Lydia Dare - A Certain Wolfish Charm

"She is still at the Hawthornes'. She sent a note, Your Grace," the butler informed him.

Simon shuffled restlessly through his mail. "Then where is it, Billings?" He raised one sarcastic eyebrow.

The butler coughed delicately. "It wasn't for you, Your Grace. It was for the young earl."

"And what did it say?" Simon snapped. Why hadn't she sent word to him? Had he well and thoroughly terrified her last night?

"I'm not sure. I didn't open it." Billings grew fidgety. Obviously he knew more than he let on, which only made Simon more anxious.

"I expect better from you, Billings," Simon growled as he walked by the butler on his way out of the study. He

would

find out what was in that note if it was the last thing he did.

He found Oliver in the library with William, where the two were discussing the earl's dislike of Latin. He watched them as they leaned over the boy's Latin text. Despite Will's lack of decorum and teasing nature, he was quite a scholar in his own right.

"Have your studies included any text on Lycanthropic lore?" William asked as he held up one finger, silently urging Simon to be quiet. Didn't his brother know how important it was that he find out what was in that note from Lily? Why wasn't she home?

He interrupted anyway. "Oliver, did your Aunt Lily send a note to you today?"

"Yes, Your Grace," Oliver replied, narrowing his eyes at Simon.

"And what did it say?" He tried to force the impatience from his voice. Belatedly, he remembered that the boy had senses similar to his own and could probably smell his agitation.

"It said that Sir Herbert Hawthorne had invited her to stay for dinner and she'll be staying the night."

"She said

what

? Let me see the letter." He held out his hand, waiting for Maberley to show him exactly what she'd sent.

The boy shrugged. "I don't know where I left it."

"Your aunt should be here," Simon said under his breath, but they all heard him. Damn those overly sensitive ears.

Simon wondered which of the Hawthorne brothers had taken a liking to Lily. Probably Emory, if the besotted look on his face when he was with her was any indication.

"Billings," he bellowed. The man appeared. "Get my horse."

"Stop, Billings," William said to the butler. The man waited patiently in the doorway. "Where are you going, Simon?"

"To retrieve Lily," Simon said matter-of-factly. As though he needed to explain? Wasn't it obvious that she should be at home? His home. With him. Under him.

"Tonight is the full moon, Simon," Will reminded him, nodding imperceptibly at the boy.

"And?" Simon asked, still completely focused on retrieving Lily, on seeing her again, smelling her again, holding her again.

"And she's safer where she is."

"Why isn't Aunt Lily safe here?" Oliver asked, his eyes darting from brother to brother.

Simon scratched his chin and gave it some thought. She probably

was

safer at the neighbors'. He tried to calm his beating heart.

Then he motioned to Oliver and said, "Have a seat. We need to have a talk."

The young man asked rather intelligent questions, Simon was surprised to hear. The most poignant question of the bunch being, "Was my father

really

one, too?"

Just before the moon reached its highest peak, the point where it would beckon uncontrollably to those of his kind, Simon clapped Oliver on the back and asked, "Ready?"

The boy simply nodded, worry knitting his brow. As they stepped into the garden, Simon already felt the pull of the moon, the rush of power that surged through him. He looked at Oliver and knew that he felt it, too, even though the boy probably was unable to distinguish between the wildness of the event and the act of moving from humanity to…

not.

Simon wound through the woods on a trail noticeable only to those of his kind. He followed his nose, noting that an elk had recently followed a similar path. Will sniffed the air and said, "No humans."

Simon nodded. For this one event, they would all stay together. Changing was usually a solitary moment, but they feared Oliver would need guidance and the attendance of at least one of them.

Simon and Will began to remove their shirts, boots and stockings after they reached a clearing, a place devoid of shadows so there would be no trees to obscure the light of the moon. For modesty's sake, they left on their trousers, even knowing the garments would be destroyed when they changed. On most occasions, they removed all of their clothing and left it where they could find it before the moon sank and was replaced by the sun. They became wild before the wildness could even take them. But not tonight. Tonight, they wanted to do all they could to keep Oliver calm, so they didn't strip but instead brought extra clothes to don later.

As usual, Simon would be the first to change. As the leader of the pack, he always felt the call of the moon a little more strongly than the others.

Simon closed his eyes and lifted his face to the moon. It was then that humanity fell away and the beast was freed. His body began to change, painful as he knew it would be. Yet he did not cry out because he craved the freedom that came with changing. He wanted the clenching of muscles. He desired the lengthening of his spine. He needed the change of his face to something that was not human.

When his change was complete, he stood still and watched Maberley's face. Fear filled his eyes. In a singular act of goodwill, he walked closer and nudged the boy's arm with his nose. Oliver took two steps back. Simon nudged him again. It was best to let him know that the Lycans still recognized friendships, families, and loyalty. The boy would not be alone.

Oliver watched as Will went through a similar transition, changing into something more than feral, something more than wild. Simon knew the two of them, so similar in human appearance, looked similar even in Lycan form, the only distinguishing characteristic being Simon's streak of silver hair, which followed him even into the beastly world.

Oliver cried out as he began to change, perhaps surprised by the pain, yet oddly comforted by it, if he felt at all the same way Simon did when he, himself, changed. The boy would be fine. He would be there for him. He would nurture and tutor him. He would chew up the world and spit it back out if that's what it took for Oliver to take part in it.

When the three transformations were complete, Oliver followed Will into the darkness. Simon crested the hill, climbing higher and higher until he stood at the top overlooking Langley Downs. There Lily slept, her beautiful head on a pillow. He could imagine her scent, her feel, and the way her skin might taste behind her ear. He licked his lips, salivating a little at the thought. Even now, he was aroused at the very thought of her.

But this side of him she could never know. She could never encounter this part of him, or she would turn from him in disgust. He raised his head toward the moon and called out to her, knowing that she would not hear, that she would not understand. Yet he did. He understood it all too well.

***

Lily sat bolt upright in bed. What was that? She was almost certain she'd heard Simon call her name. She was obviously a candidate for Bedlam, as he was surely sound asleep at Westfield Hall.

There it was again, a feeling as if he called out to her. Lily blinked in the darkness. Then she heard a faint howl off in the distance. She rose from bed and peered out the window. High in the night sky, the full moon illuminated the countryside.

She shook her head. It was probably her imagination.

Fifteen

Prisca Hawthorne did know how to command a room. Lily watched in awe as her friend deftly managed the overcrowded parlor, filled with hulking Hawthorne men.