Maggie Gee - The White Family

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The Whites are an ordinary British family: love, hatred, sex and death hold them together, and tear them apart. At the beginning of the twenty-first century, Alfred White, a London park keeper, still rules his home with fierce conviction and inarticulate tenderness. May, his clever, passive wife, loves Alfred but conspires against him. Their three children are no longer close; the successful elder son, Darren, has escaped to the USA. When Alfred collapses on duty, his beautiful, childless daughter Shirley, who lives with Elroy, a black social worker, is brought face to face with Alfred's younger son Dirk, who hates and fears all black people. The scene is set for violence. In the end Alfred and May are forced to make a climatic decision: does justice matter more than kinship?

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So here was yet another thing I couldn’t get in to. Every fucking thing has been closed to us. Jobs, football games, everything that matters. Girls, women, they’re closed to us. Not that I care, they stink of minge, but why should they think they’re better than us? We need money or photocards or qualifications or pass-words that we can never learn. We need skills or languages or posh bloody accents or cars or computers or ties or suits –

Or a black face. The two niggers got in. They said they had tickets, but I don’t believe it.

It didn’t stop Ozzie and Flick and Terry. We went round the back, we were steaming mad, no way were we going to take this lying down.

‘I know a good place,’ Terry said. ‘I’ve climbed over before. I know we can do it.’

And he got a leg-up on a wheely-bin, clung by his fingernails, inched his way over, tearing his coat on the barbed-wire at the top and disappearing with a dirty great yell that either meant he was hurt or happy. We were all well rotted. I don’t think we cared.

But when it came to my turn, and they were all in, I couldn’t get my fingers on the top of the wall. I was just too short. I tried jumping. It was hopeless. They shouted a few times. Then they forgot me. And they had gone. They had done it. They were in. And I was left outside, on a stinking rubbish bin. I was outside in the cold on my own –

( Dirt White Dirt White just a dirty little dosser )

I’m not a bloody wimp. I’m not a bloody woman. I knew I could get in there by will-power. You can , I told myself. You can fucking do it .

So I launched myself at the top of the wall, and caught with one hand but missed with the other, swung round hard and crashed my face on the brickwork, smash in the cheek on the cold wet brickwork, and lost my grip, and fell whoomp on the ground.

That was the end. Then I knew I had to kill them. It didn’t matter who, I would have to fucking kill them.

Kill

Kill

Fuck

Fuck

Kill

33 Darren and Susie

‘Thank God I’ve got you,’ said Darren, solemnly, lying beside her on the hotel coverlet they’d just anointed with a small dark stain. Their suite at the Inn on the Park was quite poky, just bedroom, sitting-room, jacuzzi-less bathroom, but it had the advantage of a king-size bed. ‘I’d go mad, you know. If I were quite alone. My little brother’s barking, I suddenly realized. Last night he was going on about the Jews —’

Susie lay naked, her small bright hip-bone catching the harsh light from the wall. ‘He’s just projecting,’ she said, idly. ‘Darren, darling. So glad you’re back. Hate it so much when we fight.’

‘I hate it too.’ He stroked her thigh. He loved the hollow between her thighs, two shallow brackets that lithely enclosed him when they were happy, when he was home. ‘Suze, let’s never fight again.’

‘Love you,’ she said. ‘What’s the time, honey?’

‘Oh, three, four, plenty of time.’

‘We’d better check.’ Her voice sharpened up. ‘Oh sugar — three thirty — I guess we should leave.’

‘Let me just hold you. Need to hold you.’ But she had stiffened in his arms. ‘Is oo my baby?’ he asked, demanded. ‘Does oo love me, Poopsie?’

‘You’re my baby,’ she said, swiftly, and pressed him to her bony breast. ‘But we have to get up.’

‘We were silly again,’ he said, in a little boy, a baby voice, and took her finger, and traced the dark stain.

‘Hell, I forgot.’ A sharp intake of breath. ‘And I’m right in the middle of my fertile time.’

He began to kiss her, her cheek, her neck, her scooped-out collar-bones, her delicate ribs. ‘Mummy,’ he mumbled. ‘Do you want to be Mummy? … Mmm, mmm … Poopsie could be Mummy …’

She was caught halfway between laughter and panic, struggling up and away from him. ‘I’m not ready — we’re not ready —’

Susie would be forty-one next month.

‘Let’s start again. Everything new. A new family. You’d be brilliant with babies.’

‘I’m not so sure.’ But she flushed with pleasure as she pulled on her sports bra, supple, elastic. ‘I would love babies. You know I would.’

‘So why —?’ he said, faintly truculent, wandering over towards the bathroom. The hum of the fan disrupted his words. ‘You want them. I want them. Let’s do it.’

‘We’ve already discussed it.’

She chose the neat-jacketed blue Chanel suit which made her look like an air-hostess, crisp, efficient — not a good sign. Not a good sign at all, thought Darren, glancing over his shoulder as he shaved. ‘Is it still all this stuff about my family?’

‘I hear your anger,’ Susie said. ‘I hear you, Darren. We’ve already discussed it.’

‘I talked about it to Thomas,’ he said. ‘I gave him your spiel about confronting Dad. He didn’t actually say so, but he thought it was shit. He dotes on my father, actually.’

She didn’t rise to the bait, though she hated swear-words; it was one of the ways he could get to her. She looked at him steadily, coolly. ‘It’s your feelings that matter, not his.’

(She was always telling him about his feelings. Was it his feelings, or her feelings?) Darren sighed, and changed the subject. ‘The trousers of this suit are tight.’

‘Back to the gym as soon as we’re home,’ she said, and flashed him a brilliant smile. ‘I like you slim. I love you slim.’

‘Don’t you love me anyway?’ he pleaded.

‘You’re my husband ,’ she said. ‘You know I love you.’

‘But not enough to have my babies.’ (She was painting her lips, a wide slick of orange. She should talk less, and love him more.)

‘We’ve been through it,’ she said. ‘Must I explain again?’

(As if she was a teacher, and he was a child.)

The silence between them was heavy with resentment and the steady burr of the bathroom fan, tirelessly working to clear the air, to remove the smell of age and pain, the alcohol in Darren’s urine, the taint of Susie’s seafood lunch, most of which she’d sicked up again. She wasn’t ill; it was part of her diet.

If I got pregnant, she thought, I would stop.

‘I’d like another drink,’ he muttered to the glass, his face in the mirror, puffy, flushed.

If we had a baby, I know I’d cut down .

‘You don’t need one,’ she said, very definite, clicking her heavy snake handbag shut. ‘We’ve talked about this. You don’t need to drink.’

‘Fuck off,’ he exploded, furious, and his cuff burst away from the Dior cuff-links she’d given him as an engagement present, which he’d always suspected of being a freebie from an advertorial she’d done on designer shirts. ‘You don’t know everything. You’re not my keeper. I’m forty years old. I do what I like —’

‘Is it me you’re angry with? Or is it your father?’

‘That’s it ,’ he said. ‘That’s the last time. Get this into your head. Once and for all. I shall never, ever confront my father. I don’t want to. Don’t need to. It’s some cock-and-bull notion you therapists have got, that everything is solved by expressing our anger … It’s such bullshit. Such a load of crap. He’s an old man. He’s probably dying —’

‘Precisely,’ she said, with infuriating calm. ‘If you’re ever going to tell him, now is the time.’

‘Leave it!’ he shouted. Then heard himself shouting. And stopped, unnerved. She hated shouting. He hated it too. His father shouting. (The bloody old bastard. And he never said sorry.)

‘Sorry,’ said Darren, gruff, sheepish.

‘Fine,’ she said. It sounded like ‘Die.’

There was a timid knock. They both froze, embarrassed. ‘Who the fuck?’ said Darren. But they had to answer it. ‘Are you decent?’ he asked, then shouted ‘Come!’

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