Shirley Murphy - The Catswold Portal

She slept with me every night of our lives together. Five years. She always met the school bus, racing across the neighbors’ yards to the corner. She never went in the street after I scolded her. Sometimes when she looked at me I thought she wanted to tell me something. I thought she was trying to talk human language, but of course she couldn’t. She could only talk with her beautiful golden eyes, or by touching me with her paw.

Now she is dead. The doctor couldn’t mend her sickness.

I hate doctors.

I buried her under the fuchsia tree. I dug the hole, I wouldn’t let Daddy help. I dug it deep, and I wrapped her in her blue blanket. I put in her favorite sofa pillow and her little dish. I made a clay headstone with her name and picture drawn into the wet clay, and baked it at an art school. I will miss her forever and I will love her forever.

There was no signature. Sarah knelt on the cottage floor holding the lined paper, shivering with pain for the child’s agony.

Was this her own childhood grief, embossed into the page? Had she been that child? How could she forget such a thing as the death of a loved animal? And she didn’t think she had ever seen a cat; cats were forbidden in the Netherworld. At least they were forbidden in Affandar—the queen’s edict said cats belonged only in the upperworld among foreign evils. For an instant she felt on the brink of realization. Then the sensation of dawning knowledge vanished.

The other two papers only intensified her confusion.

I am Bast, I am beauty, I am all things sensuous. In Bubastis, in the temple of cats, my saffron fur was brushed by slaves, incense was burned to me and prayers raised to me, and kings fought for my favor. I strolled beside lotus ponds where virgins knelt at my silken paws or at my sandaled feet and served me delicacies in golden bowls.

I am Bast, child of moon’s caress. I am Sekhmet, born of fiery suns. I have confronted the Serpent whose name is Deception and I have destroyed him.

Though the serpent will rise anew. My daughters will confront him and their daughters will face him. So I bequeath to my heirs the Amulet that holds the power of truth. I tell my daughters this: only by truth can the Serpent be defeated. Only by falsehood can he survive.

She put down the paper, shivering.

To speak of Bast or Sekhmet in the Netherworld would be to invite imprisonment. Cats and the gods of cats, by edict of the queen, were forbidden—evil and unclean. Why had Mag hidden this? What did it mean?

After a long time she took up the third page, and these words were more comfortable, like the language of the Netherworld tales; though strangely this page, too, spoke of cats.

I tell you an old Irish saying that “There’s crocks of gold in all them forths, but there’s cats and things guarding them.” And the Danaan people were driven out of Irish lands into the burial mounds and secret recesses. And they went down through crypts and graves into the netherworld. And there were among them the Cat Kings and the queens of the Catswold.

She did not know the meaning of Catswold. Yet the word alarmed her. Fearing Mag would return, she put the papers back beneath the drawer and sealed them with a spell. She rose and stood at the window, searching the dropping cliff; though if Mag had started up, she could not be seen. She stood looking, then moved to the shelf and took down the old woman’s spell book.

Leafing through the yellowed pages, she found the spell she wanted. She committed it to memory in one reading, and returned the book to the shelf, casting a spell of dust across it so Mag wouldn’t know it had been moved. Then she pulled on her cloak, snatched up a waterskin, and went to saddle the pony. The Pit of Hell lay to the east, cutting across a dry Netherworld valley where she had never been. She imagined the pit’s flame-filled gorge bisecting the valley, its fires leaping high and searing the land on both sides. She imagined the Lamia she must call from the Hell Pit, the beast half-dragon, half-woman, a beast thirsty for human souls. She had no choice. These papers had to do with her past. The time had come to learn about her past, and only from a Hell Beast would she get answers.

Chapter 3

She pressed the pony fast along the high, grassy plateau, her heels dug hard to his sides; her long skirt whipped in the wind that sucked down from the granite sky. Fear of the Pit filled her. Her imagination toyed too vividly with the Hell Beasts and their hunger for human souls, and human flesh.

But with a powerful enough spell she would be safe. If she could call from the pit the Lamia and force it to answer three questions, she might learn who she was. She might learn why Mag had kept the past secret from her.

Soon they left the plateau and the pony made his way down a steep incline toward a dry, sandy valley. No blade grew here, no beast grazed. The brown expanse was surrounded by stone cliffs eaten with holes from the ancient seas. Above her the stone sky was eroded and scarred. She pushed the pony fast across the dry plain, and when at last they reached the far side, she pressed him up a new barrier of steep stone ledges.

At the top she paused to let him blow. Their shadow on the cliff shone thin as breath. Before her the land dropped again steeply, and the granite sky rose away like the top of a bubble. Her every instinct told her to turn back to the cottage and to Mag and safety. But she urged the pony on down the bank. He picked his way carefully, sure-footed, as were all elven-bred beasts. But at the bottom where they entered into a tunnel, he snorted uneasily. She had no doubt this was the way; already she could smell the reek of smoke from the fires of the Hell Pit. The tunnel, without the green wizard light, was totally black. When she brought a spell-light the pony moved on more easily, and when he saw far ahead the end of the tunnel he hurried; the gleam of green light cheered Sarah, too. They came out at the foot of high cliffs.

The air was hot, the land radiated heat. The smoke was so strong she sneezed. They climbed again, and by mid-morning, when they reached the highest ridge, the pony was sweating and balking. Now far, far below them stretched the Hell Pit. The scorched plain was dark with smoke, and was burned black in a wide swath along the edge of the pit. The pit belched smoke and seethed with flames leaping and sputtering. It was in some places wider than the broadest river, but portions of it were as narrow as a path. It was bottomless. Its magma burned and belched fire, bubbling up from the earth’s molten core.

She forced the pony down the slick rock, the little beast skidding and sliding. The smoke smelled sulphurous. Soon sweat plastered her hair and ran into her eyes and glued her dress to her. The pony’s neck and shoulders ran with sweat. Suddenly ahead something black flew toward her, separating into three winged shapes.

Three flying lizards skimmed along beneath the stone sky. When they were directly above her, they circled, watching her. She stared up at their little red eyes and shouted a spell at them. They flapped as if jolted, and flew away screaming. The winged lizards were the queen’s spies. Why would they want to watch her?

As she drew near the bottom of the cliff, the stench of sulphur and smoke gagged her, and the pony put his ears back, wanting to bolt away. At the edge of the plain he balked completely, rearing and wheeling, fighting her. She slid off, let him run back up the cliff, then hobbled him halfway up with the strongest holding spell she knew. If he ran off, she’d walk home.

On foot she crossed the burnt plain and approached the Hell Pit, coughing from the fumes, dizzy with the heat. Near to the pit, flames licked out at her, and the heat warped her vision. She stepped nearer.