Alys Clare: Land of the Silver Dragon

I might even come across the old man , Rollo thought. I might be sitting in a tavern one sunny morning, next to a scarred old giant of a man with many a story to tell, and never know that he is the great-uncle of the woman I love .

He sighed, turning away from the ship’s rail and the last sight of the land of his birth. He did not know how far he would venture eastwards: to Byzantium, certainly; maybe even as far as the Holy Land. Wherever he finished up, he would be a long, long way from England.

Part of him still pined to turn round and set off northwards. Without actually knowing when it had happened, it seemed that Lassair had quietly taken up a place in his heart. He missed her; he longed to be with her.

‘But I cannot return yet,’ he said softly to himself.

For one thing, he had a duty to the king. William was an exacting but generous employer; serving him as he did, Rollo was steadily becoming a wealthy man, for he had little time or opportunity to spend what he earned. Besides, he could scarcely envisage announcing to King William that he’d had enough of being his spy and wanted to quit, in order to settle down and become a … a what? A farmer? A fenland fisherman? Rollo smiled.

In a moment of total honesty, he forced himself to recognize that there was another reason why he did not follow his heart and turn for England.

I am good at what I do , he thought. And, human nature being what it is, we tend to like doing the things we are good at.

He wasn’t going to return to Lassair just yet because the thought of what lay ahead was more of a draw than what lay behind.

The admission did not make him feel especially proud of himself. I am sorry, Lassair , he thought.

He hoped that, when finally he returned, she would be waiting for him.

But first, before he saw England’s shores again, he was going to Constantinople.