P. Tracy - Live Bait

Martin moved lightly for such a big man, but the nursery was so quiet Lily could hear his shoes crunching on the pea gravel long before she felt his weight on the bench next to her.

‘I’m going to try to get Jack to stay in a hotel for a few days,’ Marty said.

‘Good. I could use a vacation. So could you. Get a suite with a kitchen.’

‘I’d just as soon you kept your distance from Jack until this is over, Lily.’

She turned to look at him. Most of the time Lily was moving so fast it was impossible to think of her as an old person. But the strain of this week was wearing on her, and he could see the age in her face, wiping away the illusion of strength. It was the first time he’d ever thought of her as a frail mortal, just like the rest of them. ‘Jack goes to a hotel, I go to a hotel.’

Marty gave her a little smile. ‘So you’re a mother again.’

‘You have kids, even a schlock, you’re always a mother, no matter what. This is not a voluntary thing.’

Marty thought about Lily and Jack locked in a hotel room, a cop at the door. He liked the picture.

‘The only bad part about the hotel is that this has been good for you, Martin, being here. You want to know how I know this?’

‘No.’

‘I know this because you’re drinking like a normal person again. A little tipple at night, maybe, that’s all.’

‘Can’t think and drink.’

‘So what are you thinking about?’

‘I want to find out who killed Morey.’ He turned and looked at her hard. ‘Don’t you?’

She tightened her mouth, so spare of flesh now that it almost disappeared.

‘You know, it’s funny, Lily. Most of the time when someone gets killed, the family’s all over the cops, calling, coming down to the station, how’s the investigation going, do they have a suspect…’

‘Like you and Morey did, when Hannah was killed,’ she said with an odd chill in her tone.

Marty closed his eyes for a second. ‘You never came with us. You never asked. It was like Morey and I were all alone in that. And now you’re doing the same thing again. Morey’s been dead for three days, and not once have you shown the slightest interest in who might have killed him. I just don’t get it.’

Lily filled her lungs with the sodden air and looked at the lilacs, not at him. ‘Let me tell you something, Martin. For me, if it’s cancer or war or a man with a gun or a knife, dead is dead. Dead is the end. It’s been seven months since the man who murdered Hannah was killed. Now you tell me, is your life so much better, now that he’s in the ground? Because it’s not better for me. This person, he was a nothing. Bury ten thousand more just like him and still’ – she tapped her chest – ‘this is empty.’

Marty braced his elbows on his knees and dropped his head into his hands. ‘I’m still glad he’s dead,’ he whispered.

Lily shook her head. ‘You men. You always want to know who did this or that terrible thing, so someone can find them and make them pay. Always it’s been like this for men, the eye for the eye, as if it would make any difference.’

Jack was well on his way to a fine toot by the time Marty and Lily got up to the house, the weight of the weather and their conversation weighing them down, slowing their steps.

He was sitting at the kitchen table, a bottle of Glenlivet in one hand, a glass in the other, dispensing unwanted legal advice to Officer Becker. The young cop was standing off to one side, watching his charge, the windows, the doorway. Marty figured he’d had them made before he and Lily ever got anywhere near the house.

‘Marty, ole’ buddy, glad you’re here. Tony here’s a hell of a nice guy, but he’s a little stiff, you know? And he’s making me nervous, hopping around peeking out windows and all that.’

‘That’s his job, Jack. Saving your sorry life.’

Jack giggled. ‘A little too late for that.’

‘We’re all going to a hotel. Right after supper.’

Jack raised his glass. ‘Whatever you say, Marty. In the meantime, grab yourself a glass, I’ll make your world a better place.’

And it was a little too late for that, too, Marty thought, watching Lily shoot a sharp glance in Jack’s direction that sent him slinking away into the living room, Becker close behind.

They ate a myriad of cold salads and meats contributed by thoughtful friends and neighbors. ‘Funeral food,’ Lily called it, making a plate to force on Officer Becker while Marty made one for Jack he probably wouldn’t eat.

After supper Marty went upstairs, showered, dressed, and started packing a few clothes in his duffel. In the contained environment of a hotel with an officer posted at the door, Jack and Lily would be perfectly safe. There was no logical reason for him to go with them – except for this sudden sense that that was where he belonged. This was his family, dysfunctional though it was. It was all he had; all he’d ever had, really.

When he went to the closet to get his favorite shirt – a short-sleeved white linen Hannah had gotten him for his birthday last year – it slipped from the hanger and fell on the floor. When he bent to retrieve it he saw an old red metal tackle box tucked into the back corner.

‘I’ll be damned,’ he murmured, pulling it out, remembering his disbelief when Lily told him Morey had gone on fishing trips with Ben Schuler. He flipped the hasp, opened the lid, and saw an array of lures, hooks, and bobbers, still encased in unopened plastic, tucked into the neat compartments of the upper tray. Marty didn’t know much about fishing, but he did know you probably had to take the lures out of the plastic to use them. This was not the tackle box of a real fisherman.

He caught himself smiling. In his heart he had known that Morey, who revered all life, was incapable of pushing a barbed hook through a live worm, but Lily’s assertion had been so unequivocal, it had planted a troubling seed of doubt. What he was looking at now seemed to prove that Morey had been exactly the man he appeared to be. He may have sat on a dock or in a boat with Ben Schuler, but Marty would bet his life that he never dropped a line in the water. As a matter of fact, he probably freed the minnows when Ben wasn’t looking.

He lifted the top tray by its handle, and stared curiously at what lay beneath – a clear plastic sandwich bag, and inside it, a passport.

Morey Gilbert smiled at him from the photo on the inside of the front cover. Not the young Morey who had come to America in the late forties, but Morey as Marty had known him. He checked the date of issue – eight years ago – and flipped through the pages, his frown deepening with every entry stamp, then he tucked it into his pocket.

There was a small, dirty cloth bundle on the bottom of the tackle box. Marty tugged at a corner of the fabric, then scrambled backwards when the thing inside fell out, his heart pounding, his mind seeing Morey again, standing at his front door holding out a paper grocery bag. It had been exactly one month since Hannah’s murder.

This is for you, Martin.

What is it?

Jack’s inheritance back when he was my son. He didn’t want it; now it’s yours.

I’m not taking Jack’s inheritance, Morey… Jesus. Where did you get this?

Beautiful, isn’t it? Government Model 45-A Colt. Custom pearl handle. It’s over sixty years old. I took it off a dead Nazi who probably killed an American officer to get it. This is the most valuable thing I own, Martin. This is my legacy.

Marty sat on the bedroom floor, catching his breath, staring at the pearl-handled.45 preposterously kept in the bottom of a tackle box. He’d never expected to see that gun again.

He didn’t know he was reaching for the gun until he felt the smooth mother-of-pearl against his palm. The texture, the weight, the little indentation in a curve of the trigger – it was all the same. Exactly the same as it had been last time.