Lars Kepler - The Sandman

Jurek turns the running machine off, then stands there smiling to himself for a long while as he catches his breath.

‘You say you gave your mother cytostatic medication, chemotherapy... But you didn’t...’

‘Yes I did,’ she says.

‘The medicine you describe is codeine phosphate,’ he says.

‘Painkillers?’ she asks.

‘Yes, you don’t prescribe codeine for cancer, only strong opiates, like morphine and Ketogan.’

‘But I can remember the pills exactly... there was a groove on one side...’

‘Yes,’ he says bluntly.

‘Mum said...’

She falls silent and her heart is beating so hard she’s scared it shows on her face. Joona warned me, she thinks. He told me not to talk about my parents.

She gulps and looks down at the worn floor.

It doesn’t matter, she thinks, and walks off towards her room.

It just happened, she said a bit too much, but she stuck to the truth the whole time.

She hadn’t had a choice. Not answering his questions would have been far too evasive. It was a necessary exchange, but she isn’t going to say any more now.

‘Wait,’ Jurek says, very gently.

She stops, but doesn’t turn round.

‘For all these years I haven’t had a single chance to escape,’ he goes on. ‘I’ve known that the decision to sentence me to secure psychiatric care would never be reviewed, and I’ve realised I’m never going to get parole... but now that you’re here, I can finally leave this hospital.’

Saga turns round and looks directly at the thin face, into his pale eyes.

‘What could I possibly do?’ she asks.

‘It will take a few days to prepare everything,’ he replies. ‘But if you can get hold of some sleeping pills... I need five Stesolid tablets.’

‘How can I get hold of them?’

‘You stay awake, say you can’t sleep, ask for ten milligrams of Stesolid, hide the pill, then go to bed.’

‘Why don’t you do it yourself?’

A smile breaks out on Jurek’s cracked lips.

‘They’d never give me anything I ask for, they’re too frightened of me. But you’re a siren... everyone sees how beautiful you are, not how dangerous.’

Saga thinks that this could be what it takes to win Jurek’s confidence. She’ll do as he says, join in with his plan, as long as it doesn’t get too risky.

‘You took the punishment for what I did, so I’ll try to help you,’ she replies quietly.

‘But you don’t want to come?’

‘I’ve got nowhere to go.’

‘You will have.’

‘Tell me,’ she asks, venturing a smile.

‘The dayroom’s closing now,’ he says, and walks out.

She feels strangely out of kilter, as if he already knows everything about her, even before she tells him.

Of course it wasn’t chemotherapy medication. She just assumed it was, without really thinking. You don’t administer chemotherapy drugs like that; they have to be taken at strict intervals. The cancer was probably far too advanced. All that was left was pain relief.

When she gets back into her cell, it feels as if she’s been holding her breath all the way through her encounter with Jurek Walter.

She lies down on the bunk, completely exhausted.

Saga thinks that she’ll stay passive from now on, and let Jurek reveal his plans to the police.

It’s only five to eight in the morning, but all the members of the Athena group are in place in the attic flat. Nathan Pollock has washed the mugs and left them upside down on a chequered blue tea-towel.

After the dayroom doors were locked yesterday they sat there analysing the wealth of material until seven o’clock in the evening. They listened to the conversation between Jurek Walter and Saga Bauer, structuring and evaluating the information.

‘I’m worried that Saga’s being too personal,’ Corinne says, smiling as Nathan hands her a cup of coffee. ‘Obviously it’s a tightrope, because without volunteering something of herself she can’t build up any trust...’

‘She’s in control of the situation,’ Pollock says, opening his black notebook.

‘Let’s hope so,’ Joona mutters.

‘Saga’s brilliant,’ Johan Jönson says. ‘She’s getting him to talk.’

‘But we still don’t know anything about Jurek Walter,’ Pollock says, tapping the table with a pen. ‘Apart from the fact that his real name is different...’

‘And that he wants to escape,’ Corinne says, raising her eyebrows.

‘Yes,’ Joona says.

‘But what’s he got in mind? What does he want five sleeping pills for? Who’s he going to drug?’ Corinne asks with a frown.

‘He can’t drug the staff... because they’re not allowed to take anything from him,’ Pollock says.

‘Let’s allow Saga to carry on the way she is,’ Corinne says after a brief pause.

‘I don’t like it,’ Joona says.

He stands up and goes over to the window. It has started snowing again.

‘Breakfast’s the most important meal of the day,’ Johan Jönson says, taking out a Dime bar.

‘Before we move on,’ Joona says, turning to face the room, ‘I’d like to hear the recording one more time... the bit where Saga says she might not want to leave the hospital.’

‘We’ve only listened to it thirty-five times so far,’ Corinne sighs.

‘I know, but I’ve got a feeling we’re missing something,’ he explains, in a voice made sharp by conviction. ‘We haven’t talked about it, but what’s actually going on? To begin with, Jurek sounds the same as usual when he says there are better places than the secure unit... but when Saga replies that there are probably worse places, she manages to get him off balance.’

‘Maybe,’ Corinne says, looking down.

‘No maybe about it,’ Joona insists. ‘I’ve spent hours talking to Jurek, and I can hear that his voice changes, it becomes reflective, but only for a few moments, when he’s describing the place with the red clay...’

‘And the high-voltage electricity wires and big diggers,’ Pollock says.

‘I know there’s something there,’ Joona says. ‘Not just the fact that Jurek seems to surprise himself when he starts talking about a genuine fragment of memory...’

‘But it doesn’t go anywhere,’ Corinne interrupts.

‘I want to listen to the recording again,’ Joona says, turning towards Johan Jönson.

Johan Jönson leans forward and moves the cursor on the screen across the sequence of sound-waves. The speakers crackle and hiss, then the rhythmic sound of footsteps on the running machine become audible.

‘We can get out of the hospital together,’ Jurek says.

There’s a knocking, then a rustling noise that gets gradually louder.

‘I don’t know if I want to,’ Saga replies.

‘Why not?’

‘I haven’t really got anything left outside.’

They can hear laughter on the television in the background.

‘Left? Going back is never an option... not to anything, but there are better places than this.’

‘And probably some worse,’ Saga says.

More knocking, then a sigh.

‘What did you say?’ she asks.

‘I just sighed, because it occurred to me that I can actually remember a worse place...’

His voice is oddly soft and hesitant as he continues:

‘The air was filled with the hum from high-voltage electricity wires... the roads were wrecked by big diggers... and the tracks full of red, clayey water, up to your waist... but I could still open my mouth and breathe.’

‘What do you mean?’ Saga says.

Applause and more laughter from the television.

‘That worse places might be preferable to better ones,’ Jurek replies, almost inaudibly.