Michael JECKS - The Templar's Penance

Parceval was very drunk when Hellin began his assault. Well, they all were. There must have been seven or so customers left in the inn by the time Hellin noticed the boy arrive. The lad walked with his girl to a dark corner in the tavern – a stupid error. He was away from the door, and must pass by Hellin again to escape the place. Not that Parceval knew this at the time. He was outside, spewing again. He’d already been forced to go out and puke once to make space for more ale, and now he was feeling the onset of the next bout. His skin felt too tight, his face was hot, his body clammy, but he felt marginally better and was rising to return when he heard the noise inside.

It was strange how some men lost all control when they were drunk. Hellin was one such. Whenever he had too much to drink, he wanted to fight, and tonight was no exception. Apparently he made a great game of laughing at the couple, jeering and making stupid comments about the man. He’d a fair group of his friends about him, and they kept on and on until the couple rose to leave, the maid hiding her face beneath a veil. Then Hellin stood and blocked their path. The tavern was only a small place, and there was nowhere else for escape. The youth pushed the girl behind him, and Hellin held out his hands innocently, the brutish features – Christ Jesus , how Parceval hated that face! – expressing apology, as though he suddenly realised that he had gone too far and wished to apologise, but when the boy trusted him, Hellin van Coye drew him to his breast, snatched the boy’s own knife and plunged it into the side of his neck, thrusting down with all the force at his command. The lad fell without a murmur, probably dead before he reached the ground, and then it was that Hellin took the girl.

He was nothing if not democratic though, Hellin van Coye. When he had enjoyed his game with her, he held her thrashing form for his friends. He wouldn’t have wanted them to miss out on the fun.

Many wouldn’t believe the story afterwards. Ypres had been such a lovely little town, but things had changed, perhaps forever, when the famine struck and swathes of the population were struck down. In one month in 1316, a tenth part of the city’s people had died from hunger. After those days, the murder of one young man and the rape and subsequent suicide of his woman was of little note. There were many more things for the folk to concern themselves over, such as would there be any food on the table that night?

Parceval had coped very well with things. Until that hideous night, he had been a cheerful fellow, always the first with the offer of an ale or wine when the taverns were open, always the first to open his wallet, the first to see the humour in a youngster’s shame or embarrassment. It all changed that night, though, because of Hellin.

For Parceval, that scene haunted his dreams. Drunk, confused, he returned to see the boy dead on the floor. The girl was discarded at his side, eyes screwed shut, her wimple and veil gone, her dress torn apart, her skirts clutched to her in the hope that she might cover herself.

He could do nothing. His horror rose, choking him, searing his soul, and as he reached towards her, Hellin and another grabbed him and pulled him from that hellish room.

The lot of them callously left her shrieking to herself in the middle of the floor, covered with vomit and her lover’s blood. The men walked down an alley, two trying to support Parceval, but they had only gone a short distance when Hellin bethought himself that it would be amusing to pick on someone else. He did that sometimes; he was as unpredictable as the thunder. This time it was Parceval’s turn.

Hellin turned on Parceval and accused him of not taking his chance with the girl. That, he said, was disloyal. Or was it because Parceval had no ballocks? Here was Hellin, providing them with a pleasant chicken to stuff, and the least Parceval could do was show willing and pile in. All this was said with that customary glowering mien with the twisted lip, that meant it was either a joke, or that Hellin was working himself up to a killing frenzy.

Parceval had said nothing at the time. He was recalling that face – that pure, white, terrified face. It was appalling. He felt his stomach react, and he emptied his ale over the roadside to the hilarity of the companions, but then he lurched away, and while his ‘friends’ spoke and laughed, he sought a trough and washed his face and hands.

That poor girl had screamed as though her soul was being torn from her with pincers of steel. She had screamed as though the entire legions of heaven were powerless to help her, as though there was nothing, nothing in this world that could ever rebuild the life that was shattered that night. When the men had all left her, she had taken up the knife that had ended her man’s life, and slit her own throat, rather than suffer any more. What could life have been to her after that night?

Parceval had washed himself and felt the drunkenness fall away as he thought of her. Then, while his companions sat or sprawled in the roadway, he walked up to Hellin and stabbed him in the back of the neck, shoving the knife in and up with all his might, clinging on to his blade as the great meaty hands reached up and over to haul him away, ignoring the punches and slaps from his ‘friends’.

‘Friends’! These were the men who had raped his daughter. He had no friends.

‘Why do you want to go there?’

‘It is only right that a man should seek a murderer, surely?’

Simon eyed him doubtfully. Baldwin was suspiciously enthusiastic for someone who was talking about scouring a country for a fugitive. ‘Come on. This is not only about some dead servant girl, is it? I can understand your wanting to speak to Ramón, but you were all afire to seek out Matthew’s murderer. Why are you now so keen to leave here and go to Portugal?’

Baldwin’s smile dropped a little. ‘Is it that obvious?’

‘It is,’ Simon yawned.

‘In the first place, as you say, I want to question Ramón; in the second, it seems that the man who killed Matthew was with a small band, and he’s in Portugal too. We have heard that he was seeking a path to Tomar when he left here.’

‘That makes more sense,’ Simon said. There was a terrible lethargy stealing over him again. ‘So you want to catch him too.’

‘It is not only that,’ Baldwin said and stared out through the open window. ‘It is hard to explain, Simon. When I was in the Order, I was a young man. For the first time in my life, I had a purpose. Before that, I was idling my way through life, enjoying it as I could, but always knowing that my older brother would inherit the manor. At last, when I went to Acre and witnessed a magnificent city brought down and destroyed by the Moors, I realised that I had a purpose. At that time, I thought there was no more honourable thing that a man could do, other than join an Order and defend pilgrims by fighting as many Moors as he could. And then the city fell and I was injured and saved by the Templars.

‘I suppose if I had been saved on a Hospitaller ship, I might have joined the Knights Hospitaller instead, in which case you and I would never have met, because I would still be in my Order. But I wasn’t. I was saved by the Templars, and because I owed them my life, I gave my life to the Order. My happiest memories of all are of the Order, of warm sea breezes, of the scent of orange blossom, of fresh lemons, of …’

Baldwin fell silent. In his memory there were so many different scenes. Rocky coasts, sun-baked hills, lush olive groves, vineyards, slim, dark-skinned women with black hair that gleamed in the bright light. It was more than a series of unrelated memories; it was his life.

‘You want to go and see it again?’