Brian Freeman - Spilled Blood

He reminded himself: Olivia didn’t know. She was young. She was drunk. She’d made a cruel mistake, and she’d already paid a horrible price for it. So had Ashlynn.

Chris thought about Olivia leaving Ashlynn alone. Alive. What happened in that next tragic hour? Who did this to you? Who found you in the park, consumed with your grief, and put a bullet in your brain? He knew that Michael Altman would say he was creating a conspiracy out of something simple. The simple explanation was the one supported by the evidence. The easy, logical answer was what everyone believed. Olivia was there. She had a gun. She pulled the trigger.

No.

She’d walked away. Sometimes it happened that way. Chris had pointed a gun at Kirk Watson’s head, and he’d walked away, too.

He saw headlights approaching the ghost town from the south. He knew it was Hannah’s car. He stood on the dirt shoulder until her high beams caught him in their glare, and he lifted a hand to shield his eyes. She pulled past him and parked, and when she got out, the light of her flashlight splashed across the ground between them.

‘Thanks for coming,’ he told her.

‘You said it was important.’

‘It could be.’

He had no idea if Vernon Clay was important. The simple truth was that Chris felt a need to be with Hannah. Apparently she sensed it, too. In the glow of the light, he saw that she was holding a wine bottle by the neck.

‘I still have a bottle of that Cosentino Cab we bought in Napa,’ she said. ‘I thought you could use some.’

‘You’re right.’

Hannah opened the rear door of her SUV. They sat next to each other on the bumper. The cork was halfway into the bottle, and she released it with a pop. When she passed it to him, he tilted the neck and drank. There was something about drinking expensive red wine straight from the bottle that made him feel free. He passed it back, and Hannah drank from it too.

He wondered if she remembered the last time they had done this, on the Saturday night of their California vacation, while Olivia slept in the motel room in Calistoga. They’d sat just like this on the rear bumper in the motel parking lot, and they’d finished a bottle together, and they’d made love in the back seat like teenagers. From that moment to the divorce two years later seemed like a long way to fall.

‘I was late the next month,’ she said softly. ‘Do you remember?’

‘Of course.’

Hannah hadn’t forgotten. She’d been thinking about that same warm night. Two weeks later, she had been a day and a half overdue for her period, and they’d spent those thirty-six hours convinced that their back-seat romance had given Olivia a sibling. It wasn’t to be. She was simply late. He’d been stupid enough to announce his feelings before he knew what was in her heart. ‘I guess I’m relieved,’ he’d said, fully expecting her to laugh and say, ‘Me, too.’

She hadn’t said that at all. She’d cried a flood of tears, and he knew he had made the worst mistake of his life.

Such a long way to fall.

‘Should you be drinking?’ he asked.

‘No,’ Hannah replied, and she tilted back the bottle and drank again.

‘Are you scared?’ he asked.

‘Terrified.’

‘How bad is it, Hannah, really?’

‘Pretty bad. I won’t kid you. It’s pretty bad.’

‘If I were cancer, I wouldn’t mess with you,’ he said.

Hannah laughed, but it was a broken laugh. ‘Thank you.’

‘Does Olivia know?’

‘The odds? No, I haven’t told her. She doesn’t need that burden.’ His ex-wife turned toward him. The soft glow of the flashlight on the bed of the truck between them made her skin look young. ‘If something happens to me, Chris, you need to be there for her.’

‘Don’t talk like that.’

‘I don’t dwell on it, but I don’t pretend it’s not one of the possible outcomes.’

‘I’ll be there for her,’ he said. ‘You know I will.’

She nodded. She was grateful to hear him say it.

‘You’ll beat this,’ he added.

‘That’s my plan.’

He wanted to hold her, but he didn’t know if she wanted or needed his comfort. He wanted to let her cry in his arms, but he was worried that she would hate being vulnerable in front of him. It was messy and awkward, not like the early days, when they’d been able to divine the other’s thoughts simply by the look on their faces.

‘So why are we here?’ she asked.

He drank more wine. ‘I don’t know. I’m sorry. I wanted to see where Ashlynn was killed, but I shouldn’t have called you. It’s late. This could have waited.’

‘No, I’m glad you did.’

They sat in silence, with nothing but the soft voice of wind alive in the town. The wine in the bottle slowly disappeared, swallow by swallow, and went to their heads. He looked at Hannah at one point, and her face was bowed, as if she were praying. That was what you did on hallowed ground, where someone innocent had been lost.

‘I almost killed someone tonight,’ he said, filling the void with his confession.

Hannah stared at him. ‘What?’

He explained about the gun and Kirk Watson and his date with the devil outside Kirk’s window. It made him feel better to admit it to her. The guilt was too heavy to carry on his own.

‘You would never have done it,’ she told him.

‘I almost did.’

‘I know you, Christopher. You’re incapable of murder, no matter who it is, no matter what he did.’

‘I’m not so sure.’

‘I am.’ Hannah poked him in the side. ‘Now if it was me, I would have blown the fucker’s head off.’

She grinned, and laughter bubbled out of both of them, defusing the tension. It felt easy and familiar. If things had been different, he would have pulled her into his shoulder. He would have kissed her and taken her hand and held it, sending the old silent message. I love you. He didn’t do any of those things, but he wished he could have preserved the moment for a while longer. He wanted to be a couple again.

‘Listen, I learned something else tonight,’ he said. ‘It’s why I called you.’

‘What is it?’

‘Have you ever heard of a man named Vernon Clay?’

Hannah looked unhappy to hear the name. ‘He was a Mondamin scientist. We tried to find him during the litigation, but we couldn’t.’

‘Why did you want to find him?’

‘Because Florian Steele obviously wanted to keep him a secret.’ She paused and then said, ‘Glenn can tell you more about him. He disappeared before I moved here, but it sounds like he was a strange character. Disturbed. Who knows what he was doing on that land of his?’

‘So you know about his land near St. Croix?’ Chris asked.

‘The dead land? Sure. There’s nothing to find now, but we were always suspicious that it was at the root of the cancer cluster. How did you find out about it?’

‘George Valma,’ he said. ‘Ashlynn contacted him.’

‘Ashlynn did? Why?’

‘She wanted to know the same thing – whether Vernon Clay’s research could have been connected to the cancer in St. Croix. And to her own baby.’

‘That poor girl.’ Hannah shook her head in dismay. ‘Bad enough to go through what she did, but to think that your own father’s company was responsible. It must have been unbearable.’

‘George told her there was no connection.’

‘Well, he would say that. He’s a Mondamin guy.’

‘He said a top epidemiologist looked into it during the litigation and found nothing.’

‘I don’t care. She missed something.’

Chris wanted to believe her, but he wasn’t convinced. ‘If there was really something to find, Florian would never have agreed to a special master’s investigation. He’s a lawyer. He knows you can’t bury bad facts.’