Robert Galbraith - The Silkworm

It was almost a relief, when she opened the glass door engraved with Strike’s name and job title, to find that her boss was already on the telephone in his own office, with the door closed. She felt obscurely that she needed to pull herself together before she faced him, because Strike had been the subject of last night’s argument.

“You’ve invited him to the wedding?” Matthew had said sharply.

She had been afraid that Strike might mention the invitation over drinks that evening, and that if she did not warn Matthew first, Strike would bear the brunt of Matthew’s displeasure.

“Since when are we just asking people without telling each other?” Matthew had said.

“I meant to tell you. I thought I had.”

Then Robin had felt angry with herself: she never lied to Matthew.

“He’s my boss, he’ll expect to be invited!”

Which wasn’t true; she doubted that Strike cared one way or the other.

“Well, I’d like him there,” she said, which, at last, was honesty. She wanted to tug the working life that she had never enjoyed so much closer to the personal life that currently refused to meld with it; she wanted to stitch the two together in a satisfying whole and to see Strike in the congregation, approving (approving! Why did he have to approve?) of her marrying Matthew.

She had known that Matthew would not be happy, but she had hoped that by this time the two men would have met and liked each other, and it was not her fault that that had not happened yet.

“After all the bloody fuss we had when I wanted to invite Sarah Shadlock,” Matthew had said—a blow, Robin felt, that was below the belt.

“Invite her then!” she said angrily. “But it’s hardly the same thing—Cormoran’s never tried to get me into bed—what’s that snort supposed to mean?”

The argument had been in full swing when Matthew’s father telephoned with the news that a funny turn Matthew’s mother had suffered the previous week had been diagnosed as a mini-stroke.

After this, she and Matthew felt that squabbling about Strike was in bad taste, so they went to bed in an unsatisfactory state of theoretical reconciliation, both, Robin knew, still seething.

It was nearly midday before Strike finally emerged from his office. He was not wearing his suit today, but a dirty and holey sweater, jeans and trainers. His face was thick with the heavy stubble that accrued if he did not shave every twenty-four hours. Forgetting her own troubles, Robin stared: she had never, even in the days when he was sleeping in the office, known Strike to look like a down-and-out.

“Been making calls for the Ingles file and getting some numbers for Longman,” Strike told Robin, handing her the old-fashioned brown card folders, each with a handwritten serial number on the spine, that he had used in the Special Investigation Branch and which remained his favorite way of collating information.

“Is that a—a deliberate look?” she asked, staring at what looked like grease marks on the knees of his jeans.

“Yeah. It’s for Gunfrey. Long story.”

While Strike made them both tea, they discussed details of three current cases, Strike updating Robin on information received and further points to be investigated.

“And what about Owen Quine?” Robin asked, accepting her mug. “What did his agent say?”

Strike lowered himself onto the sofa, which made its usual farting noises beneath him, and filled her in on the details of his interview with Elizabeth Tassel and his visit to Kathryn Kent.

“When she first saw me, I could swear she thought I was Quine.”

Robin laughed.

“You’re not that fat.”

“Cheers, Robin,” he said drily. “When she realized I wasn’t Quine, and before she knew who I was, she said, ‘I don’t work in that bit.’ Does that mean anything to you?”

“No…but,” she added diffidently, “I did manage to find out a bit about Kathryn Kent yesterday.”

“How?” asked Strike, taken aback.

“Well, you told me she’s a self-published writer,” Robin reminded him, “so I thought I’d look online and see what’s out there and”—with two clicks of her mouse she brought up the page—“she’s got a blog.”

“Good going!” said Strike, moving gladly off the sofa and round the desk to read over Robin’s shoulder.

The amateurish web page was called “My Literary Life,” decorated with drawings of quills and a very flattering picture of Kathryn that Strike thought must be a good ten years out of date. The blog comprised a list of posts, arranged by date like a diary.

“A lot of it’s about how traditional publishers wouldn’t know good books if they were hit over the head with them,” said Robin, scrolling slowly down the web page so he could look at it. “She’s written three novels in what she calls an erotic fantasy series, called the Melina Saga. They’re available for download on Kindle.”

“I don’t want to read any more bad books; I had enough with the Brothers Ballsache,” said Strike. “Anything about Quine?”

“Loads,” said Robin, “assuming he’s the man she calls The Famous Writer. TFW for short.”

“I doubt she’s sleeping with two authors,” said Strike. “It must be him. ‘Famous’ is stretching it a bit, though. Had you heard of Quine before Leonora walked in?”

“No,” admitted Robin. “Here he is, look, on the second of November.”

Great talk with TFW about Plot and Narrative tonight which are of course not the same thing. For those wondering:- Plot is what happens, Narrative is how much you show your readers and how you show it to them.

An example from my second Novel “Melina’s Sacrifice.”

As they made their way towards the Forest of Harderell Lendor raised his handsome profile to see how near they were to it. His well-maintained body, honed by horseback-riding and archery skills

“Scroll up,” said Strike, “see what else there is about Quine.”

Robin obliged, pausing on a post from 21 October.

So TFW calls and he can’t see me (again.) Family problems. What can I do except say that I understand? I knew it would be complicated when we fell in love. I can’t be openly explicit on this but Ill just say he’s stuck with a wife he doesn’t love because of a Third Party. Not his fault. Not the Third Party’s fault. The wife won’t let him go even if it’s the best thing for everyone so we’re locked into what sometimes feels like it’s Purgatory

The Wife knows about me and pretend’s not to. I don’t know how she can stnad living with a man who wants to be with someone else because I know I couldn’t do it. TFW says she’s always put the Third Party before everything else including HIm. Strange how often being a “Carer” masks deep Selfishness.

Some people will say its all my fault for falling in love with a Married man. Your not telling me anything my friends, mySsister and my own Mother don’t tell me all the time. I’ve tried to call it off and what can I say except The Heart has it’s reasons, which Reasons don’t know. And now tonight I’m crying over him all over again for a brand new Reason. He tells me he’s nearly finished his Masterpiece, the book he says is the Best he’s ever written. “I hope you’ll like it. You’re in it.”

What do you say when a Famous Writer writes you into what he says is his best book? I understand what he’s giving me in way’s a Non-Writer can’t. It makes you feel proud and humble. Yes there are people we Writer’s let into our hearts, but into our Books?! That’s special. That’s different.

Can’t help loving TFW. The Heart has it’s Reasons.

There was an exchange of comments below.

What would you say if I told you he’d read a bit to me? Pippa2011