Too much for my mind to compute at that moment. But the bleak facts were in there, stored from previous headlines and research.
“OK,” I said. “Heavner’s got cause. What’s she citing as manner?”
“Undetermined.”
There are only five choices for manner of death: homicide, suicide, accidental, natural, undetermined. Based solely on the tox report, I couldn’t disagree.
I said, “It’s unlikely Vodyanov hid his car at Art’s, hiked out to Buffalo Creek, screwed up, and OD’d.”
“We can talk about this after you rest.”
“Now.”
“Fine. No argument here. So we’re back to square one. The guy probably killed himself, or somebody offed him.”
“If Vodyanov committed suicide, the question is why? If someone murdered him, the question is who?” Also why, but my thoughts were going muddier with each beep of the monitor.
“The other development’s no surprise.”
I’d forgotten there were two. Waited.
“They ran the prints from your place, focusing on the ones lifted in the two studies. Nothing popped. Most were yours, already on file for comparison.”
“No hits in AFIS?”
“Local, North Carolina, surrounding states, nothing popped in any system.”
“The rest will come back as family or friends. Maybe my workers.”
“I’m gonna want to talk to those guys.”
“Right.”
“And, like you said, if it was arson and a B and E, the perp probably wore gloves.”
“You have to admire proper planning.”
Slidell ignored that. “The arson guys found no accelerant other than the paint and turpentine. But they found the distribution pattern odd.”
“Odd.”
“The stuff was really spread around.”
“So our perp is probably bad wiring and a careless painter.”
Did I really think so?
What did I believe?
Twenty minutes later, an orderly rolled me into an elevator, then down a corridor to a room so predictable nothing registered. With his help, I maneuvered the twenty-mile gap from the gurney to the bed. A blanket covered me. Lights dimmed. Footsteps retreated. Air movement suggested a reangling of the door. Sometime later, tubes rattled and fingers touched my wrist.
An IED could have detonated beside me. I would not have reacted. My body was down for the count.
Not so my blood or drug-pummeled brain. Sensing an opening, the questions and misgivings reengaged with undiminished zeal.
Image chased image. Some from the inexplicably missing ten hours. Pulsating walls. A steel tunnel tightening to form a cocoon around me. My fingers searching the inky blackness, desperate for a handle, a lever, a chain. The flesh melting from my hands, baring the bones, yellow and raw.
Like the bones in the face of the faceless man.
Other images sprang from the recent investigation. A trench-coated Vodyanov. A pigtailed Jahaan Cole. A gap-toothed Timothy Horshauser. A belligerent Aiello. A shard-covered study. A burned-out office.
Had I been targeted? Was I being watched? If so, by whom? Why? What danger did I pose? Did it involve government secrets? Dodgy real estate? Missing kids? Murder?
Was the threat a bombshell revelation that Margot Heavner was incompetent or corrupt? Was it Vince Aiello’s exposure as a pedophile? Nick Body’s as a fraud? Vodyanov’s as an enabler? A trafficker?
The discovery of a killer?
Or was it all the product of my faulty circuitry?
And where did Yates Timmer fit in?
Two weeks had passed since Vodyanov’s body was found. Slidell and I had zero to show for our investigation.
In addition to frustration, I felt terrible guilt.
Joe Hawkins had leaked me confidential information. That file may have been viewed, even stolen in the break-in. If there was a break-in. Lizzie Griesser had performed an analysis gratis. Her phenotype report was also destroyed, perhaps viewed or downloaded.
Out of some half-baked mistrust of cyber-security, I’d stored nothing in the cloud. Not a chance Heavner would share her notes, and I wouldn’t place Joe at further risk. I could ask Lizzie for another copy of her report, but that might put her in jeopardy.
Sudden frightening possibility.
Had Gerry Breugger burgled my home? Had he torched the annex to cover his tracks? To slow me and Slidell in our investigation? Did the reporter want a story that badly?
The implications were horrendous.
If Breugger made everything public, Joe might be fired, his long career ended in disgrace. Would Lizzie suffer the same fate? Would her employer lose clients due to distrust in the lab’s ability to maintain confidentiality?
My career was in free fall. Was I dragging my friends down with me?
I envisioned radiating circles with me at the epicenter. A ripple effect of destruction created by my actions.
Besides hallucinations, could migraines cause panic, paranoia, and feelings of hopelessness? Could the aneurysm or subsequent embolization? Or had I been drugged? Was my heightened anxiety a by-product of a bad acid or Molly trip? Were my fears justified?
Were Slidell and I closing in on someone or something?
A long-hidden government secret?
A real estate scam?
A media fraud?
A child molester?
A killer?
27
FRIDAY, JULY 13
Hospitals are the least restful places on earth.
Nevertheless, I ended up having to stay what remained of that first night and the next. Once my medical history was revealed, my neurologist was notified. He ordered an MRI and MRA, an EEG, and other poking and prodding, “just to be sure.”
Both nights, I was awakened repeatedly by a penlight shining in my eyes. Both dawns, some doctor was paged for some color-coded crisis. Constant summonses followed. Carts rattled. Speakers bonged.
At seven a.m. on Friday, anxious to return home to rescue Birdie from my neighbor Walter’s care, I started agitating for release.
The wheels ground at the pace of tectonic drift.
At eight, I was disengaged from my drip line.
At eight thirty, breakfast was placed on my over-the-bed table. As on my first morning, no Jell-O.
At nine thirty, the tray was cleared. I inquired about my belongings, not disclosing my intention to bolt.
At nine forty, Ryan walked through the door with a bouquet the size of a Hereford. Mixed feelings flooded through me. Happiness? Humiliation? Resentment?
“Wow,” was all I could muster.
“Wow, as in good wow? Or just-shoot-me wow?”
Ryan looked around, finally set the flowers on the windowsill. They were not a good fit. Then he crossed to the bed to kiss me.
“Of course I’m glad to see you. It’s just such a surprise.” We’d spoken early Thursday, agreed it was just a bump on the head and that Ryan should remain in France.
“Staying put didn’t work for me. I had to see your smiling face myself.”
My smiling face did anything but.
“What about Neville?” I asked.
“I set some things in motion. Will head back if one of those leads pans out.” Big Ryan grin. “So. When are you out of here?”
“Any minute. Or we hatch an escape plan.”
Ryan snapped a salute. “I am a police officer. I can condone no illegal maneuver.”
At ten thirty, a plastic bag appeared, T. Brennan, Rm. #1203 penned in Sharpie on the outside. I loosened the drawstring, was relieved to see my keys tucked into one dirt-crusted sneaker. A silent thank-you to Slidell. I was pulling out my jeans when an attending physician appeared. Or a hospitalist. Maybe a plumber. His name tag said Gursahani.
After giving me a cursory once-over and issuing recommendations for my continued well-being, Gursahani informed me that Dr. Bernard, my neurologist, was on his way. And that Bernard would be discharging me.
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