Alys Clare - Mist Over the Water

Safe? Safe here? That suggested to Gewis that he had not been safe out in the world in his village. Why not? Where, or what, was the threat? Gewis had no idea. But, if he had been asked, he would have bet it had something to do with the oddities of his past. .

Gewis heard footsteps, many of them, pacing steadily along the passage outside the long dormitory. Hastily he got to his feet, straightened his robe, ran a hand over the unfamiliar shaved patch on the crown of his head and went to join the other monks. They were going to pray, as they did several times a day for what felt like hours. It would have been difficult to concentrate anyway for someone like Gewis, here through no wish of his own. As it was, somehow the necessary detachment had to be summoned to ignore the fact that the abbey was now a building site and to fix the heart, mind and soul on God.

Gewis stood in his appointed place. His eyes were not fully closed and carefully, moving as little as possible, he looked around from under his eyelids, trying to assess what progress had been made in the time since he had last been summoned to prayer. What he observed made his heart drop; weary, lonely, sad, he closed his eyes and gave himself to the prayers.

The image, however, stayed right there in his mind. They had almost done it, those hard-working, tough and ruthlessly determined men who took the Norman coin in return for their job of violation. Only a fragile shell remained, and soon that, too, would be gone.

They were building a huge new cathedral on the very spot where the little Saxon church had stood. There was no way that the two structures could coexist and so almost the entire Saxon church must be demolished. Some of its core elements would survive: the south side chapel, it was rumoured, would form the north wall of the new monks’ quire. Within a precious and much-loved building, the south side chapel had been particularly special for it was here that the bones of Ely’s early abbesses and benefactors had been interred, together with the remains of other beloved figures who had been involved in the abbey’s life. Even this little chapel was not immune from the wreckers’ destructive mallets, and the signs of the attack were evident. This onslaught was, according to the whispers, both a disrespectful and a dangerous thing to do; rumours abounded, the most frightening of which was that something had been disturbed that would have been far better left in peace.

Nobody seemed willing to describe what that something was. Gewis’s eyes fluttered open as he recalled what one of the other young monks had said yesterday about a misty shape that had loomed up out of the shadows beneath the abbey wall. Hastily, he tried to crush the memory of those furtive whispered words, but it proved too strong. It was shrouded all in white . . It held out a hand like a claw . . There was something terribly wrong with its face . .

Gewis felt fear churn in his bowels. Dear God , he prayed silently, help me! Save me!

But help did not come.

For the morning’s work he was sent to sweep the many passages that wound through the abbey. Building sites made a lot of dust and dirt, and the monks spent many hours every day trying to keep their living quarters as clean as they could. Gewis was sent with two other monks to the maze of apartments to the south side of the new cathedral. Presently, he found himself alone, sweeping the length of a narrow corridor between high walls. There was a little door at the other end, and he was aiming to deposit his growing pile of sweepings on the far side of it.

He heard footsteps. Turning, expecting to see one of his brethren, he found himself face to face with a young man perhaps a couple of years older than himself. The newcomer was tall and slim, with fair hair styled quite long and blue-green eyes that held a wary expression. He wore a shabby, shapeless cap pulled forward over his forehead.

He wasn’t a monk and this alone was sufficient to make Gewis approach him eagerly. ‘Can I help you?’ he asked.

The stranger was staring at him intently. Then, taking Gewis totally by surprise, he grinned and said, ‘Yes, I think you can.’

Gewis had no idea what the young man meant and, before he could ask, there was the sound of running feet and three older monks came hurrying along the corridor. The one in the lead drew to a halt, composed his face into a smile and said, ‘Thank you, Brother — er, Brother Ailred, we will deal with this.’ His two companions had hastened to take up positions either side of the stranger and, so subtly that Gewis wondered how they had achieved it, they had swiftly turned him round and were ushering him back along the passage.

‘You say you saw a rat scuttling away down here?’ the first monk said to the stranger as he followed the group back up the corridor. The young man muttered something in reply and the monk said, ‘That is most helpful and we shall take steps immediately to deal with the problem. Now, if you would be so kind, let us explore this way. .’

Gewis stared after them, his broom hanging from his limp hand. He tried to fight the thought, but he was fairly sure he had just seen a helping hand from the outside world smoothly and efficiently snatched away.

The morning seemed endless and as the hours crept by I had to fight the increasingly horrible scenes that my imagination threw up. Sibert can look after himself , I kept saying to myself. He is in no danger. He has gone into an abbey full of monks — God’s men, for heaven’s sake! — and he will come to no harm .

That was all very well, but the logic and the good common sense were having a hard job holding their own against images of eel fishers in hooded cloaks lying dead on the sodden ground, murdered in ways too brutal to contemplate. .

Frustrated, anxious and sick of the sight of the four walls that enclosed me in that small room, I drew my shawl around me and went outside, quickly walking the short distance down to the waterside at the end of the alley. It was not exactly raining this morning, but moisture made the air heavy and already hundreds of tiny droplets had settled on my shawl. I clutched my fingers into the fine wool, remembering my beloved sister Elfritha, who had made it for me. The thought was reassuring, and just for an instant it was as if she stood beside me, hugging me close. I wondered if she was thinking of me just then, even as I thought of her. Love is God’s miracle, the men of the church tell us, and I have often thought that if it is indeed miraculous then it probably can unite people across distance.

I went on standing there, barely aware of the brownish water slipping by just below my feet. It was only gradually that I realized I was no longer worrying about Sibert. I was, in fact, quite calm.

It was perhaps the absence of that anxiety that made me appreciate something I should have thought of ages ago, something which, as soon as it had occurred to me, drove out the calm. Oh, I thought, oh . How could I have missed that?

Morcar had witnessed the pale-haired monk being bundled into the abbey, and for that the men with the young monk had tried to kill my cousin, making two more attempts when somehow they found out that he had survived. They had killed two men whom they had mistaken for Morcar. Did they know that their true victim still lived? I had feared they would find out, which was why it had been imperative to get Morcar off the island and divert his would-be killers by pretending he was still here, being nursed by Sibert and me. So far, so good, but what would they do when they started to wonder if Morcar had told anyone — Sibert and me, for example — what he had seen?

Morcar’s life was in danger because he had seen something he shouldn’t have seen. This perilous secret was now also known to Sibert and to me. Try as I might, I could see no way that the two of us did not also now share the danger.