Jane Mendelsohn - Burning Down the House

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She left the house and walked the grounds. There was nobody around. Eventually she followed a path and in the distance she could hear splashing and a man’s voice. At the end of the path there was more grass and, beyond that, gray-stone paving surrounding a swimming pool. Lush plantings bordered the pool and curved and dipped here and there into the water.

There were a couple of tasteful lounge chairs scattered around the pool, and in one of them sat Jonathan. He sat on the edge of the chair, not lounging. Alix was sprawled out on another chair, wearing an oversize man’s shirt over her bathing suit, sunglasses, and a hat. Miranda was in the water, doing slow and sinuous laps. Poppy took off her boots before anyone noticed her and walked barefoot on the grass toward her siblings. She crossed the stone paving along the edge of the swaying water and stood at the end of Alix’s lounge chair and still holding her boots in her hand said: Hello, Big Sis.

Wide eyed, she continued: I am starving and I cannot believe how beautiful it is here. I’ve been looking all over for everyone. Where can I get something to eat?

Alix peered over her sunglasses at Jonathan who was scrolling through his texts. Welcome, Poppy, Jonathan said.

Miranda raised her head from the water.

Poppy. How was your flight?

Jonathan looked Poppy up and down and went back to his phone.

Alix pulled her hat brim over her face. She was in a bad mood. Her silence seemed to express the idea that extreme privilege was like extreme deprivation: it could bring people to a savage state. She felt, at the moment, under no obligation to be kind. This was bizarre even to her because she had been looking forward to seeing Poppy, but the presence of a contented Jonathan, the irritating sound of Miranda’s lithe figure cutting through the water, and now the appearance of her much-younger, more beautiful cousin/half sister made her want to retreat into a chalet of self-loathing. Perhaps if Ian had been present she would have chosen to offer Poppy her better self, but Alix had no idea where he was and so she was stuck with these shameful feelings and no one to help her manage them, not that she should need anyone. She was thirty-seven years old. She allowed herself to behave badly and this only made her feel worse.

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Poppy turned to Jonathan. Do you know how to make her say hello? she said.

Jonathan looked up from his hands. He regarded Poppy without much expression.

Why isn’t she saying hello to me?

Jonathan shrugged and made a “who cares” movement with his head.

Poppy stared down at Alix.

Jonathan without looking up said to Alix, I don’t know why you’re being so rude — can you just say hello?

Alix said: I’m resting. She can see that. And I saw her five days ago in New York. This is not some major reunion.

Jonathan laughed a little breath.

What are you laughing at? said Poppy.

Miranda got out of the water, grabbed a towel, and slid over toward Poppy. I won’t hug, she said, because I’m all wet, but we’re so glad you’re here.

Thanks for saying so but it doesn’t really seem like it.

Miranda slipped her sandals on and headed back to the house.

Poppy stared down at Alix again. Poppy’s eyes were very blue and narrowed.

Alix readjusted her position.

Poppy made big dramatic pinwheel motions in the air around her head, an act of mime that left Jonathan breath-laughing again. Hello, she said, waving broadly at Alix.

I’m tired. It’s been stressful around here. Don’t push it, said Alix.

Push it? Push it? Poppy said. What is wrong with you? Can’t you be civil?

Hello, Poppy, Alix said, from underneath the hat.

Why am I the only mature one around here? said Poppy.

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A languid wind brushed through the trees making them heave and sigh. Poppy dropped her boots on the grass and took her dress off over her head. She let the loose fabric fall to the ground. She bent her thin arms around her back and unclasped her bra. Her rib cage rippled like the inside of a piano. She stepped out of her boy-shorts underwear and dropped all of her sheer decorative lingerie on top of her dress. She swept past the pile of clothes and when she reached the edge of the pool she straightened up and turned her head over her shoulder to look at Alix and Jonathan. Neither of them looked at her.

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The wind had stopped, no stirring leaves. Under the water, intersecting wavering ovals of light surrounded her in an electrified net. The bottom of the pool was painted a chalky white. She swam to one end and back and hauled herself out and made footprints like the shadows of faraway birds. Then she came to the pile of clothes and stood there.

Alix and Jonathan ignored her.

Poppy stood naked and dripping.

Jonathan gazed upward and then back to his phone.

How about showing a person a little love? said Poppy.

Jonathan stood up.

Poppy started shivering and Jonathan pointed to a stack of neatly folded towels on a weathered wooden table.

Go, cover yourself up, he said. He made a shooing motion with the hand that held the phone.

Poppy’s face clouded. You assholes, she said. She stood over Alix and dripped on her. Jonathan’s expression did not change. He just brought up his hand with the phone in it and held it above her as if he were going to strike. A great show of force in the silence. A clicking into place of the unnatural natural order. Then Alix lifting herself up onto her elbows, the rustle of her hat falling off her head.

Poppy stood her ground. You guys are so old, she said.

Alix and Jonathan didn’t respond. There was a swooning of air through the trees. Poppy found Jonathan’s eyes with hers.

And you are an infant, he said.

I feel sorry for your future children if this is how you treat an infant.

Alix said something about how she was getting soaked and this was ridiculous and Jonathan put your arm down. Then Poppy bent over and picked up her clothes. Then she walked to the edge of the pool. Then she threw her clothes into the water.

Jonathan’s face drained. Poppy, don’t do that. Look I’m sorry, he said, unemotionally.

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She walked back over toward him and Jonathan pulled away from her like a man avoiding a drunk on the sidewalk.

He stepped farther back as she lunged at him with her wet arms. Then he stepped back again. Poppy leaped lightly onto the lounge chair and pulled the phone out of his hand. Jonathan froze. She scrolled through his texts and read a couple of them out loud. They were meaningless. Then she selected a number from his contacts and made a call as she walked quickly to the other end of the pool.

Jonathan followed her. He was breathing heavily and he cursed and pointed at her, following her around the pool. Poppy turned back quickly and feinted and then threw the phone over Jonathan’s shoulder onto the stone paving. The guts and innards of the mechanism sprayed and Jonathan’s knees bent and his Oh fuck echoed. Poppy had already run over to collect the parts and she pitched each piece into the water before Jonathan had even picked up the splintered walnut cover and she skipped the little battery across the surface of the pool and yelled a Goodbye you expensive made-in-China piece-of-shit toy into the air as the bits of metal and plastic sank.

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Poppy surveyed the scene. Alix looked exhausted and spent and Jonathan was leaning over with his hands on his knees. Neither of them moved. Poppy strode over to the table with the towels on it and wrapped one around her body and secured it in between her breasts and headed away down the path. The birds were gone. The breeze was entirely gone too. She tucked her wet hair behind her ears and walked back to the house.