boom. . boom.”

“In-A-Gadda-Da-Vida?” Louis asked.

“Emmagottacomefeedthebaby,” Charlie sang. “Donchaknow that I love you? Donchaknow that I’m blue?”

Louis laughed.

“That’s an old song. How did you ever learn that?”

“I was born with it in my head.”

“Born with it?”

“Just like the lights. Emma got to come feed the baby. . Emma got to come feed the baby.”

Louis knew this was no memory of Hidden Lake. And he couldn’t help but take it a few steps further, suddenly seeing Charlie as a toddler, wandering through some psychedelic blacklight apartment, breathing in marijuana or eating pills from the top of a coffee table while his parents were passed out somewhere.

“Do you know Emma got to come feed me?” Charlie asked.

“Yeah.”

Charlie started singing again, and in between verses, he looked back at Louis. “If you know it, then sing it.”

“I don’t sing, Charlie.”

“Why not? And woncha sing with me and be my band. .”

Charlie was into his music now, his whole body swaying back and forth as his voice grew deeper and hoarser, like he was trying to imitate something or someone he had seen, and suddenly he didn’t sound like the same man.

Louis glanced at him, then sang part of a line, and Charlie looked at him, grinning. And they continued to sing for another mile, the car filled with twisted lyrics and sour notes.

“Stop!” Charlie yelled suddenly.

Louis hit the brakes and the Impala slid, then caught on the asphalt, coming to a jerky stop. Charlie was out of the car in a second, running back along the road. Louis caught up with him in a snowy driveway at a wide, metal gate.