Philip Gooden - Sleep of Death

But I was too preoccupied to wonder any longer where we were going or why I had been permitted to remain alive. The jolt, as the wagon fell into the hole, had been enough to bring something banging against my back, something which was evidently sharing my stinking blanket and which had been stowed a few feet off. I hadn’t been aware of it until that instant. The stillness and stiffness of the object as it lay pressing into my back reassured me and I told myself that my bedfellow was a roll of rough cloth or a bundle of sticks and staves — or anything at all so long as it was not the truth. This truth I could now feel on my backbone. I was being jabbed at by stiff fingers. Fingers belonging to someone else. Every time the wagon lurched I was prodded, as if in admonition. And then, underneath the animal stench of the hairy blanket, another smell crept into my nostrils. It was the particular scent of Old Nick — a compound of herbs, some sweet, some rank, and his own bodily self — and overlaying all this the scent of death. And I understood that the body which I had glimpsed swaying from the ceiling of his shop had been cut down and placed beside me in the wagon. And I turned very afraid.

Then we stopped.

Again the wagon seemed to lift itself up as the men climbed down. The next moment the blanket that covered me — us — was pulled aside. I don’t know why but I had somehow thought that the hours had slipped away and that evening had shaded into night and night had grown into day again. We seemed to have travelled so long and so far. Even as I sensed one of the men groping for the blanket to throw it off, I prepared to emerge into the clear and cruel light of morning, blinking like a mole. But no such thing. It was night still.

However, my eyes were used to the dark by now. It was my element. And besides, there was a little light thrown at us by a sickly looking moon.

I saw two men at the foot of the wagon. They were gazing at its contents.

‘He’s out,’ said one.

‘I shall light a fire under his feet,’ said the other.

I took only a moment to recognise the first voice as that of Adrian, the false steward in the Eliot household, the thief I had exposed as he prepared to steal my lady’s necklace and blame it on dumb Jacob. Of course! What more natural in a man like him than that he should seek revenge on me, the player who had cost him his livelihood and the respect of his master and mistress. Seeing this, knowing who my enemy was, somehow brought a kind of relief even though I was trussed-up and helpless, lying next to the apothecary’s corpse.

I groaned involuntarily.

‘Still alive then,’ said the other man cheerfully.

‘Get him out,’ said Adrian.

Together they reached in and seized hold of my bound feet and dragged me over the tailboard of the wagon. I thumped painfully onto the ground.

‘And the other thing,’ said Adrian

Moments later the body of the apothecary was carelessly deposited next to me.

‘Go and call,’ said Adrian. I sensed rather than saw or heard the second man move off a distance while Adrian stayed close. As far as I could make out from where I lay awkwardly, face half crushed into the earth, we were in a clearing in a forest. Pale moonlight lay across the grass and fallen leaves. A ring of trees stood guard around us. The air was still and expectant. The horse snuffed and shuffled. It must be hobbled.

From the edge of the clearing came the hooting of an owl, or a townsman’s idea of what an owl’s hoot should be. Ter-wit, ter-woo, three times repeated. I almost laughed. Obviously this was some prearranged signal to be delivered by Adrian’s accomplice. I thought of Nat the animal man, the Southwark beggar who made the odd penny by imitating the cries of animals and birds. I remembered how, only a few days before, Nat had made the sound of a hyena for me in the Goat amp; Monkey, a screeching mirthless laugh; how, only yesterday, he had quipped with William Eliot about the mute unicorn. I wished I was there now, in the warmth and ease and companionship of the alehouse, or in the warmth and pleasure of Nell’s bed. I wished I had returned with her to her crib, that I had not left her with an ill impression of myself. I wished myself anywhere but here in the middle of a dark wood.

The other man finished making his bird calls and was answered by hooting from farther afield. This was more convincing than the first call but to anybody who possessed country ears it was still no owl. My spirits, already low, sunk down even deeper. So there were at least three of them, three men who counted themselves enemies to me. Why stop at three? Might not the whole forest be full of individuals who hated me or could be hired by one that did?

I tried to see where Adrian was but he was out of sight, probably somewhere on the far side of the horse and wagon waiting for his minions to return. After a time there were whispers from the edge of the clearing and the next moment three shapes were standing so close to me that no more than their legs were visible. I played, not dead, but quiet, glimpsing things through a half-closed eyelid and hoping that if I stayed still I might also stay safe. I noticed one of the six legs swing back and forward and, at first without connecting the two, experienced a sickening blow in the belly. Trussed as I was, I doubled up on the ground and retched helplessly.

Through red-dimmed senses and past my wheezing breath I heard a voice say, ‘No, Ralph. Wait. Your time will come.’

It was plain that Adrian was in command. So far I had heard not a sound from the third man, save for imitation of the owl. Adrian must have made some gesture because I felt hands fumbling at me.

I was hooked up under my bound arms and hauled into a standing position. I fought to get my breath back. I spat and spluttered. With my hands tied behind my back I felt naked, though I was clothed, and open to harm. The other two men, who I couldn’t see clearly, held me up. Directly opposite was Adrian the false servant, his countenance gleaming in the pale moonlight. His razor-like nose quivered. He sneered in a way that, had he been on stage, I would have condemned as unconvincing. The one-time steward was wearing the same gear as when I had last encountered him in the Eliots’ private box at the Globe Theatre. A tall black hat and a dark cloak that, together with the sneers, signalled clearly: I am villain. Quake, all you who look on me.

I half expected him to rub his hands together with glee and — as if he had read my mind — this was the next thing which he did.

‘Well, player.’

For an instant I contemplated not recognising him. That would be galling. A villain demands a response. But he could see that I knew him. Saying nothing, I let my head droop in acknowledgement. I felt weak and beaten. I was weak and beaten. But something told me to play at seeming even worse than I felt.

‘Oh, this is turning the cat in the pan,’ he said. ‘This is a change of fortune.’

I still kept silent, partly because I could think of nothing to say and partly to deny him the satisfaction of an answer. He remained gazing at me for a moment longer, then turned away, motioning for us to follow. With my legs bound I was dragged by the other two across the rough tussocky ground. I wanted to say, ‘What about Old Nick? What about the apothecary? You cannot leave him lying dead and cold in the forest, for birds to peck at.’ When we left his corpse behind, I felt almost as though I was abandoning an old friend.

We were rapidly out of the clearing and into the forest. A thin light strained through the leaves from above and then was suddenly extinguished as clouds moved over the moon. By now my eyes were as used to the dark as they would ever become. We were treading some kind of path, a thread of greyer ground that wound among the boles and trunks. Ahead of us the yet darker shape of Adrian glided through the trees like an outcrop of the night. He was evidently familiar with the route. Neither of my companions was particularly nice or careful about our passage and my feet and shins were buffeted against roots and torn at by prickly bushes. I am sure they went out of their way to ensure that my head and shoulders collided with low-lying branches.