Alys Clare - The Chatter of the Maidens

‘Indeed I do.’ Helewise nodded gravely. ‘Well, then, Saul, I suggest that, when you’ve finished polishing Baldwin, you take Brother Augustine over to New Winnowlands and bring Sir Josse’s horse back here.’

Saul looked doubtful. ‘Will they let me?’ he asked nervously.

‘Of course they will,’ she said. ‘They know you, Saul, don’t they, Sir Josse’s manservant and his woman?’

‘Aye, but-’

Touched by his modesty — did he not know he had the most honest face of any man? — she said bracingly, ‘No buts, Brother Saul. Go and see Sir Josse, explain your mission, and he will tell you what to say.’ She turned to go. ‘Oh, and Saul. .?’

‘Abbess?’

‘When you return, would you please groom the chestnut mare, too?’

Saul grinned. Beckoning her, he led her the few paces along to the end stall. Looking over the half-door, Helewise saw Joanna’s mare. Her pale coat had been groomed until it gleamed. ‘Oh!’ Helewise exclaimed, instinctively holding out her hand, ‘I had forgotten how beautiful you are!’

The mare came up to her, nuzzling a soft nose in her outstretched palm. The dark eyes studied her, and then the mare tossed her dainty head and gave a gentle whicker.

‘Hello to you, too,’ Helewise murmured. I am going to ride this lovely horse, she thought, a thrill of excitement coursing through her. For a very good reason, I am going on a long journey through springtime England. I know that the fact of my being so delighted at the prospect suggests that I should not be doing it, but really, I have no choice.

The mare had extended her head over the door, and Helewise leaned her face against the warm, smooth-haired flesh of the mare’s gracefully ached neck. Forgive me, Lord, she prayed, if I am eager to go out into Your world. It does not mean that I love Hawkenlye any the less, nor that I am weary of my service to You in this place. But I must go.

As she walked back across the courtyard to her room, she resolved to tell Father Gilbert of her joy at the prospect of her journey. No doubt he would find a way to help her cope with it.

Her elation was, however, swiftly tempered by the realisation that she must decide what to do about Alba; the woman could hardly be left in the punishment cell indefinitely, and only the Abbess could release her.

She knelt in her room, asking for guidance.

And, after a while, she recalled an occasion when somebody else had had to be penned up at Hawkenlye Abbey. Not a monk, nor a nun, but a sad, mentally sick young man who had committed an unlikely murder. They had put him in an end chamber of the infirmary undercroft, in a dark little room with a lock on the door. Oh, Helewise thought, but, apart from being larger, was that any better than the punishment cell?

There are other rooms down there, she thought, there must be. Getting up, she hurried off to look.

She found what she needed. Not the end chamber, at the dark far end of the undercroft, but a larger one near to the entrance. It had a sizeable grille in its stout door; anybody imprisoned within would have at least some daylight.

She went in search of Brother Erse. He was a carpenter and could, she was sure, fit a bolt to the door in the time it took to arrange the chamber for its new prisoner.

When the room was ready, equipped with a straw pallet, covers, a jug of water and a drinking cup, Helewise asked Brother Erse to fetch Brother Saul and, with Sister Martha for support, the four went to let Alba out of the punishment cell and take her to her new accommodation.

A night in the tiny, dark cell had calmed Alba. Blinking in the daylight, she walked obediently between her escorts across to the infirmary; ushered down into her new quarters, she gave a faint smile.

‘You will be taken out for a walk in the fresh air twice a day,’ Helewise told her, ‘provided you behave. Your meals will be brought to you down here. You may have all reasonable comforts and, if you give no trouble, we will allow you a lantern at night.’

Alba would not meet her eyes.

Help me, dear Lord, to reach her! Helewise prayed silently. ‘Alba?’ she said gently. ‘Is there anything you wish to say?’

Alba raised her head. Resentment was evident in her face, but also a grudging appreciation. She opened her mouth and, for a moment, Helewise thought she might be about to speak. But then, with a slight shake of her head, Alba turned away.

With a heavy heart, Helewise returned to her room and sent for Berthe.

The girl came quickly, and Helewise was touched to see the clear signs that she had been crying.

‘Berthe,’ Helewise said, ‘I am going on a journey. I must talk to the superior of the convent where Alba was before she came here. Can you tell me where it was?’

There was fear in the girl’s face. She shook her head.

‘Are you quite sure?’ Helewise persisted.

‘ Yes , Abbess! Honestly, I really can’t tell you that, I don’t know it. She never said, and when I asked Father where she had gone and if we could visit her, he said she was dead to us and we must forget her.’

You poor child, Helewise thought, watching as Berthe struggled with renewed tears. ‘Never mind,’ she said — and how inadequate the words sounded, in the face of the girl’s distress — ‘it’s all right, Berthe, I believe you.’

Berthe was watching her with a strange expression. She looked almost guilty, Helewise thought. Then, after some inner struggle that was painted clearly on her face, the girl said, ‘We lived at Medely. That’s where my father’s farm was.’

‘Medely?’ Helewise repeated. The name meant nothing.

‘Yes! It’s quite a small place. And we — ’ But then she folded her lips tight shut.

‘Berthe?’

‘I can’t!’ she cried. ‘Oh, Abbess Helewise, you’ve been so nice to me and I want to help, but I just can’t !’

You are afraid, Helewise thought compassionately. If I pressed you a little harder, I think you might break down and tell me what I need so badly to know. But what would that do to you, child?

No, she thought, I shall just have to do it the hard way.

She dismissed Berthe with a swift blessing — the poor child was surely in sore need of the Lord’s blessing — and then summoned Brother Michael, giving him orders to ride down to Tonbridge and report the death of the pilgrim to Sheriff Pelham.

Thinking that at least she wouldn’t have to deal with him , since, by the time the Sheriff got himself up to Hawkenlye, she would be on her way to Ely, her enthusiasm for her journey began to creep back.

The Abbess was not the only one eager to be on the road. In the infirmary, Josse lay aching for the party to be gone; only then, or so he hoped, would he be able to have any peace.

He kept envisaging them on the road; the Abbess, her faithful Brother Saul and this lad, Gus. The one who was going to ride Horace. Would they know what to do if anything unexpected happened? Supposing one of the horses pulled up lame, supposing someone took a bad fall, supposing they found the road flooded, or a river crossing place impassable, would they know how to make a detour?

Had any of them the first idea of how to get to Ely?

The Abbess had visited him frequently over the past two days, serenely answering every objection. But she doesn’t really know what it’s going to be like, Josse fumed to himself; when did she ever go off into the blue with only a lay brother and a boy to protect her?

Then, early in the morning of the day that the party was to set out, he had a visit from Brother Augustine.

The boy stood in front of him, a friendly expression on his face. He looked, Josse thought, neither nervous nor overawed at this important mission for which he had been selected.