Åsa Larsson - Until Thy Wrath Be Past

“Is the ice thick enough to take the scooter?” he says to his brother.

“No,” Hjalmar says.

The dogs are restless. They are running around in circles and howling.

Tore does not believe his brother.

“You’re lying,” he says.

He pulls on his gloves. He will drive after her and mow her down. She is dead. She is already as good as dead.

When he opens the door, Tintin sneaks out.

Martinsson runs along the scooter track towards the river. It is like a strip of shiny ice on top of the powdery snow. She is a reindeer calf on wobbly legs. The wolf is not far away. Her limbs are exhausted after wading through the deep snow. She finds it hard to stay on the track. Her temples are throbbing. Her strenuous efforts have produced a bitter taste in her mouth.

She hears the sound of an engine behind her, and looks round. It is Tore on the snow scooter.

He will run her down. She will die in the snow, her insides mashed to a pulp, blood pouring out of her nose and mouth. Run, run.

Tore drives down the slope towards the riverbank. He is standing up on the scooter. The engine is roaring. He is catching her up. It will not take long. Martinsson stops and turns to face him.

I’m not going to survive this, she thinks.

He is only ten metres away now. She shuts her eyes.

She thinks about her farmor . How she always smelled slightly of the cowshed and tobacco smoke. How she used to get up at the crack of dawn and light the fire in the kitchen stove. Martinsson would drink tea with honey and milk, and eat a cheese sandwich. Her farmor would drink coffee and smoke her hand-rolled cigarettes. Martinsson thinks about her father. How he and Farmor and Martinsson would sit at Farmor ’s place stemming lingonberries. They each have a tray. Under one edge of the tray is a folded newspaper. The sound of the hard berries rolling across the tray and down towards the side, where the stemmed ones gather. Pulling off the stems and leaves, they nudge the trimmed berries so that they roll down the sloping tray. Martinsson finds spiders and other creepy-crawlies that must be rescued and released outdoors.

Then she hears the sound of the scooter sinking through the ice. The ice gives way with a crash. The engine bubbles away in the water, but finally falls silent. She hears Tore Krekula screaming.

When she opens her eyes only the rear end of the scooter is sticking out of the water. It is sinking rapidly. After a few seconds there is no trace left of it or of Tore. No sign at all. The ice crackles and sings as if glasses were floating in the water. Soon there is no trace left of the hole. A thick layer of slush covers the water where he sank. The ice seems to be rocking. A wave of terror flows over Martinsson.

She feels the ice beginning to sink beneath her feet. It becomes like a hammock. She sinks further and further. Although the ice does not crack and break, she is horrified to see how the hole she is standing in is filling with water. It comes up to her ankles, then her knees.

Tintin comes running towards her across the ice.

“Get away!” Martinsson shouts. “Be careful! Get away!”

But the dog comes closer and closer.

From his window Hjalmar sees his brother disappear through the snow-covered ice. Then he sees the dog struggling as far as the frozen scooter track and scrambling up onto it. Then it races off towards Martinsson.

“Oh God!” he says, and really does mean it as a prayer.

Martinsson is standing in the middle of the ice, as if she herself is frozen. She shouts at the dog, trying to make her turn back. It is as if the prosecutor is standing in a bowl.

Then the ice collapses beneath her feet. Hjalmar sees her flailing arms. The next second she has disappeared.

I am flying in circles above the river. Me and three ravens. Round and round. I see Hjalmar come out of his cottage. He closes the door behind him carefully, so that Vera cannot sneak out. Then he starts running. But he doesn’t run very fast. He’s running along the scooter tracks made by his brother, but they haven’t had time to freeze yet, and are soft and mushy. When he reaches the riverbank, he sinks up to his waist in the snow.

He is stuck. He can’t move. He struggles, but it is like being cast in concrete.

“Rebecka,” he shouts. “Rebecka! I’m stuck in the snow!”

I croak with the ravens. We land in the trees. Cut through the air with our loud, rasping, ominous-sounding cries.

The ice sinks. The water rises. Martinsson is getting wet.

She is up to her knees in water. Then she hears the crust of ice over the old snow-scooter tracks cracking. The next moment she is immersed.

Snow and ice fall over her. She gropes for the edge of the hole, searching for something she can hold on to. She hears Hjalmar shouting her name. He shouts that he is stuck in the snow.

The ice is thick, half a metre at least, but loose; it just keeps breaking. She is lying in a soup of ice and snow. Whenever she tries to grab onto the edge of the hole, the ice breaks and falls onto her in big chunks.

Tintin comes running over to the hole.

Hjalmar cannot see Martinsson; the edge of the hole is too high. But he can see the dog.

“The dog!” he shouts. “The dog’s coming after you!”

And then he sees the dog fall into the hole. The edges are not strong enough to support her.

He hears Martinsson yelling.

“Oh, hell!” she screeches.

And the dog is howling like a banshee. Screaming with fear. Then it falls silent. Is fully occupied with trying to stay alive. It is swimming for all it is worth and scratching at the edge of the hole, but the ice just crumbles away.

Martinsson gropes for the edge of the hole with one hand and grabs hold of Tintin’s fur with the other.

The current is strong; she can feel it trying to drag her legs under the ice. She cannot resist it; it is too strong. The cold is sucking her strength away.

She summons all the strength she can muster and kicks hard with both legs. At the same time she tries to lift Tintin up by her fur.

Tintin scrambles up. She claws her way onto the ice. And it holds her.

“Shout to the dog,” Martinsson yells to Hjalmar. “Shout to her!”

Hjalmar shouts, “Come on, girl! Over here! There’s a good girl!”

The dog makes her way over to him. Teetering with exhaustion the last few metres. Staggers up to Hjalmar. Collapses by his side.

“Have you got her?” Martinsson shouts.

Her legs are sliding under the ice. As if someone were pulling her feet.

“Have you got her?”

Hjalmar responds, sobbing.

“I’ve got her. She’s here with me.”

“Don’t let go of her,” Martinsson shouts.

“I’m holding on to her collar,” he shouts. “I won’t let go.”

Now she cannot shout to him any more. She has to… She has to… Try to resist.

Martinsson struggles in vain as her hips are pressed up against the edge of the hole and she finds herself almost lying on her back. She is well on the way to being dragged under the ice. Snow is tumbling over her face. She wipes it away, only now realizing how fiendishly cold she is.

She cannot resist any more. Her shoulders are under the edge of the ice. The current is tugging at her, pressing her body against its underside.

Then she hears Hjalmar starting to sing.

Hjalmar has a hold of Tintin’s collar. He is holding on to her with a grip of iron. She is shivering.

He tries once again to lift himself out of the snow, but it is impossible.

Martinsson shouts and asks if he has the dog. He tells her that he does.

He holds on to the dog and thinks yes, he has her. She is all he has just now. At least the dog is alive. It is going to live. It starts whimpering. It sounds as if it is crying. It lies down in the snow and whines.