Victor Pelevin - The Sacred Book of the Werewolf

I guessed that during his absence he had been in contact with the outside world - he might have seen someone or spoken with them on the phone. But I didn’t show the slightest curiosity about that.

‘Mikhalich? But when he howled, the skull didn’t cry.’

‘They’ve come up with a new technology. Take five ccs of ketamine, add two ccs of pervitine, inject and then apply an electric current.’

‘To the skull?’

‘To Mikhalich.’

‘The perverts.’

‘Too true,’ he said. ‘It’ll be curtains in a year like that.’

‘For Mikhalich?’

‘Nah, it makes no difference to Mikhalich. Curtains for the skull. It’s already covered in cracks from all those tears . . . Caliphs for an hour . . . As long as the oil’s flowing, the money’s rolling in, they’re doing fine. But nobody wants to think about what’s going to happen tomorrow.’

‘Listen, what kind of skull is that?’ I said, finally asking a question that had been tormenting me for ages.

‘That’s something I can’t tell you,’ he said, suddenly turning sombre. ‘It’s a state secret. And in general, don’t talk about my job.’

I wasn’t surprised that he still thought of the old firm as his work. There are some jobs you can’t resign from of your own free will. But I hadn’t expected him to want to go back to the people who had put three silver bullets in him. Although I did-n’t know what had really happened then - he never shared it with me.

‘Where will you go, if not to the oilfield?’ I asked.

‘They’ll find something for a super-werewolf to do.’

‘What?’ I said with a frown. ‘What super-werewolf?’

‘Me,’ he replied, surprised.

‘Since when did you become a super-werewolf?’

‘Since when? As if you haven’t seen.’

‘You think you’re a super-werewolf?’

‘What do you mean - think? I know.’

‘From what?’

‘From this,’ he said. ‘Watch.’

Another fly zooming along just below the ceiling dropped to the floor. It was strange to watch - the flies didn’t drop vertically, they followed parabolic curve, continuing their forward motion, and they looked like microscopic kamikaze planes, nose-diving at the enemy from on high.

‘Stop showing off,’ I said. ‘What does one thing have to do with the other?’

‘Meaning?’

‘Well, let’s accept you can kill these flies. Let’s accept that you’re Pizdets and Garm. But why have you suddenly decided that on top of all that you’re the super-werewolf as well?’

‘Then who is the super-werewolf, if not me?’

‘I told you already,’ I said. ‘The super-werewolf is a metaphor. To call some individual creature the super-werewolf means to descend to a very primitive level.’

‘Okay, then I’ll be him on that primitive level,’ he said in a conciliatory tone. ‘You got a problem with that, Ginger?’

‘No, we can’t leave things like that. Let’s analyse this question properly.’

He sighed.

‘Go on, then.’

‘Imagine I buy myself a uniform on Arbat Street and start walking round town in it, making out that I’m a general in the FSB. You tell me I’m not a general, and I say, ah, go on, let me be a general for a bit, what’s your problem?’

‘That’s an entirely different matter. The rank of general is awarded by a specific structure.’

‘Right. That’s what I’m talking about. Now think how you found out about the super-werewolf. You didn’t hear it from Mikhalich, did you?’

‘No.’

‘Then there’s probably some system of values that the word came from. Super-werewolf is the same kind of rank as general. Only it’s awarded by tradition. And you have about as much to do with that tradition as I do with your firm. Do you understand that, grey one?’

‘And I suppose you, Ginger, do have something to do with this tradition, right?’

‘Not only do I have something to do with it,’ I said. ‘I’m the carrier of the tradition. The line holder, to use the correct term.’

‘What line’s that?’

‘The line of transmission.’

‘You mean you’re the absolute authority here as well?’ he asked. ‘Straining yourself a bit, aren’t you? Think you’ll be able to hold up the roof ?’

He seemed to be genuinely irritated - he even used an expression from the criminal jargon used by bandits and the FSB.

‘Don’t confuse a mystical tradition with the Shangri-La casino,’ I said. ‘The line holders are called that because they hold on to the line, not because they hold it up.’

My answer seemed to puzzle him.

‘But what is that - a line of transmission?’ he asked. ‘What’s transmitted along it?’

‘Nothing.’

‘What?’

‘Like I said. Nothing. I’ve explained that to you so often, this kettle will understand it soon.’

‘Then what is it they’re holding on to, these line holders?’

‘In the line of transmission there is nothing you can hold on to.’

‘I don’t understand.’

‘There’s nothing there to understand, either. Seeing that clearly is exactly what holding the line means.’

‘All right,’ he said, ‘then tell me this, in words of one syllable. Does anyone in the world have the formal right to call himself the super-werewolf according to this tradition? Even at the most primitive level?’

‘Yes,’ I said.

‘And who’s that?’

I lowered my eyes modestly.

‘Who?’ he repeated.

‘I know this will be a blow to your vanity,’ I said. ‘But we did agree only to tell each other the truth . . .’

‘You again?’

I nodded. He swore under his breath.

‘And who does this line of transmission run from?’

‘I’ll tell you about it sometime later.’

‘No, let’s have it right now. So you won’t have time to invent anything.’

Well, okay, I thought, the truth cannot be concealed. He’ll find out sometime anyway.

‘All right. Then listen and don’t interrupt. One evening, about one thousand two hundred years ago, in the country that is now called China, I was riding from one town to another in my palanquin. It is of absolutely no importance now which towns they were and why I was travelling. What is important is that on that evening we halted outside the gates of a monastery on the Yellow Mountain . . .’

Sometimes in ancient China there used to be misty evenings when the world seemed to reveal the face it wore in its infancy, at the very beginning. Everything all around - the houses, the walls, the trees, the groves of bamboo, the poles with lamps burning on them - changed in the most miraculous fashion, and it began to seem as if you yourself had cut all this out of coloured paper and carefully arranged it all around, and then started to pretend that it really was a big wide world through which you could roam . . . On just such an evening twelve centuries ago, I was sitting in my palanquin in front of the gates of a monastery on the Yellow Mountain. The world around me was beautiful, and I was gazing through the window in melancholy delight, and there were tears in my eyes.

It was music that had affected me so deeply. Somewhere close by a flute had been singing for a long time - singing of the very feelings that were in my heart. As if once in our childhood we had lived in a huge house and played magical games. And then we had become so lost in our games that we began to believe in our own inventions - we had gone out to have fun walking among the dolls and lost our way, and now there was no power that could lead us back home if we did not remember that we were simply playing games. But it was almost impossible to remember that, so spellbinding and horrifying had the game turned out to be . . .