Jill Mansell - Mixed doubles

Laughing at her.

And now that I’ve been dumped by Liam, Dulcie felt sick at the thought, they can even feel sorry for me, too .. .

‘You’re supposed to be my friend,’ she hissed across the table at Liza. ‘I thought you were my friend! What’s happened – did it all change while I wasn’t looking?’ Dulcie’s eyes flashed with contempt. ‘Are you Claire’s friend now?’

‘Don’t be stupid,’ said Liza defensively. ‘I’ve met her a couple of times, that’s all. She seems okay. Not dazzling, but ... nice. You can’t not like her,’ she struggled to explain to a stony-faced Dulcie, ‘because there’s nothing to dislike.’

‘I met her too, don’t forget. She looks like an overgrown Girl Guide,’ sneered Dulcie.

‘I used to be a Girl Guide,’ said Pru.

But Dulcie wasn’t listening. Her overwrought imagination had moved on. Now, instead of picturing Liza and Claire having a good old girlie gossip, she saw Liza and Patrick indulging in a meaningful heart-to-heart:

‘Oh, Liza, I never knew I could feel like this,’ Patrick confided. ‘Being with Claire is just incredible. She’s made me the happiest man in the world.’

‘I know, I can see she has,’ Liza murmured, ‘and I’m so glad for you. You deserve it, after everything you had to go through with Dulcie. You and Claire make a brilliant couple. She’s lovely, Patrick. You really are the perfect match.’

‘I can’t believe this,’ snapped Dulcie, fumbling in the soggypacket for yet another cigarette. ‘I can’t believe you’ve been sneaking off behind my back, whispering about me to my husband—’

‘Oh come on.’ Liza heaved an exasperated sigh. ‘You don’t seriously imagine I’d do that. Grow up, Dulcie!’

‘Me? Me grow up?’ Dulcie jabbed herself in the chest. ‘Oh right, that’s a good one,’ she jeered.

‘You’re the one making an idiot of yourself with a boy ten years younger than you are, but for some reason I’m the one who needs to grow up!’

Liza went very still. All the colour had drained from her face. Pru, in the middle of mopping the wine-logged table top, realised this had gone far beyond the usual level of good-natured bickering.

‘Okay,’ said Liza, ‘it’s nine years actually, but point taken.’ Her voice was low and not altogether steady. ‘Now let me just say this. Liam might be a jerk of the first order but he was right about one thing. You definitely need to get yourself a life.’

‘What—?’

‘Because you are wasting the one you’ve got, and it isn’t doing you any favours,’ Liza continued remorselessly. ‘What Liam said was true: you don’t do anything. You’re bored out of your skull and you don’t even know it. I mean, what’s the plan, Dulcie? When we’re sixty and we look back over our lives, what will you be able to say?’ Mimicking Dulcie’s flippant manner, she chirruped, ‘Well, I was good at shopping and brilliant at telling lies ...’

Pru stared in horror as Dulcie, red-cheeked, leapt to her feet.

‘You are a bitch,’ Dulcie shouted at Liza, ‘and you are way too old for Kit Berenger—’

‘At least I’d never dream of telling a man I was pregnant—’

‘He’s too young for you, he’s too young for you—’

‘And Patrick’s definitely well rid of you—’

‘STOP IT!’ shrieked Pru, launching herself across the table and pushing herself between the two of them like a boxing referee. She grabbed one of Dulcie’s wrists and shook it, forcing Dulcie back into her chair. ‘Just stop this AT ONCE.’ Dulcie rubbed her wrist. Ouch, it really hurt.

‘Why should I? She started it.’

‘I did not start it,’ Liza snapped back. She glared at Dulcie. ‘This is all your fault. Just because you were dumped by Liam.’

Liam. Dulcie conjured up a mental picture of him playing a brilliant backhand cross-court volley, blond hair flying, eyes flashing .. .

She closed her eyes. No, this had nothing to do with Liam. When Dulcie didn’t speak, Liza rose to her feet. Pointedly she addressed her words to Pru.

‘Time to go.’

Clearly still shaken by her own bravery, Pru went with her to the front door.

Left alone at the kitchen table, Dulcie heard them murmuring together in the hall. Ah well, she was getting used to it.

She stubbed out the cigarette she’d forgotten to smoke in all the excitement, and refilled her almost empty glass.

Straining to overhear, Dulcie managed to make out Liza’s words: ‘No, no, I’m fine. Kit’s waiting at home for me.’

Dulcie took a great slurp of wine. Raising her own voice, she called out, ‘Don’t forget to warm his bottle before you tuck him into bed.’

Chapter 36

Unlike Pru’s bedsitter, which – as Dulcie had pointed out to Eddie Hammond – wasn’t on the way to anywhere, Bibi’s house was situated on the main road leading into Bath.

This meant you couldn’t help passing Bibi’s house even when you didn’t want to.

Like today.

Dulcie felt her stomach begin to tense up as she approached the first bend in the road. One twist to the left, one twist to the right, then the traffic lights. And there, on the left if you were unlucky enough to be caught at the lights, was Bibi’s house with its sloping front garden and narrow, hard-to-get-into drive.

Dulcie had a thumping headache, thanks to finishing off all the red wine Liza hadn’t stayed to drink last night. She had woken up sensing something was wrong, then groaned as the awful memories seeped back.

Pru hadn’t helped.

‘You should apologise to Liza,’ she told Dulcie.

‘Oh God, why do I always have to be the one to apologise?’ Dulcie wailed.

Pru hadn’t stated the obvious, she had simply given Dulcie a long look.

And since in view of the Liam thing it seemed sensible to steer clear of Brunton Manor for a while, Dulcie could think of only one other sensible way to pass the time.

Go shopping.

She especially didn’t enjoy passing Bibi’s house today because it served as a horrible reminder of yet another occasion when she had tried to improve a situation, only to end up making it much, much worse instead.

At first, in the weeks following Patrick’s eventful surprise party, Dulcie had crossed her fingers each time she approached the traffic lights, praying that when she rounded the second bend she would see James’s car parked on Bibi’s drive.

But this hadn’t happened, which just went to show what a waste of time praying and crossing your fingers was. These days Dulcie simply hoped she wouldn’t see Bibi.

Now, as the house came into view, she saw a different car on the drive.

This was interesting, because it might mean there was a new man at last in Bibi’s life.

Dulcie braked, even though the traffic lights — for once in their contrary lives — were on green.

A blue Renault behind her tooted irritably but Dulcie ignored it, far too intrigued by the car on the drive.

This was good news, this was promising news. If Bibi’s found herself a new man, thought Dulcie, perking up at the idea, I can stop feeling guilty about James.

The lights changed to red and she drew to a halt. The driver of the Renault gave a blast on his horn in disgust.

And Dulcie realised, too late, that the car on Bibi’s drive wasn’t unoccupied, as she had at first thought. Those headrests weren’t head-rests at all, they were heads.

Claire Berenger hadn’t only snapped up her husband, Dulcie realised miserably; she’d gone for the job lot and bagged her mother-in-law too.

Jealousy wasn’t an emotion Dulcie had ever had much to do with, but she couldn’t help feeling it now. It hurt too, like a serrated knife twisting in her ribs.

Unable to tear her eyes away, she watched Bibi and Claire jump out of the car, laughing and weighed down with glossy carriers. Dulcie recognised several of them; in the old days she and Bibi had indulged in delicious spending sprees, visiting all their favourite shopping haunts and stopping for lunch somewhere gossipy and glamorous. They had both enjoyed their days out together almost as much as the actual buying of the new clothes.