Sarah Brennan - The Demon's Covenant

Mae swallowed and let her eyes slide shut for another moment. “I liked you a lot,” she told him. “I think—I think maybe you could’ve had a chance with me. But you lied.”

“Thanks for saying so,” Alan said, as if he meant it. And as if he didn’t believe her. He sounded sad, but resigned; he must have grown fairly used to the idea of losing her while he was lying to her.

Mae opened her eyes again and saw his narrow, pale face, his wonderful twilight eyes, and she reminded herself past the rage and pain that he had taken that mark last night. That at any moment he could be tortured, or possessed, or killed. His whole life hung on a magician’s whim, and he had done it for a child he hardly knew, for a child who belonged to the Market that hated him as a traitor and a girl who hated him because he was crippled.

He had lied to her, the girl he’d wanted to love, cold-bloodedly and relentlessly, for weeks. And then he’d done one of the noblest things she had ever seen.

She could feel the shaking inside her, starting low in her stomach and building, but she wanted to hide it from everyone else. “Alan,” she said. “You are crazy.”

“See, that’s why I started liking you,” he said gently. “Because you’re so smart.”

Mae would’ve attempted a smile, but her face felt like it might crack. Alan looked as if he was trying to think of ways to speak to her, to touch her, to make her feel better, and she thought they might work and wanted to run.

“Mae,” Jamie said tentatively, coming around the tent. “Can I talk to you alone?”

He looked flushed from sleep and tears, his spiky hair rumpled. He looked about twelve years old. Mae turned to him, as if he could pull her on puppet strings, desperate to do even the smallest thing for him.

“Of course, I’ll go,” Alan said. “I need to go find a place where Nick and I can talk things out properly. Somewhere on the other end of the meadow, away from people.”

Jamie smiled a wavering, falling-apart smile. “Or you could take a plane and have a conversation in the middle of the Sahara desert, possibly.”

“Might be safest,” said Alan. “Jamie, I’m so sorry.”

“I know,” Jamie said. “Alan, in case of—in case.”

He hesitated and then went up to Alan and put his arm around his neck, having to go on his tiptoes to hug him because Alan was so tall. Alan did not hesitate for a moment, just put his arms around Jamie and held on.

“Thanks for everything,” Jamie said at last, detaching and rubbing the back of his hand over his swollen eyes.

Alan looked at Jamie, puzzled and tender. “Everything’s been my pleasure.”

Then, being Alan and blessed with enormous tact, he looked at them both once more and just left, heading away from the Goblin Market camp and toward the hawthorn trees spreading broomstick-handle branches against the pale sky.

“Hey, you,” said Mae, the words sticking in her throat.

Jamie looked at her, his eyes back to being dark again, being the exact mirror of hers. He reached out and she reached out, fingers curling in together and linked tight, and she wanted to promise him that nothing would ever hurt him again, that she would protect him, that she would always be there, always.

“I’m so sorry,” he said. “It’s all my fault. I thought if I went to London, I could help, no matter how strong Celeste’s Circle will be now. I thought I could send word back. I wanted to help. But instead I—I killed—”

“You didn’t,” Mae said fiercely. “It was me who made the plan. If it hadn’t been for me—”

“But you had to do it,” said Jamie. “And I—I still have to go to London.”

Mae felt her fingers clutch his, nails digging into the back of Jamie’s hands.

“I have to go, Mae,” Jamie insisted to her silence. “Alan’s wearing a mark; we have to know what Gerald’s planning to do to him. Celeste has got too many magicians, and control over Gerald’s marks. She’ll bring the war to us, and we’ll need somebody behind enemy lines. And—and we have to work out a way to bring the Circles down. Did you see some of the magicians? They wanted to surrender. They can’t keep thinking that the Circles are the only way, and killing people until they don’t even remember that it’s wrong. Someone has to do this. And I’m the only one who can. Will you be okay?”

He looked at her, hanging on to her just as hard as she was hanging on to him and biting his lips, scared and struggling and in pain and still trying to do the right thing. Her Jamie.

Mae tipped her forehead against his and held on for just a little while longer. “Yeah,” she promised him. “I’ll be okay.”

They stood like that until Jamie said, “Nick,” and Mae said, “Huh?” and then stepped back as Jamie said, “Nick. Over here. Nick!”

Nick was striding past the tent, clearly intent on finding Alan again, but at Jamie’s call he checked himself and came striding over to them. Someone had found him a new shirt, as the old one had been ripped in two and soaked in gore, but beneath the clean cotton his whole body looked tense and exhausted.

“What?” he asked.

Jamie let go of Mae’s hands with one last, clinging press. “I’m really sorry about this,” he said. “I know that you’re upset about Alan and you don’t know what to say to me about—about anything, and this is the worst time to try and talk to you. But I’m going to the Aventurine Circle so I can help Alan and all of us, because I’m the only one they’d let in. So there isn’t any other time I can talk to you. I just wanted to say that you were a great friend. I’m really glad you asked me. I’m really glad we did that. And you can go find Alan now. You don’t have to say anything at all.”

Jamie stood a careful distance away from Nick and spoke carefully too, anxiously, trying to get it just right.

He was seeing these moments as his last chance to get things right, Mae thought, sick and aching. In case he died somewhere in London, among enemies.

“What?” said Nick, and scowled. “What are you talking about? Don’t be an idiot. You’re not going anywhere.”

“I am,” Jamie told him sturdily.

“You want revenge for your mother?” Nick asked, and Jamie flinched. One of Nick’s hands closed in a fist and then loosened. He took a breath. “I’ll get it for you,” he said. “Tell me what you want, and I’ll make it happen. You don’t have to go anywhere and get your idiot self killed.”

“Okay, can you pass yourself off as a magician and gain Gerald’s trust and pass us information about Celeste’s plans and save all the magicians who want to be saved?” Jamie asked. “Because if so, awesome. I shall stay here and eat pie.”

Nick blinked at Jamie. “I was thinking more in terms of killing someone.”

Jamie’s smile this time was still wavering, but it almost looked real. “I know. But this is something I have to do. So I’m going to go do it. You take care of yourself, Nick.”

Jamie started to back away and his eyes left Nick, turning back to Mae.

“Hey,” Nick said abruptly, and tossed something at Jamie’s head.

Jamie caught it, fumbling it a bit, and then almost dropped it when he saw the rough carvings on the bright handle and worked out what it was.

“A knife, Nick?” he asked piteously. “I feel so betrayed.”

“It’s a magic knife,” Nick said. “I made it myself.”

“I don’t want to seem ungrateful when you have given me this thoughtful, homemade and totally terrifying gift,” Jamie told him. “But you can’t imagine that I’m going to use it.”

“Just to hold someone off. Just remember what I taught you,” said Nick. “Just buy a little time so I can come get you. Jamie. I’ll come get you.”