Peter Dickinson - Tears of the Salamander

Downstairs he found that Uncle Giorgio had already breakfasted, but the tension had returned in full force, and he longed to be out of the house, so he ate nothing and left by the front door. He didn’t immediately go out to the rose garden, but instead went northward into the old driveway, and stretched himself out once more on the lava flow.

He lay down and again molded his body to the night-chilled rock, imagining himself part of it, part of the mountain itself, letting his tension ease as that imagination became real, until he and the mountain were one thing, down to its white-hot roots, out to its farthest spurs and screes. The salamanders swam in his fiery veins, sang in his mind. It was a gift from the mountain. He guessed that even among the di Salas, only those whom the mountain had chosen could attain this understanding. You needed to give yourself to the mountain before it could return the gift. Perhaps, from the way Uncle Giorgio talked about the mountain and the salamanders, he had never himself achieved this, for all his skill and knowledge. He couldn’t give himself. But another di Sala, long ago—whoever it was that had written the book from which the notes in the dictionary had been taken—must have lain like this on another outcrop, and so come to his understanding.

Yes, he thought. Now I too understand. It all depends on the Master.

There were two mountains. There was one as he had first known it, full of the fury of fire, dangerous, unpredictable in its rages, vengeful, hated and feared. That was Uncle Giorgio’s mountain.

But if Alfredo’s father had been Master…He also had a furious temper. He was a true di Sala. Anger was his birthright. It was in his blood. But his mountain would not have been like that. Those who lived below it would have understood its power, and seen perhaps its fury. But the fury would not have fallen on them. They would have thought of it not with dread, but with awe. Not with hatred, but with love.

Yes, sang the salamanders in his mind. That is the mountain as it ought to be. That is our mountain .

Now it was Alfredo’s turn. He moved through the molten heart of the mountain and made himself known to the salamanders. Stilling their singing, they gathered round him. He sang to them in his mind, telling them everything he had seen and done and intended to do.

They answered with a burst of song, a complex polyphony of interwoven hopes and fears—eagerness to see their lost comrade freed, and the end of Uncle Giorgio’s hated Mastership, dread of his powers and the vengeance he might take if Alfredo failed. And something else, a different kind of excitement. Alfredo understood what it was only when their singing changed itself and became the strange repeated phrase that Toni had been playing, effortlessly improvising, yesterday in the rose garden. New music, a new Master, a new world.

He listened for a while and then withdrew himself into his body, still lying on the lava flow out in the world of air.

There was somebody there—Toni of course, but this time sitting on the rock beside him, peacefully waiting.

“You heard?” he said. “You were there too? They can’t help us, but they wish us well.”

Toni nodded, apparently understanding. Together they went out to the rose garden.

Later Annetta came with food. She had questions to ask. It was a slow process, though she was very clever about it, gesturing expressively with her hands and nodding or shaking her head as Alfredo guessed his way to her meanings. How was he so sure Uncle Giorgio would go to Mass?

“He’ll go if he possibly can. He’s still tired after Friday, and he needs to get himself away from the mountain for a bit. And I think he probably wants to act old and sick in front of everyone, too. He won’t worry about having to leave me behind, because the important thing for him is to get my body as strong as possible. The rest of me—my mind and so on—doesn’t matter, and that’s the bit the mountain wears out. I think he’s got to go.”

More gestures, more guessing.

“Yes, it’s a risk. I think the mountain will be aware of it as soon as we start to move the salamander, but he won’t notice as long as he’s in the church—he can’t feel the mountain there. As soon as he comes out he’ll know something’s happening, I’m fairly sure, but he won’t know what. He’ll feel it through the mountain and he’ll want to hurry home. If he takes you with him—I hope he will—anything you can do to slow him down a bit—make the mule go lame somehow, or give it some of those leaves while he’s in church…

“And he may still have some magic way of getting up the mountain, quicker than riding. Just walking, he’ll be going faster than us—our mules aren’t going to like it, are they? But if everything goes all right we should be way up into the wood before he comes out of church. After that…I don’t think we can possibly get to the top before he comes out of the wood, but provided we’re a good way up the slope…

“And stay down there, Annetta. I think there’s going to be an eruption. Don’t come back till it’s over. It’s going to be very dangerous anywhere up on the mountain. …”

And so on, anxiously checking things through, over and over, Alfredo more and more tense, longing for the evening to be here, Annetta frowning with thought but patient and determined, and Toni sitting with his recorder, fetching his music endlessly out of nowhere, utterly untroubled. Eventually, rather than brood and think any more, Alfredo fetched his recorder and joined him. Slowly the tension eased as he filled his mind with listening to Toni and trying to follow where he led, and by the time Annetta laid out the food she had brought he realized he was hungry enough to eat. That, he thought, grimly amused, was just as well. He must have food in his stomach. To throw up.

The afternoon crept by. For a while he joined Toni, watching the comings and goings of ants round their nest, and experimented with dropping obstacles, or crumbs of bread, in the trails. They scrambled around in the woods, which were full of twisting little paths that Toni seemed to know. They returned to the rose garden and played their recorders. Toward evening Annetta gathered what she had brought into her basket, except for four plums. She gave two to Toni and two to Alfredo, making signs that they were to eat them. Then she went back to get supper ready, holding up a finger before she left to show that the other two should wait an hour and then follow.

The shadow of one of the cypresses lay across the dry pool. Alfredo placed a pebble on the rim, along into the sunlight. They left when the shadow touched the pebble.

He’d judged it wrong and they were a little too early. He checked the fire with extra care, not because it would make the slightest difference to how things went, but because it might be the last time he’d do it. Annetta handed him a mug and he drank the contents. He’d expected the potion to be dark and bitter, but it looked almost colorless in the gray mug and tasted slightly sweet on the tongue and then sharper at the back of his mouth. He went up to his room, by now so sick with nerves that he couldn’t tell whether the drink was starting to do its work or not. When he went down to supper he found Uncle Giorgio already waiting for him. He looked even wearier than he had the evening before.

“You are rested?” he said. “I hope you have an excellent appetite.”

“I don’t know. I had a nice quiet day, but I don’t feel very hungry.”

“You must eat,” snapped Uncle Giorgio.

There was a real sharpness under the words. His nerves must be twanging too, Alfredo realized. Dutifully he put food on his plate, cut off a few small pieces, and started to chew and force his throat to swallow. The moment came like an eruption of the mountain. He flung back his chair, rushed to the window and vomited violently outside. The evening air filled with the vile stench of stomach stuff. When the spasms were past he stayed draped over the sill, shivering and sweating.