Tip Marugg - The Roar of Morning

The “uncle” and his wife were childless, and during a two-week holiday with them I made such a good impression that they wanted to adopt me. That was impossible, of course, but they did persuade my parents to let them borrow me for a time. The decisive factor was their promise that I would receive an excellent education. Not much came of my studies, however, as the schools were closed for most of that year. Quite apart from the normal holidays, there always seemed to be a revolution or rebellion in progress somewhere in the country. The initial response to this was invariably to close the schools. And when the situation returned to normal, reopening the schools was always the last thing the authorities thought of. All this was fine with me, but I thought it better not to write home about it. When I returned to the island after two years, I was put in the fifth class of my old primary school, but was demoted to the fourth class after three weeks because I was behind in just about every subject.

My Venezuelan uncle was obsessed with two things: the Bible and chess. Thanks to him I still know many passages from the Scriptures by heart, and I learned to play chess so well that if I was angry with him for some reason, I could usually beat him in fewer than thirty moves.

Every Saturday without fail my uncle would visit the prisoners incarcerated in the Castillo and bring them the Word of God. I was often made to accompany him so that I could see “the ugly side of life.” During the fifteen-minute work breaks and the one-hour lunch period, he would read to the prisoners from the Bible and speak words of comfort to them, emphasising the forgiveness of sins and God’s great love for all men, even for them, whatever they had done wrong. We had to get everything ready for the trip on Friday evening, as we left on the first bus at six the next morning. My uncle would take books, magazines, pamphlets, and miniature draughts and chess set with him, and I had to lug a basket containing fruit and those hard, round biscuits that were so popular at the time. At about eight the bus reached its terminus at the village of San Vicente. It was always a dusty drive, through little villages that all looked the same, and the bus would get fuller and fuller and noisier and noisier. From San Vicente we had almost an hour’s walk down a narrow country road before we arrived at the Castillo, a large, ugly building that looked nothing like a castle. By this time the inmates were already hard at work in the fields surrounding the prison. Hundreds of sweating men, all stripped to the waist, were busy digging, breaking stones, pushing heavy wheelbarrows or driving juddering drills into the ground. Two concrete mixers made an earsplitting din that never seemed to stop. All around, on low mounds and boulders, stood the uniformed guards, short, fat men who constantly wiped the sweat from their brows. They had long, old-fashioned rifles, and a few carried pistols.

Then came the sudden shrill whistle that everyone had been waiting for. The prisoners dropped their tools where they stood, or let their wheelbarrows crash to the ground, and hastily sought out a shady spot. My uncle would then join one group or another, and while the men lay on the ground smoking cigarettes, or pissed in the bushes, or stared absently in front of them, apparently without hearing or seeing anything, he would talk to them about God. Sometimes he would also play a game of draughts with one of the older prisoners, and between moves he would continue to talk about the second coming of Christ.

I used to sit on a boulder next to a man who kept himself apart from the other prisoners. He was tall and terribly thin; his eyes were lifeless and he seldom spoke. After I had been sitting next to him for some time, he would sometimes say, “Hello, lad.” I would answer, “Hello, sir,” and push the basket towards him, but he never took anything from it. Without saying a word, he would quickly smoke two or even three cigarettes in succession. Then the whistle would go and he would silently stand up and rejoin his work gang.

My uncle would come and sit with me for the hour and a half until the next break and teach me the finer points of chess. Now and then he would approach the guards, but did not like to do so because they had forbidden him to talk about religion. He was allowed to do that only to the prisoners, because they needed it. “We’re going to heaven anyway,” the guards would scoff.

When the whistle went for the next break, my uncle would hurry over to another group and the thin man would take up his usual position. Dutifully, I pushed the basket towards him yet again, though I realised he would never take anything. Many times I sat on the boulder next to that man and in all those months he said only a few words. Still, I think we communicated spiritually and I learned something from him, though I’m not quite sure what.

The thin man lit up a cigarette and inhaled deeply. He looked upwards and I followed his gaze. Far away in the taut blue sky a bird of prey soared upwards, its wings motionless. It rose higher and higher and became smaller and smaller, until it was no more than a tiny black cross floating up to heaven. I had to stop watching because my eyes were beginning to ache from the bright sunlight, but the man kept on staring at the bird. What’s going on in his head at this moment, I wondered. I felt sorry for him because he was in prison and couldn’t go home that evening as I could.

He now had a cigarette end between his lips and had placed his hands on his knees. He clenched his fists, and I saw that the taut skin of his hands was like the tanned hides of reptiles displayed in shops. I had the feeling that his clenched fists were not a sign of impotent rage; it was more as if he was trying to cling on to something. At any moment I expected him to sigh, “Oh, how wonderful everything could have been.” But he said nothing. Finally he lowered his head, and without blinking focused his attention on a dwarf bush a few yards away. It was a plant with dull green, saw-edged leaves which gave off a scarcely perceptible heat, suggesting that the bush was burning in some mysterious way. Beyond it was a low hill that had been deeply quarried out by the prisoners, creating a cave into which the sunlight fell obliquely. I watched the man and saw that he had looked away from the bush and was now staring at the gash in the hillside. For the umpteenth time I was struck by his tormented eyes and wondered whether he had clairvoyant powers. I looked back at the cave. It was probably stifling hot in there; who knows, it may have been home to the ghosts of prisoners who had succumbed to the brutal prison regime. If I strained my eyes, perhaps I could see the same things as the man sitting next to me. Halfway between us and the cave the sunlight and the darkness merged, and at that spot a clearly perceptible haze rose from the ground, in which the blurred reflection of the bush shimmered. Once again, I hoped that the man would say something, but the whistle sounded and he got up and left. I felt disappointed and slightly intoxicated. My eyes were hurting, there was a cramp in my legs and I was stiff all over from having sat for too long. I hated the merciless sun and the sandy soil on my skin and in my clothes.

The signal for the lunch break was a cannon shot from the Castillo. The iron gates of the prison opened with a hideous grating sound and a decrepit pickup truck drove out, bringing the food for the prisoners and guards. My uncle and I were given a portion from a large aluminium dish, invariably a greasy stew of rice, meat, beans and bananas. I took only a few mouthfuls. I preferred one of the hard biscuits from the basket, although they always gave me hiccups.

In the afternoon everyone worked at half-speed. The sun burnt even fiercer and the heat became almost unbearable. The pickaxes went into the ground at longer intervals, the wagons were filled more slowly and the wheelbarrows were pushed even more languidly. The guards sat on the mounds and the sweat marks around the armpits of their shirts grew larger and larger. The only one who did not malinger was my uncle. He spoke just as fervently about Our Lord in the afternoons as in the mornings.