Jaimy Gordon - Lord of Misrule

First time out?

It's not impossible. (Laughing again-like something flying apart.) Well. We'll soon find out. That's one consolation.

How soon?

Very soon.

Not that soon, Tommy.

O yes. Even sooner

Not tonight soon.

Tonight, Maggie. Maiden claimer. Fourth race. Now don't give me a hard time. Get us the big tub, will you? He should be standing in ice already.

THE FRIZZLY HAIR GIRL wasn't watchful like Deucey had told her. Thus and consequently, it was easy for Medicine Ed to be watchful. He went in his tack room and put his eye up on that chink and taken a deep look at them, the funny-looking couple from Charles Town, reefer-smoking friends of Zeno, Tommy Hansel and the frizzly hair girl, and their big red horse.

It was a peculiar thing: how Zeno's horse and this young fool's showed up today like might-could-be twin brothers, common enough horses but like seeing double, both maidens, both geldings, fat, red, with nary a mark on them, not even a white sock, and both the color of store-bought whiskey. As for Tommy Hansel, what was the story on that young fellow? It had Medicine Ed woolgathered, trying to fit him in where he belonged. He was a racetracker in his moves, but he wasn't a racetracker in his face. He had a Jordan John look about him which gave Medicine Ed the creeper crawlers-wide forehead, black curly beard, high color for a white man, and burning eyes-big smoking charcoal eyes. This business will run men crazy, Zeno always say. The young fool had a crazy look about him. He had a wild man's laugh. It gave Medicine Ed the creeper crawlers down to the bottom of his hair, and he could not understand why Mr Boll Weevil should have a look alike in that man's company.

I don't get why we had to come here, Tommy, the frizzly hair girl say to him, it's all crooks running this place, and he say, Maybe they think I'm a nobody. I am a nobody. And he laughed that king-size laugh, not like he really thinks he is a nobody.

This old gyp Deucey says they want to get a look at what we have.

Let em look. What can they tell from looking? Half the time, the worse they look, on a track like this, the better they run, if they run.

Yeah? what about this boy? she said, and together they looked at the fat red horse.

Young fool's voice dropped way down. This the one, he whispered. This is my horse. Not a mark on him. That's why I'm not waiting till somebody sees.

She fetched the pitchfork, poked up a mat of dark pissed straw and carried it to the front of the stall on the flat of the tines.

How soon? she asked.

Tonight.

You really put him in.

While I can.

You're not going to scratch.

Nope.

He just got out of the van.

He can handle it.

Seven, eight hours standing on his feet. Noisy hot ride. Horse that's hardly raced. I'm just saying what you taught me, Tommy.

All true.

Who are you putting on him?

Jojo Wood. Hector couldn't get here.

Shit, the girl said.

Look, all he has to do is get the horse out of the gate. The Mahdi will do the rest.

Jojo is a clutz, as you've told me fifty times.

We have a very good shot in this race, the young fool say.

We didn't leave our home to take a shot, Tommy. What's wrong with you?

The young fool ain't answer and she went stomping out the stall in her bargain basement sneakers. He had on hundred dollar horseman's shoes, from London, England, color of new pennies, with zippers up the back.

She was back directly with her own paper.

You put him in for six furlongs, she say. He never went more than five.

Young fool stand there a-petting his big three-year-old. Gus Zeno's got a horse in this race.

That's right.

I think he might be gambling on that horse. His old groom had such a look on his face, like something was up.

No way, the young fool said. It's a nothing horse, big red baby, hardly been out, and he's giving it a race.

He looks just like our horse, the frizzly girl said. I saw him myself.

To the ignorant, The Mahdi might look like a nothing horse, but Zeno's horse is a nothing horse, as he'd be the first to tell you. Let me see that paper.

He snapped it flat in his hands, so sharp that the red horse threw his head up and screamed a little, and the young fool glared over the quarter-folded Telegraph at the girl. It's a nothing horse, he repeated after a moment.

He threw the paper at her feet and she picked it up, turned her back on him, and studied it.

Zeno's horse always goes six furlongs, the frizzly girl said.

He snatched her off the ground by the loose of her jeans, her arms flew up and out and she landed on her belly in the straw. And then he picked her up by her rear waistband and pushed her against the wall, leaned hard on her from behind and run his hand down the front of her pants. He was no pygmy racetracker. He was a well-grown man.

You shut up, you hear me? he said in her ear. That's enough out of you.

Let me go, she said. Someone might come by.

Just shut. Do you hear me? Do you understand?

What do you want? she whispered.

I want you to capitulate.

All right. All right, she said.

The young fool went off somewhere, and now, like Deucey said, the frizzly girl don't let the animal out of her eyesight. She sat in the straw memorizing the horse, with her hands wrapped around her bony knees and her back against the wall. It wasn't all that much to see. She looked at his clean red legs, at the long tendons where they rolled in and out each other as he moved his weight, like strings on a bass fiddle. For a horse going to a race in sixty minutes he ain't have much to say for himself, just standing in a tub of ice, staring in the dark, like his twin Mr Boll Weevil, standing in a tub of ice five stalls down.

I want you to capitulate. Along the muscular curve of her buttocks, in the notch between them, she had felt him harden against her. His knees pushed her knees apart and his hand slid down her belly and inside her jeans, pressed at the soft wet rivet that held her limbs together. And then he had speared her on his fingers. She uttered some senseless syllable.

That's enough now, do you hear me, Maggie? he said.

Let me go. Someone might come by.

You're going to shut up, starting now. Do you hear me? Do you understand?

What do you want? she said very low.

I want you to capitulate.

All right. All right, she whispered.

And then she was falling, falling. But he didn't let her up. He pushed farther, and curved them, his fingers, hard against the wall of her. And his thumb found the other moist portal and curved around inside her to meet them, and hooked her.

She was spinning upwards. Her loosened jeans bound her knees together. One hand under her belly, he lifted her to himself. And then some small thing gave way and he pressed to her center. Somewhere he laughed at her, not unkindly.

THEN THEY WERE WALKING to the track, Hansel in front, the girl leading the one red horse, Medicine Ed leading the other a few lengths back. The tall old groom dragged his stiff right leg lightly through the gravel, mumbling some old song to himself or the horse. It was a maiden race for a cheap price and these two horses, though you could not easily tell them apart, stood well out from the other horses. Both were chunky and solid, both the red of weather-beaten fire hydrants, with big square chests and a heavy, easy way of going. The Mahdi even pranced, in all his big red cheer, wearing his burnished chest like a Torah breastplate. Mr Boll Weevil went more stylishly, his mane braided and knotted and his feet prettily oiled, for he had a groom of the old school. The others? They were shufflers with their heads hanging down like plough animals, or tremblers, or rearers, their scared penises battened out of sight in purses of loose gray skin, underbellies awash in yellow foam.