Ann Martin - Baby-Sitters Club 058

"What do the doctors say, Mom?" I wanted to know.

She shook her head. "They aren't sure yet. They've taken a chest X-ray and drawn blood and examined every inch of me." "Oh." A horrible thought occurred to me then. I remembered this girl who went to my old school in New York. One day she had a sore throat and a fever. Her parents took her to the doctor. They thought she had a strep throat. It turned out that she had leukemia. Cancer.

What if Mom had leukemia? What if she got really, really sick and I had to leave Stoneybrook and move in with my dad? What if - "Mrs. McGill?" A doctor bustled into the room carrying a clipboard. She shooed Mrs. Pike and me into the hallway.

When she called us back a little while later, Mom was smiling thinly at us from the gurney. "Pneumonia," she said. "I have pneumonia." "The good news is that she can be cared for at home," the doctor spoke up. "She doesn't need to be admitted to the hospital." "What's the bad news?" I asked.

"That I have pneumonia, Stace!" exclaimed Mom. "Now come on. Let's get out of here. I'd like to be in my own bed as soon as possible." Mrs. Pike drove Mom and me home. As she pulled into our driveway I thought to ask, "Hey, Mom? Where's our car?" "Downtown. It's parked near Bellair's." "Mr. Pike will drive it back tonight, Stacey," said Mal's mother. "Don't worry. Let's just take care of your mom now." We helped Mom up the stairs, into her room, into her nightgown, and into her bed. "Ahh," she said. "I think I could sleep for a century." She promptly closed her eyes.

Mrs. Pike and I tiptoed back downstairs. "I'll get these prescriptions filled," she said. "Will you be okay here with your mom?" "Oh, sure. I'm a great nurse," I said confidently. "Remember, I've had plenty of experience being a patient." Not long after Mrs. Pike left, the phone calls began.

"Stace, where were you?" Kristy wanted to know.

"You aren't sick again, are you?" asked Claud.

"We waited for you after school," said Mary Anne.

My friends called separately, so I had to tell the same story over and over (except to Mallory, who heard it from her mother). If I'd been able to go to the BSC meeting I could have gotten away with telling it just once. But of course I didn't attend the meeting. Dawn took over my duties and collected dues.

Near dinnertime I was in the kitchen, busy making chicken noodle soup (oh, all right - heating up canned soup), when Claud called back. "How's your mom?" she wanted to know. "Everyone was asking about her at the meeting." "Okay, I guess. She's just sleeping mostly. She wakes up long enough to take her pills, then she drifts off. I hope she'll eat something tonight, but I don't know." "Will you be in school tomorrow?" asked Claud.

"I - Oh, I hear my mom! She's awake after all. Claud, I better go. I have to see how she is. Call you later. 'Bye." It was while I was on the phone again with Claudia later in the evening that something occurred to me. If I didn't even know whether I'd be in school the next day, what was I going to do about the weekend? My big weekend in the Big Apple was supposed to begin in four days. What on earth was I going to do about it?

I X / c H A P T E R ^ / ^ ·< / / / did not sleep much Monday night. I kept listening for Mom. She was coughing a lot. And twice I had to wake her up to give her pills. Each time I returned to my bed, I just lay there, one ear trained in the direction of my mother's room. No wonder new parents don't get much sleep, I thought. When they aren't up feeding the baby, they're probably lying awake listening for the sound of crying.

Around five-thirty on Tuesday morning I finally gave up on the idea of sleep. I tiptoed out of my room and peeked in at my mother. I thought she sounded a little better. She had not coughed in almost half an hour. I settled myself into a chair just outside Mom's room and began to read.

"Stacey?" called Mom. It was after seven. I was halfway finished with the book.

I jumped up and ran to her bed. "Good morning," I said cheerfully.

"Morning." (Cough, cough.) "Shouldn't you be getting ready for school?" "Me? No, I'm staying home today." (I had made that decision at three-thirty, lying awake in my bed.) "But it's Tuesday . . . isn't it?" "Yes. And you're sick." "It isn't necessary for you to stay home with me, though." "Mom. I'm not leaving you. You have pneumonia." "Honey, Dee will drop by today. And she said she'd arrange for other neighbors to do the same." "I'm not leaving you," I repeated. "You stay with me when I'm sick." "But you're my daughter." "You're my mother." Mom sighed. "Okay. You may stay home today." "Thank you. What do you want for breakfast?" My mother groaned. "Do I have to eat?" "Only if you want to get well. You need strength. Plus, you make me eat when I'm sick." Mom smiled. "You win. All right. Let me see. For breakfast I would like toast. And tea . . ." She trailed off.

I nodded. "Right. Toast/ tea, hot cereal, fresh fruit." "Oh, honey, I can't eat all that. Not this morning." But I fixed it anyway. I served it to her on a tray, and she sat in her armchair and ate while I changed the sheets on her bed.

"You're a good nurse, Stacey," she told me.

"Thank you," I replied. "You still have to eat your breakfast." Mom was just picking around the edges of things.

"I really can't. I'll get sick." I sighed. "Okay." Mom climbed back into bed and lay against her pillows. "Nicely fluffed," she commented, and yawned. "Honestly, how could I be so tired? I slept all day yesterday and all last night and . . ." Mom's eyes drooped.

Before she could fall asleep I said, "Mom, I have to talk to you about something. It's important." "Really important? Or can it wait a little while?" "It's pretty important. Mom, what about this weekend?" "This weekend?" "You know, Dad's dinner. I'm supposed to go to New York." "Right, the dinner. You can still go." "And leave you?" "Don't worry about me," said Mom firmly. "First of all, Friday is three days away. I'll be better by then. Second, I can arrange for Dee to look in on me. And she can run errands if I need anything." "We-ell . . ." "Stace, I'm falling asleep. We'll talk later. But plan on New York. It'll be fine. Trust me." Mom rolled over. The discussion had ended.

I tiptoed downstairs with her breakfast tray, ate my own breakfast, then cleaned up the >kitchen. I kept picturing my mother lying on the gurney in the hospital emergency room, looking sicker than anyone should look, and saying, "1 don't think this is the flu, Stacey." How could I leave her? Maybe I should talk to my father, I thought. And then I realized he didn't even know Mom was sick. Nobody had called him. True, he and Mom weren't married anymore, but Dad had a right to know that his ex-wife had pneumonia. Especially if it meant I might have to miss our special weekend in New York.

I dialed the number of Dad's office. His secretary answered the phone.

"Hi," I said. "It's Stacey. Is my dad there?" Dad has given his secretary instructions to put through all of my phone calls, no matter what. Even if he is in an important meeting. So a few minutes later I heard my father's voice say, "Hi, sweetie. What's wrong? Shouldn't you be in school? . . . Are you sick?" "No, but Mom is," I answered. "Dad, she has pneumonia." "Pneumonia! Is she in the hospital? Who are you staying with?" "It's okay," I said. "She's at home. She went to the emergency room yesterday, but the doctor said she didn't need to stay." I told Dad that Mom hadn't been feeling well recently, and explained what had happened the day before.

"And you're sure she's all right now?" he said. "I mean, that she's as well as can be expected? She really shouldn't be in the hospital?" "I'm positive. You can call Mrs. Pike, if you want to." "Maybe I will." Dad sounded awfully concerned. Then he said, "Stacey, who's taking care of you?" "Of me? I'm not sick. I'm taking care of Mow. But, Dad, I'm a little worried about this weekend, about coming to New York." "I'll help you make arrangements for your mother," Dad assured me. "Maybe I can set up something with a visiting nurse service." "Okay . . ." "Brighten up," Dad went on. "Only three more days until Friday. Then you can take a break from school and sickness and everything else. Honey, I hope you know how important you are to me. To your mother and me. I will be honored to have you with me at the dinner. It will be a big moment and I can't think of anyone else I'd rather share it with." I felt a knot form in my stomach. I just had to go to New York on Friday. I couldn't miss Dad's dinner, his big moment. But I couldn't leave Mom either. Why was I always choosing between my parents? There ought to be, I thought, a Divorce Handbook written just for kids to warn them about things like this. It would say, Even if you decide which parent to live with after the divorce, you will forever be choosing between them.