Donal Ryan - The Thing About December

So, according to her, he was a grand, well-built chap with the loveliest blue eyes and grand long eyelashes. It was all old talk, of course; he wasn’t going to be cock of the walk around the place thinking he was a fine thing or anything. Still, though, she didn’t sound like she was only saying these things for the want of something to be saying. The fourth compliment was the best of all; it had a proper ring of truth about it, like it was something that made her feel a bit sad to say it, somehow, but she had to say it, but she couldn’t be saying it too loud because it was maybe more than a nurse should be saying to a patient. She was in around, tightening things up about the place and she stopped all of a shot and turned and looked straight at him and he looked away too quickly for her not to know that he’d been watching her progress around the room like an old dog would look at a joint of beef that had just been taken from the oven and she said You’re really sweet. Do you know that?

That was one of the big drawbacks with a girl saying nice things to you: you felt you kind of had to respond in some way. What could you say, though? Thanks? That would sound like you knew this good thing about yourself already and fully accepted the fact. That would make you a bighead. You couldn’t be refusing the compliment either as then it could seem as though you were fishing for further compliments by making the other person argue with you. You could try being cool and nod and kind of let on you didn’t care what they thought but that would most likely just look plain ignorant. Best thing was just to go red and mumble, which really was the only response he was capable of, anyway. Going red and mumbling, all things considered, was the perfect way to react when someone said something nice about you.

BY THE TIME Johnsey’s fever broke Mumbly Dave was on his feet regularly and mooching about and tormenting poor souls up and down the ward. Siobhán arrived in one day, just after Dave headed off to see who could he inflict himself on. I’ll just have a look at you, love, and see are you all ready for road. Road meant home. Home meant back to nothing, no company but his own thoughts and they’d start to turn on him again before long. No more Siobhán of the Lovely Voice. No more Mumbly Dave, who was the best friend Johnsey had ever had if he was to be brutal honest with himself. He was unnatural annoying, that man, but yet Johnsey couldn’t imagine his own bedroom at home, with only a blank wall to his left and no little fat baldy fella spouting shite non-stop.

Siobhán had her hand on his mickey. She was looking over his head and up towards where Our Lady was perched on a little shelf, surveying the room and all in it. Johnsey could see a bit of the strap of her bra where her nurse’s shirt had shifted slightly on her shoulder. It was black, and there were little lacy bits along the length of it. The bit of flesh that he could see yielding slightly under the bra strap’s pressure was lovely and brown and freckled. Had she been sunbathing, he wondered? Girls loved that old craic by all accounts. It wouldn’t stand to you in the long run, though, according to a wan on telly. You’d end up with a melon omagh . The sun was a sight for bringing out freckles. Those freckles were beautiful beyond any words Johnsey knew. She wasn’t saying anything. Then her eyes came down from the statue’s height and met his own.

Hmm , she went. Or Mmm , the way a woman in a film might if she tasted something lovely like a chocolate, or if a big muscley lad was kissing her neck trying to get off with her. Imagine, a girl was holding his lad and saying Mmm! This was one to file away for future reference. You could nearly fool yourself into thinking there was a purpose beyond the medicinal to her explorations.

She still wasn’t saying anything and had made no attempt to move back his sheet to have a look underneath at his ravaged tackle. Probably these trained nurses could tell all by touch alone. An old John Thomas like his was all in a day’s work, like a lump of rump to a butcher or a concrete block to a builder. Any second now she’d say all was well with his private parts, sorry again about that old infection, you’re good to go, good luck, go on, there’s more need this bed. But instead her hand moved up slightly along his lad and the little fella started to throw a few shapes. He felt his cheeks burn with shame. She’d think him a pervert. She’d let on not to notice his hardening but she’d rush off and scrub her hand and tell the other nurses what a dirty yoke he was and they’d all be wide-eyed and horrified and then they’d all look at one another and cover their mouths and break down and roar laughing at him. Why wasn’t she wearing a glove, anyway? Her cold hand moved down again and his skin was pulled back a little. Things were getting out of hand in her hand, but she didn’t seem to notice; she was just looking at him but there was nothing in her blue eyes or on her lips to say what she was thinking. She seemed to be concentrating hard on something that was in her mind.

Suddenly she asked How does that feel? Her voice gave him a shock. He gasped out a Fine . Good, she said and stayed looking distant and thoughtful. He tried his damnedest to tear his eyes from that black bra strap. He feared he’d relapse into blindness from the effort. Was she wearing black knickers as well? The thought was out of the traps and running at full tilt towards his crotch before he could stop it and she seemed to sense this; she squeezed a little bit and her hand began to move up and down in an easy rhythm. The sheet across her forearm rose and fell no more than ten times before oh stars above oh mother of all that’s holy oh oh oh, his eyes squeezed themselves closed and his heels dug into the mattress and his hands gripped two fistfuls of sheet as the hot, sticky fluid pumped and jumped and rushed in a flooding river out of him all over her hand and the bed and his leg.

NO SCHOOL in July. You could give every day knocking about the farm with Daddy. Or if he was right busy or had to go off laying blocks, you could stay in the kitchen and Mother would allow you sit up on the worktop and watch her baking, or you could walk over across the river field and see could you spot a rabbit or a hedgehog along by the ditches or maybe even a diving kingfisher. The sun didn’t always split the stones, but even if it rained it was never cold and the earth would steam after it and you could even swim while it rained and you could kind of know then how the wild animals felt, being free.

Daddy would bring Johnsey to the Munster final, and Paddy Rourke would go with them as a rule. If it was on in Cork, they’d stop at the hotel in Mitchelstown on the way down for their breakfast. They always did a beautiful fry in that hotel. One time Daddy was going mad looking for more toast, but the little waitress must have gone off on her break or something, so Daddy bowled into the kitchen to make his own toast to hell and Johnsey was scared in case he got into trouble and Paddy shook his head and said Daddy was a madman and a few minutes later he came running back out with a big plate of toast and a load more rashers and a big fat wan behind him waving a wooden spoon mar dhea she was awful cross with him, but she was laughing and Paddy and Johnsey roared laughing too and there were a few more there in Tipp jerseys and they all cheered and it was a pure howl.

The Pecker Dunne would always be busking below outside the stadium with a big pile of wild-looking children and Daddy was mad about him and he’d always put money in their box and salute the Pecker and the Pecker would salute him back and it wasn’t everyone got a salute off of the legendary Pecker Dunne and Johnsey would be pure proud. If they beat Cork in the Munster final, Daddy would be as high as a kite on the way home. He’d shout Woo-hoo boys, we have Cork bet and the hay saved. Now we have a proper summer!