Carol Sister O'Marie: The Missing Madonna

As soon as Mrs. Bassetti was out of earshot, Kate moved over and sat on the couch with the Sisters. “Poor Mama Bassetti.” She twisted a thick piece of her red hair. “She can’t get used to a liberated woman.”

“And how are you, Ms. Liberated Woman?” Mary Helen asked.

“Just fine, really, except”-Kate cut the chitchat short-“there is something I wanted to ask you about before my mother-in-law comes back.”

Aha! So there was a hidden agenda, after all! Mary Helen felt suddenly warm inside. She would have sworn that Kate had something on her mind when she called last Monday, and she was right. The old touch was still right on target.

“I want to ask you about getting pregnant.”

Mary Helen hoped her expression didn’t give her away. She had been so sure Kate was going to talk about Erma that it took her several blinks to rearrange her thoughts and several more to adjust her face.

She didn’t want to appear disappointed, nor did she want to appear astonished, when she realized what the topic was.

“Pardon me?” Eileen’s voice rose. Obviously she was not fretting over appearances.

The two listened attentively while Kate told of her desire to conceive and her failure so far. At least Mary Helen was as attentive as she could possibly be, wondering all the while what in the world Kate was getting at.

“Then she”-Kate pointed toward the kitchen-“gave me some St. Gerard oil. She was given it by a neighbor and claims it works miracles.” Kate quickly related the story. “What do you know about it?” she asked.

So that was the point! Mary Helen racked her memory. “Nothing,” she said finally. “Nothing at all.”

To be brutally truthful, she had never heard of St. Gerard oil, and she seriously doubted that St. Gerard had either. Perhaps Eileen knew something about it That kind of thing was more up her alley. She looked questioningly at her friend.

Equally baffled, Eileen shook her head. “I have never heard of it either.” Kate looked so deflated that Eileen couldn’t resist adding, “But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist,” she said. “After all”-her eyes twinkled-“neither of us has ever had any call to use it.”

“I suppose not,” Kate said absently.

“I’ll tell you what I’ll do,” Mary Helen offered. Obviously, in her present mood, the girl needed a straw to grasp. “First thing tomorrow morning, as soon as Eileen’s library opens, I’ll look it up and give you a call. If your mother-in-law attributes three children to having used it, someone must have heard of it.”

That settled, maybe now she could mention Erma.

But Mrs. Bassetti, her face flushed, reappeared in the doorway. “Come to the table. Quick! While it’s hot. Mangia! Mangia! ” She wiped her hands on the corner of an oversized butcher apron, which must have been her son’s.

Jack’s leg of lamb was delicious and the gravy lumpless. The dinner conversation flowed from current events to life at the college. Mary Helen waited for the lull. She was just about to fill it when Mama Bassetti beat her to it. She regaled them with several charming stories about Jack as a youngster. Although he fidgeted in his chair, Jack seemed to take them good-naturedly enough.

The evening passed pleasantly and quickly, although several times Mary Helen found herself distracted. Erma Duran hung on the edge of her mind like a heavy weight. Something bothered her and, whatever it was, hovered just out of reach, evading her grasp. She felt like a person awakening after a vivid dream, aware of it yet unable to remember the details.

When the old-fashioned clock on the mantel struck ten, Mary Helen was shocked. High time they went home. Everyone should be starting to droop. Besides, their hosts had to go to work tomorrow. For that matter, so did Eileen and she. Mary Helen glanced around the table. Actually, the only one who looked droopy was Jack. But then, poor dear, he had been bending over a hot stove. With his mother “helping.”

About ten-thirty, they finally rose to go. Jack walked them to the car and Kate waved from the open doorway. Mrs. Bassetti was already in the kitchen, attacking the dishes no doubt, in case it was also Jack’s turn to clean up.

“Congratulations, old dear.” Eileen said as soon as Mary Helen turned on the ignition.

Great waves of fog billowed down Geary Boulevard, obscuring her vision. She hit the defrost and the windshield wipers simultaneously. “Congratulations for what?”

“For spending an entire evening with two police officers and not bringing up Erma Duran, not even once!”

“It’s not that I didn’t want to bring her up.” Mary Helen edged carefully away from the curb, watching for approaching headlights cutting through the swirling fog.

Eileen’s gray eyes opened wide. “Then why didn’t you?” she asked.

“Because I really could never find a way to fit it in.”

“Which in itself is a miracle of sorts,” both nuns said in unison.

“Are you with us this morning,” Sister Cecilia asked, “or have you ‘ascended’ above the conversation?”

The question startled Sister Mary Helen. It was the first thing she’d really heard during the entire breakfast and it was Cecilia’s idea of an Ascension-Thursday pun. If there was anyone worse at puns than Lucy, it had to be Cecilia.

Mary Helen looked around. All eyes were on her. “Sorry. I guess I’m a little preoccupied this morning.”

“Or perhaps a little tired. You were out quite late last night.” Therese sniffed.

Smarting but feigning deafness, Mary Helen wondered what exactly had been addressed to her. Whatever it was, it couldn’t have been as important as the questions whirling around in her own mind.

She had awakened puzzling and had been puzzling ever since. In fact, she was so distracted during the morning Mass that only a look at her watch made her sure the celebrant had been Father Adams. He was the one priest who could say Mass in twenty-five minutes, three readings and a homily included-not that she had heard one word of his sermon. Her mind had begun to wander during the first reading.

Luke’s account of the Ascension was vivid: the Apostles, gaping open-mouthed; Jesus’ bare, pierced feet hovering just above their heads; their total bewilderment as they watched Him being lifted up into a cloud.

She couldn’t help but identify with them. Gazing into an empty sky, they must have wondered about the man they thought they had known so well. Fortunately for them, two men in white flowing robes appeared to explain. At the moment, she wished someone would appear and explain a few things to her, white gowns optional.

Yet despite her distractions at Mass, Mary Helen had felt God’s closeness. Who else but He could be urging her to probe and pick until she discovered truth? Only then, she knew, would He fill her with a sense of peace.

Give me a hint! Mary Helen prayed silently, picking up her breakfast tray. Or give me a break!

She excused herself from the table. Only Eileen seemed to stare at her curiously. She wondered for a moment if her lips had been moving.

Back in her bedroom, Sister Mary Helen stared at her neatly made bed, frowning. She couldn’t even remember having made it. Now, that is distracted! she scolded herself. She hated bed-making. It always seemed like such a waste of time. You just had to unmake it to get back in.

How she wished she had used the opportunity to talk to Kate Murphy last night about Erma. How she wished she could talk to her right now.

Of course! she thought, brushing her teeth, St. Gerard Majella! She paused, brush in hand. What a perfect excuse to call Kate first thing this morning.