Hanif Kureishi: Collected Stories

‘It’s a decent premise,’ said Munday.

‘Yes,’ agreed Jimmy.

*

Munday turned to Roy, who had rejoined them. ‘Where’s this guy been hiding?’

He was durable and unsubtle, Munday; and, in spite of his efforts, kindness and concern for others were obvious.

‘In the pub,’ said Roy.

‘Artist on the edge,’ said Jimmy.

‘Right,’ said Munday. ‘Too much comfort takes away the hunger. I’ll do this …’ he said.

He would advance Jimmy the money to prepare a draft.

‘How much?’ asked Jimmy.

‘Sufficient.’

Jimmy raised his glass. ‘Sufficient. Brilliant — don’t you think, Roy?’

Roy said he had to talk to Munday in the kitchen.

‘OK,’ said Munday. Roy closed the door behind them. Munday said, ‘Terrific guy.’

‘He used to be remarkable,’ said Roy in a low voice, realising he’d left the champagne in the pub. ‘Shame he’s so fucked now.’

‘He has some nice ideas.’

‘How can he get them down? He’s been dried out three times but always goes back on.’

‘Anyhow, I’ll see what I can do for him.’

‘Good.’

‘I meet so few interesting people these days. But I’m sorry to hear about your condition.’

‘Pardon?’

‘It happens to so many.’

‘What happens?’

‘I see. You don’t want it to get around. But we’ve worked together for years. You’re safe with me.’

‘Is that right? Please tell me,’ Roy said, ‘what you’re talking about.’

Munday explained that Jimmy had told him of Roy’s addiction to cocaine as well as alcohol.

‘You don’t believe that, do you?’ Roy said.

Munday put his arm around him. ‘Don’t fuck about, pal, you’re one of my best video directors. It’s tough enough as it is out there.’

‘But you don’t, do you?’

‘He predicted you’d be in denial.’

‘I’m not in fucking denial!’

Munday’s eyes widened. ‘Maybe not.’

‘But I’m not — really!’

Nevertheless, Munday wouldn’t stop regarding him as if he were contriving how to fit these startling new pieces into the puzzle that Roy had become.

He said, ‘What’s that white smear under your nose? and the blade on the table? You will always work, but not if you lie to my face. Roy, you’re degrading yourself! I can’t have you falling apart on a shoot. You haven’t been giving one hundred per cent and you look like shit.’

‘Do I?’

‘Sure you feel okay now? Your face seems to be twitching. Better take some of these.’

‘What are they?’

‘Vitamins.’

‘Munday —’

‘Go on, swallow.’

‘Please —’

‘Here’s some water. Get them down. Christ, you’re choking. Lean forward so I can smack you on the back. Jesus, you won’t work for me again until you’ve come out of the clinic. I’ll get the office to make a booking tonight. Just think, you might meet some exciting people there.’

‘Who?’

‘Guitarists. Have you discussed it with Clara?’

‘Not yet.’

‘If you don’t, I will.’

‘Thank you. But I need to know what’s happening with the film.’

‘Listen up then. Just sip the water and concentrate — if you can.’

Later, at the front door Munday shook Jimmy’s hand and said he’d be in touch. He said, ‘You guys. Sitting around here, music, conversation, bit of dope. I’m going back to the airport now. Another plane, another hotel room. I’m not complaining. But you know.’

The moment Munday got in his Jag and started up the street, Roy screamed at Jimmy. Jimmy covered his face and swore, through his sobs, that he couldn’t recall what he’d told Munday. Roy turned away. There was nothing to grasp or punish in Jimmy.

*

They stopped at an off-licence and drank on a bench in Kensington High Street. A young kid calling himself a traveller sat beside them and gave them a hit on some dope. Roy considered how enjoyably instructive it could be to take up such a position in the High Street, and how much one noticed about people, whereas to passers-by one was invisible, pitied or feared. After a while they went morosely into a pub where the barman served everyone else first and then was rude.

Roy’s film would be delayed for at least eighteen months, until Munday was in a stronger position to argue for ‘unconventional’ projects. Roy doubted it would happen now.

For most of his adult years he’d wanted success, and thought he knew what it was. But now he didn’t. He would have to live with himself as he was and without the old hope. Clara would be ashamed of him. As his financial burdens increased his resources had, in a few minutes, shrunk.

As the dark drew in and the street lights came on and people rushed through the tube stations, he and Jimmy walked about, stopping here and there. There seemed, in London, to be a pub on every corner, with many men on red plush seats drinking concentratedly, having nothing better to do. Occasionally they passed restaurants where, in the old days, Roy was greeted warmly and had passed much time, too much — sometimes four or five hours — with business acquaintances, now forgotten. Soon Roy was lost, fleeing with the energy of the frustrated and distressed, while Jimmy moved beside him with his customary cough, stumble and giggle, fuelled by the elation of unaccustomed success, and a beer glass under his coat.

At one point Jimmy suddenly pulled Roy towards a phone box. Jimmy ran in, waited crouching down, and shot out again, pulling Roy by his jacket across the road, where they shrank down beside a hedge.

‘What are you doing?’

‘We were going to get beaten up.’ Though shuddering and looking about wildly, Jimmy didn’t stop his drinking. ‘Didn’t you hear them swearing at us? Poofs, poofs, they said.’

‘Who, who?’

‘Don’t worry. But keep your head down!’ After a while he said, ‘Now come on. This way!’

Roy couldn’t believe that anyone would attempt such a thing on the street, but how would he know? He and Jimmy hastened through crowds of young people queuing for a concert; and along streets lined with posters advertising groups and comedians whose names he didn’t recognise.

There was a burst of laughter behind them. Roy wheeled round, but saw no one. The noise was coming from a parked car — no, from across the road. Then it seemed to disappear down the street like the tail of a typhoon. Now his name was being called. Assuming it was a spook, he pressed on, only to see a young actor he’d given work to, and to whom he’d promised a part in the film. Roy was aware of his swampy loafers and stained jacket that stank of pubs. Jimmy stood beside him, leaning on his shoulder, and they regarded the boy insolently.

‘I’ll wait to hear, shall I?’ said the actor, after a time, having muttered some other things that neither of them understood.

*

They settled in a pub from which Roy refused to move. At last he was able to tell Jimmy what Munday had said, and explain what it meant. Jimmy listened. There was a silence.

‘Tell me something, man,’ Jimmy said. ‘When you prepared your shooting scripts and stuff —’

‘I suppose you’re a big film writer now.’

‘Give me a chance. That guy Munday seemed okay.’

‘Did he?’

‘He saw something good in me, didn’t he?’

‘Yes, yes. Perhaps he did.’

‘Right. It’s started, brother. I’m on the up. I need to get a room — a bedsitter with a table — to get things moving in the literary department. Lend me some money until Munday pays me.’

‘There you go.’

Roy laid a £20 note on the table. It was all the cash he had now. Jimmy slid it away.

‘What’s that? It’s got to be a grand.’