Joan Vinge - The Summer Queen

TIAMAT: Carbuncle

Gods, what am I doing here? Jerusha PalaThion bent her head, pressing her fingertips against her eyes. The feeling that she was a prisoner in someone else’s dream crept over her again as the scene before her suddenly turned surreal. She raised her head and opened her eyes as the disorientation passed. Yes, she was really here, standing in the Hall of the Winds; waiting for the Summer Queen, watching over the crowd that waited with her.

But still she seemed to hear the song of a goddess in the air high overhead, feel the living breath of the Sea Mother chill her flesh. The ageless chamber reeked of the Sea; the keening windsong carried Her voice to Jerusha, and to the small gathering of the faithful who waited with reverence and awe at the edge of the Pit for their audience with the Queen.

The Sea Herself lay waiting too, at the bottom of the Pit, three hundred meters below. A single fragile span of bridge crossed the dizzying well, giving access to the palace on the other side. But high above them gossamer curtains swelled and billowed with the restless wind, creating treacherous air currents that could sweep a body from the bridge with terrifying ease. The Lady gives , they said, and the Lady takes away .

“The Lady.”

“The Lady—”

Hushed voices murmured Her name as the Summer Queen appeared suddenly at the far end of the span. Jerusha took a deep breath and lowered her hand to her side, focusing on the Queen, the Goddess Incarnate, as she stepped carefully onto the bridge. Jerusha watched her come, slowly, regally, her milk-white hair drifting around her in a shining cloud, her loose, summer-green robes billowing like grass, like the sea. She wore a crown of flowers and birdwings shot through with the light of jewels, and the trefoil of a sibyl. The Lady.

Damn it ! Jerusha shook her head: a head-clearing, a denial. She looked at the Queen again, seeing her clearly this time: Not a goddess incarnate, but an eighteen-year-old girl named Moon. Her lace was drawn with strain and weariness, her movements were made slow and awkward by the swelling of an unexpected pregnancy that was now near term, no longer completely concealed even by her flowing robes. There was no mystery to her, any more than there was any divine presence in this room.

Jerusha’s eyes still reminded her insistently that the Queen wore another woman’s face; memory told her that Moon Dawntreader carried another woman’s ambitions in her mind, in her heart. It was impossible not to stare at her, not to wonder about the strange motion of a fate whose dance had trapped them both…

She listened to the progression of high, piercing notes that filled the chamber as the Queen touched the tone box she carried in her hand; the sounds that controlled the movement of the wind curtains high above, to create a space of quiet air through which she, and the three people who followed her, could move. The tone box was an artifact of the Old Empire, like the Hall, the Pit, the palace above them and the ancient, serpentine city at whose pinnacle it sat. Technology was the real god at work here, and the Queen knew that as well as Jerusha did. She had come here today to try to reconcile this crucial gathering of her people to that truth, if she could.

Jerusha felt a sudden twinge of compassion for the fragile figure crossing the bridge toward her. Moon Dawntreader had defied the offworlder rule that Jerusha PalaThion had represented, to become the new Queen. And Jerusha had believed her cause was just, had believed in her; instead of deporting her, had let her become Queen. In the end she had even given up her own position as Commander of Police, stopped serving the Hegemony that had brought nothing but grief to her and to this world. She had chosen to stay behind on Tiamat at the Final Departure, and serve its new Queen instead.

But when the offworlders had gone away at the Change, they had gone forever, at least as far as Jerusha PalaThion was concerned. They would not come back in her lifetime; she had exiled herself, and if ever she changed her mind, she still could not change that. And had she changed her mind—? Jerusha’s face pinched. She rubbed her arms, feeling the rough homespun cloth chafe her skin. Gods, she was so tired, all the time, lately… . She wondered if she was getting some disease, or simply getting depressed. She dressed like a Tiamatan even though there were still plenty of offworlder clothes to be had; trying to do the impossible, to fit in, when her dark curling hair and upslanting eyes, her cinnamon-colored skin, marked her as alien. She had never felt at home on this world, in all the time she had served here. She had hated this ancient, musty, mysterious city the way she had hated its former Queen. But in the end … in the end it had worked its will on her. In the end it had still been the lesser of two evils.

Someone touched her shoulder. She started, caught off guard; raised her hand in a defense gesture that Police training had programmed into her reflexes. She stopped herself, chagrined, as she realized that the touch belonged to her husband. “Miroe,” she whispered, feeling the tension inside her dissolve.

He made a sound that was almost a laugh. “Who were you expecting?”

She gazed at him for a long moment. His offworlder’s face looked as out of place here as her own. And yet he belonged here, had lived here all of his life. It was not impossible to learn to love a new world… She only shook her head, and put her hand over his as she glanced away at the Queen. “How is she?” she asked, looking again at the swell of the Queen’s belly. Miroe had offworlder medical training, and Moon had chosen him, trusted him over any local physician or healer to attend her; as she had chosen Jerusha to watch her back.

“I think I picked up two heartbeats today. I think she’s carrying twins.”

“Gods,” Jerusha murmured. She shifted from foot to foot, wondering why her hands and feet went to sleep on her so easily lately.

He nodded, with a heavy sigh. “She shouldn’t be doing this. I told her that—she ought to let go of it, let the Summers treat her like a goddess. That’s all they expect—or want—of her.”

Jerusha looked back at him, feeling unexpected irritation rise inside her. “She doesn’t want to be a puppet, Miroe. She wants to be a queen. Just because women are the ones who get pregnant—” The sudden thought filled her head like strange perfume: Am I pregnant—?

He looked back at her, frowning. “Goddammit, you know that’s not what I meant.”

She looked down. Am I—? Feeling wonder fall through her like rain.

“She’s pushing too hard, that’s all. She wants it all to change now. She should let it go until she delivers. That’s all.” The frown was still on his face; concern now, instead of annoyance. “Carrying twins causes complications in a pregnancy; you know that.”

Jerusha forced her attention back to his words, saying nothing about what she had just felt, thought, imagined. She wasn’t even sure; there was no reason to mention it now. She looked at Moon again, at the swelling curve of her stomach. “If she waits that long, the Summers will smother her in ‘worship,’ ” she said sourly. The Goodventure clan, whose ancestors had been the Summer Queens during the last cycle, had gotten a taste for power, and nursed their hunger for it through a hundred and fifty years, through Tiamat’s near-endless Winter. They still believed in the old ways of Summer’s conservative outback, and they still believed they held their Goddess’s favor, over this heretic upstart who was trying to unnaturally force the Winters’ offworlder, technophile ways on them. “She’s made enemies of the Goodventures already, by pushing them too hard. But if she doesn’t push they’ll drown her. She’s damned either way.”