Mira Jacob - The Sleepwalker's Guide to Dancing

“Holy shit,” Dimple said, and Amina’s eyes homed in on the long arm waving to them across the bar, the dark eyes and smile just beneath it.

“Holy shit,” she agreed.

Sajeev had grown into his nose.

Truthfully, Sajeev Roy had grown in almost every way, and half an hour into the dinner conversation, Amina could not stop shifting her eyes from his overly white teeth (still slightly bucked) to his toned forearms, squinting like he was made of sun. Strangely, the years since high school had turned him pretty , the femininity of his thickly lashed eyes offering strange friction to his button-down shirt, jeans, and tennis shoes just nice enough to let you know they cost more than Italian leather. Something charged with vetiver and sandalwood escaped from the neck of his shirt every time he leaned over, leaving her aroused and suspicious. What kind of a guy wore cologne to dinner with family friends? Certainly not the Sajeev she had imagined they would be meeting. As he detailed where he lived (a few blocks away), what he was doing (programming centered on artificial intelligence), how he liked Seattle (all good but the rain), Amina slipped quietly into a dazed, oversaturated place. Dimple, for her part, was in rare form, her eyes and teeth and fork winking like flashbulbs as she gave him a three-minute life update for both of them.

“And what kind of work do you show at the gallery?” he asked.

He didn’t know Dimple well enough to catch the slight flare in her nostril, the disdain for what she often called an “art for beginners” question, but she humored him, saying, “I like all kinds, but what we look for at John Niemen is actually the dialogue between works. We always feature two photographers in every show, and I look specifically for what the works will lend one another. It’s a conversation of sorts.”

“Is it a conversation other people understand?”

“Just the smart ones.”

Sajeev leaned back in the booth, one long arm draped across it. His mouth had a funny way of twisting into a little bow in the corner when he wasn’t talking, and Amina wondered idly if he could lift Dimple with one hand. There was certainly enough in the glances over his beer that made her think he wouldn’t mind trying. “So who’s up next, then? Anyone I’d know?”

Dimple stabbed a tomato wedge on her plate, trying, and failing, not to look self-important. “Are you familiar with Charles White?”

“The guy who makes everything look like a bad acid trip?”

Amina laughed as her cousin set her fork down. Charles White’s work had been a revelation for both of them in college. His most recent photographs, a series taken at a women’s shelter and featured in Art in America , had stayed open on Amina’s bed stand for months, its pointed article about the male gaze much less interesting than the photographs themselves — lushly colored, taken at angles stark enough to make the shelter look like Wonderland, its inhabitants modern-day Alices.

Dimple rearranged her napkin in her lap. “I find his work pretty remarkable, actually.”

“Oh, no doubt! Absolutely remarkable.” Sajeev stuffed a French fry into his mouth. “And so who will Charles White be, ahhhh, conversing with?”

“I don’t know yet. I had someone who didn’t work out.” Stress rose on Dimple’s shoulders, pulling them toward her ears. She’d been in a quiet panic for weeks now, trying and failing to find the right fit.

“Wow. That’s got to suck.” Sajeev leaned in, smiling. “I mean, you don’t want to get anything too domestic, right? That would make Charles White’s stuff seem forced, maybe even mean. But anything too esoteric and you risk mounting a big surrealist in-joke, right?”

Amina looked at him, understanding a little too late that Sajeev knew, and possibly cared about, photography. She saw a flash of confusion cross her cousin’s face, but before either of them could respond, he settled back farther in the booth, waving a hand at them.

“So you”—and here he indicated Amina—“take pictures, and you”—his hand brushed Dimple’s forearm—“put them up. So when is Amina’s stuff going to go up?”

A pungent silence fell across the table. Amina took a sip of beer, watching Sajeev over the rim of her glass. Had he really turned into one of those men who thought asking the uncomfortable question proved something about his integrity?

“I’ve asked,” Dimple said, just as Amina said, “I don’t have anything to show.”

Sajeev looked surprised.

“You would if you tried,” Dimple said.

“Stop,” Amina warned. She looked at Sajeev. “I don’t take the kinds of pictures Dimple needs. I’m a wedding photographer.”

His mouth puckered like he had tasted something off. “Wait, really? I thought you were some hotshot photojournalist.”

“No.”

“Because my mom used to keep your stuff, you know, clippings Kamala Auntie sent. And didn’t that one with the guy — what was his name?”

“Bobby McCloud,” Amina said softly, eyes darting around the room.

“That’s right! That was huge, no?”

Amina nodded, the slow creep of dread filling her lungs.

“And you just stopped? Just like that? I mean, you were really talented.”

“Jesus, Sajeev, she’s still talented!” Dimple snapped. “It’s just a fucking hiatus. You don’t need to make it sound like she’s dead or something.”

Sajeev flushed deeply, looking unsure of himself for the first time all evening. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it like that.”

“Don’t worry about it,” Amina said, and turned with relief to the waitress who was fast approaching their table.

“How are you guys doing over here? Does anyone need a refill?”

“Please,” Amina said. She had no idea.

He walked them to the truck. Amina tried not to laugh out loud about this, a little embarrassed by the chivalry of it all, but Sajeev hadn’t asked or offered, he’d just strolled out beside them, turning in the direction Amina pointed to when he asked where they were parked.

“So, cool,” he said when they reached it. “You’re sure you’re good to drive?”

Amina rolled her eyes. “I’m fine. Dimple’s the lightweight.”

“I am not! I’m just small!”

“Because my mother would kill me if anything happened to either of you,” Sajeev said. “And then Sanji Auntie would kill me again.”

Amina smiled. “Fair enough.”

He had been distinctly nicer since Dimple’s cut-down, the little whiff of vulnerability on him making Amina remember him as a kid.

“How is she doing anyway? God, I don’t even think I asked about the New Mexico clan. How is everyone?”

“Well, let’s see …” Dimple held out a hand, ticking off six fingers. “Sanji is probably knee-deep in the annual Indian Association Benefit planning, Raj is cooking himself into an early heart attack, Kamala is inducing guilt wherever possible, Thomas is telling himself stories, and my father is probably frowning at my mother’s choice of outfit at this very moment.”

Sajeev laughed a deep, appreciative rumble, and Amina watched Dimple grow a little tipsier from it. They reached the truck.

“So, I live here now,” he said. “I mean, obviously, I uh … but anyway, would love to hang out sometime.”

Dimple opened the door, slid in, and rolled down the window. “Amina’s leaving for the week. You’re lucky we even got her out at all. She’s like a ghost during wedding season, always stuck at everyone else’s party.”

“Where you going?” Sajeev asked Amina.

“Home. Short visit.”

“Nice. Well, tell everyone hi for me. And Dimple, maybe I’ll stop by the gallery sometime this week? I work right around Pioneer Square.”