Scott Turow - The Burden of Proof

"Charlie's not that kind of magnetic personality. He believes in the lives of the poets. A higher essence. He doesn't want to live like everybody else. He's grim and silent and -if you ask his wife-deliberately difficult."

Stern, straddling the row, reared his head to smile at her.

He had moved on quite a distance from their starting point, stirring under the leaves and pulling, and Sonny just now was following him along, eating idly from her bucket. The fruit, baked by the sun, was-wild with fragrance and incredibly sweet, gliding and soft on the tongue.

"It's not all that funny. We tried to live together for ten years and it never worked. Somebody was always moving out."

"There was a change eventually, I take it."

"When I got sick. Charlie showed up at the hospital with a bunch of posies and begged me to marry him. Begged-and I hardly needed to be begged at that point." She had a few berries in her hand and she stepped over a row to drop them in Stern's bucket. She made a remark: the stooping killed her back. Across her forehead, the bandanna had been darkened by' sweat. Sam appeared at just that moment, as he had from time to time, holding aloft a huge berry. Both Stern and she took an instant to extol the prize. "He was very convincing. And you know how it is-it's a crisis, you think you're looking right to the center of things. I figured I loved Charlie, he loved me. The rest of it was detalia." She shook her head. "Nobody promises us we'll be happy, do they?"

"No," said Stern.

"No," she said. "Anyway, it was very complicated by then."

"I imagine," said Stern quietly. He saw that this Charlie was due some commendation, hav/lng the heart to beg for the hand of a woman whose life hung in the balance.

"Oh, it wasn't what you'd think." She seemed to be smiling.

"He was married," Sonny said. "I told you: there were details."

"Hmm." Stern took an instant, adjusting. "Sam's mother?"

"That's right. He married her after one of our breakups.

As I said, it's been an up-and-down relationship."

"Well you know the sayings," said Stern. "Which ones?"

"Many. 'True love never did mn smooth'?" Sonny shrugged.

The thought was not consoling, "How did you meet your wife?"

"Oh, that." Stern lifted a hand, prepared to consign the story to the ineffable, and then thought better of it, that it would be, in a word, unfair. "I worked for Clara's father.

He let me office space. One thing led to another."

"And what was not smooth?"

"Most everything. You can imagine the complications when a penniless immigrant falls in love with the boss's daughter"

"Her parents objected?"

Stern made a sound, still not quite able, even thirty years later, to withstand the recollection of the disruption.

"And they never accepted you?"

"On the contrary. After I married Clara, her father offered to take me into his practice. He was quite prominent. I lived in dread of him but envied his success, and was much too callow to refuse."

"So what happened?"

"We learned a bit about each other. Eventually, we had a serious disagreement."

"Over what? Can I ask?"

"Oh, this is a very embarrassing story," said Stern. He stood up to face her, adjusting the hat on his head. The rim was shot round with straw bands that had come loose and scratched his forehead when he moved. "One day my fatherin-law called me into his office and told me there was a file he wanted me to steal from the county courthouse. A divorce matter for an important client, in which the husband had managed to sue first. This was th'uy years ago, and the request was not quite as unthinkable as it might be today, but it remained a serious matter."

"You're kidding! And your relationship fell apart when you refused?"

"No, our relationship suffered when I did as he asked. We knew much too much about one another then. He knew how craven I was; I knew that he was corrupt. I suppose that having the courage to do that convinced me that I could walk out on Henry, too.." Stern glanced over to Klonsky. He had never told that story to another mortal soul, not even to Clara, whose loyalties, so early in their marriage, he could not fully depend on.

Sonny had now sat down with the bucket between her knees, her face bright with the heat, massaging her 1owe back. It seemed they had passed the point where he could shock her; if he went marauding naked down the rows, she would nod and accept it with the same placid smile as a further exchange of intimacies.

He bent again-the brightest berries were beneath the leaves, resting just above the straw beddings-but he remained under the charm of his own story. For a short time, his image of Henry with his braces and his white widow's peak was as clear as if.he were only a row or two over. He had been as brazen in this request as in so many other things, putting it to Stern right in front of the client, a -1ooking woman in a tight blond hairdo and a dark green suit. Stera had wondered a bit about Henry's relationship with her. It was well known that Henry was not a man of perfect virtue; but that question, like many others, went unanswered. 'Oh, don't look at me that way,' said Henry. 'This stuff is done all the time. I give Griffin McKenna one hundred dollars every Christmas to make sure no one does it on any of the bank's cases, and half the-goddamn files disappear anyway." But you have to sign for the file, Stern noted. 'Are they going to look at your dog tags? Write down a name. Jones.

Jablonsky, for Chrissake. Just make damn certain that you don't write down Mittler-or even Stern, for that matter." For some reason, this recollection seemed to have been edging up on him for days. Then he remembered: John. and Dixon. Amid the present amity, the thought was troubling and he immediately put it aside.

"He sounds like he was a pretty tough customer."

"Oh, he was. No question about that. I have not met many men tougher than Henry. He reminded me of certain policemen. In some ways, he seemed to be made of stone.

Resolute. This was how it was. Punkt."

"Did Clara like him?"

"Ah, well. Now that is another question." For a moment, he turned his attention to the plant; this picking,' hard on the back and thighs, was satisfying work, quickly rewarding, and tempting in its own way. He found a berry large as a small apple and showed it to her. "Clara had strong feelings for him. She sat by his bed weeping when he died.

At many other times, in earlier years, she reviled him, and probably in stronger terms than most children criticize or rebuke their parents."

"That sounds like my mother and me," said Sonny. A wind, most welcome, came up then and raised dust in a revenant form down the road. When he looked back to Sonny, she had her eyes closed and both hands placed over the full shape in her middle. He was afraid that she was in pain, but it became clear quickly that it was, instead, resolve which gripped her.

"God," she said. "God, I am going to do better." She Opened her eyes then and greeted him with a magnificent smile-happy to be here, to have survived it all, to swear her vows and to see him sharing this, their acre of common ground.

LATE in the afternoon, with Stern carrying all the buckets, the three of them returned from the straw, berry field. The wind had turned suddenly, fresh-ened by some northerly impulse. When they reached the cabin, Sonny sat heavily in a chair and laid the backs of her hands across her eyes.

Stern suggested she lie down.

"Would you mind?" she asked. "Just for a few minutes?

Then you can try to have that talk with me."

"Sam and I shall make do."

"You can wash the strawberries," she said. "Sam enjoys that. And Sam-check the hot tub. Make sure everything is okay."

The kitchen sink was joined unceremoniously to the rear wall, without any cabinetry to hide the plumbing. The boy stood on an old bentwood chair and insisted on holding each berry under the running tap.. Laconic when Stern arrived, he now went on with five-year-old officiousness, issuing an unbreaking string of commands.