Laura Schlitz - A Drowned Maiden's Hair

“What’s that?” Maud asked, watching Muffet’s hands. “What’s she doing?”

“She’s talking,” Mrs. Lambert answered. “She says you’ve lost weight and your hair wants washing. She’s not happy about it.”

Maud turned to Muffet for confirmation. The hired woman plucked at Maud’s brown gingham and made a face. Maud couldn’t read what she said with her fingers, but she gathered that Muffet didn’t think much of the uniform.

“There’s a language for deaf people,” Mrs. Lambert explained. “More and more people are learning to use it. I hired a tutor — he’s teaching both of us. He says Anna’s the quickest student he’s ever had.”

Maud could well believe it. She bestowed a glowing smile on Muffet. Muffet pointed toward the floor. Pick up my crutch. You knocked it over.

Maud stooped to obey. Muffet sat back down, holding the crutch in the crook of her elbow as if it were a scepter.

“Her leg is healing,” Mrs. Lambert said. “Properly, this time.”

Maud feasted her eyes on Muffet. Someone had persuaded her to lengthen her skirts so that the tops of her boots didn’t show. Her clothes fitted as if they had been made by a good dressmaker. If it weren’t for all the cherries on her hat, she would have looked quite stylish. “You’ve taken good care of her.”

“I love Anna,” Mrs. Lambert said simply. “She takes care of me, too. She’s teaching me to draw.”

For some reason, the simple statement brought a lump to Maud’s throat. Muffet lifted her hands and signed again.

“She says I ought to tell you,” Mrs. Lambert said to Maud, “that you are to come home with us.”

Maud raised a startled face. “Why?” She remembered her wretched stay at the Hotel Elysium and stammered, “Where?”

“Home,” repeated Mrs. Lambert. She added apologetically, “I have several houses. There’s one in Boston and another in Washington. I thought Washington would be best for the present, as Anna is going to attend school there.”

“What will Miss Kitteridge say?” For the first time, it struck Maud as odd that Miss Kitteridge was not present. “Where’s Miss Kitteridge?”

“I told her we wished to speak privately,” Mrs. Lambert said composedly. “I have offered — and she has accepted — a large donation for the Asylum. I don’t wish to sound arrogant, but Miss Kitteridge will say whatever I want her to say.”

Maud cupped her fingers around her thumbs and hid her hands behind her back. She knew she ought to feel elated. “But — that day at the Hotel Elysium —”

“I was very angry with you. Yes.” Mrs. Lambert swept aside the papers on Miss Kitteridge’s desk and sat down on it. “As I told you, I have something of a temper.”

Maud nodded fervently.

“There was so much I didn’t understand that day. When you talked to me, Maud, you spoke of the ‘family business’ and referred to Judith and Victoria as your aunts. That’s one of the reasons I offered them an allowance — I thought they had a child to provide for. I told Judith that some of the money I gave her should be used to send you to school.”

Maud’s mouth opened in a silent O.

Mrs. Lambert answered her unspoken question. “Judith never told me she planned to bring you back here. We spoke very briefly. She was mortified when I offered her money — I admit I didn’t offer it very graciously. The next morning she took you away. I thought you’d gone back to Hawthorne Grove. I had no idea you were an orphan.”

Maud looked back at Muffet. The hired woman was following the conversation intently. From time to time, Mrs. Lambert accompanied her speech with a gesture or spelled out a word. Muffet caught Maud’s eye and nodded meaningfully.

“After you were gone, Anna asked for you, and I had to tell her you weren’t there. I was sure she’d fracture her leg again, trying to get up so that she could hunt for you. She was furious when I kept pushing her back into bed. We had a dreadful quarrel without speaking a word.”

Maud could imagine. “I’ve fought with her like that.”

“Then Rory Hugelick came to see me. That day when he brought you to the hotel, I forgot all about him — I left him in the lobby. But he came back. He wanted to make sure you’d told me the truth.”

“I did,” Maud insisted, aggrieved. “After the fire, everything I told you was true. Even about Caroline.”

At the sound of her daughter’s name, Mrs. Lambert’s face softened. “I know that now. Since that night, I’ve had my own dreams of Caroline. I believe what you told me that morning.”

Maud shivered. So Caroline had left Maud’s dreams to inhabit her mother’s.

Muffet interrupted with one of her odd noises. The short, square fingers moved restlessly. Mrs. Lambert exclaimed, “Oh, dear, Anna says I’m taking too long with this! After I spoke to Rory, I began to worry about you. It seemed to me that the Hawthorne sisters were wholly unfit to raise a child — but there didn’t seem to be any way I could interfere. I left Cape Calypso and went back to Boston. It wasn’t until Victoria Hawthorne came to see me —”

“Aunt Victoria came to see you?”

Mrs. Lambert smiled at Maud’s wonderment. “All the way to Boston. I own I was surprised to see her. I never expected to speak to any of the Hawthorne sisters again. At first, I refused to see her. But she persisted. She wouldn’t go away until I listened. At last, I agreed — and she told me the whole story.” Mrs. Lambert paused and corrected herself. “ Your whole story, Maud. She made me see how much you longed for a home — and how Hyacinth took advantage of your longing. Then she told me you’d been sent back here.” Mrs. Lambert’s eyes swept the office, condemning the scuffed linoleum and Miss Kitteridge’s taste in art. “I thought it was the cruelest thing I ever heard. That was when I thought of adopting you.”

Adopting you. The words rang in Maud’s ears. She tried to imagine living with Mrs. Lambert. Her imagination hung fire. All she could think of was the surprisingly neutral fact that Mrs. Lambert was rich. She supposed that Mrs. Lambert would buy her lovely clothes and new books and pretty things. The prospect gave her little pleasure. It reminded her of Hyacinth. She must be wary of anything that reminded her of Hyacinth.

Mrs. Lambert seemed to have fallen back into her former shyness. She removed one glove and drew it through her fingers. She went on, “At first I thought I was foolish to consider such a thing. I told myself it wouldn’t work. But I couldn’t forget you. I wanted you.”

Maud opened her mouth. Her chin was trembling, and she couldn’t think of anything to say. An image flashed before her mind’s eye: Muffet and Mrs. Lambert and herself, strolling down the boardwalk in broad daylight, with the wind blowing and the seagulls wheeling overhead.

“That night on the shore, when we made the crocodile — do you remember that night, Maud?”

Maud nodded.

“I think I wanted you then.” Mrs. Lambert’s voice was tender. “It felt so sweet to be with a little girl again.” She slid off the desk and stepped forward, laying her palm against Maud’s cheek. Once again, Maud was reminded of Hyacinth. She laced her fingers together behind her back, as if she could hold on to her heart by keeping her fingers locked.

“What is it, Maud? Don’t you want to come with me?”

Maud tried to find her tongue. “I won’t be Caroline.” She was surprised by how loud and rude her voice sounded. “I haven’t got curly hair and I’d never pick up a snake.”

Mrs. Lambert smiled. “Maud,” she said gently, “I’ve thought this over. I don’t want to go through the rest of my life without loving anyone. I know you won’t be Caroline, but I believe I will love Maud. I want you to come and live with me.”