Donna Tartt - The Secret History

'I thought that's what you wanted.'

'There are half a dozen problems with it. Some of them you pointed out. Control of the dose is risky, but time, I think, is the real concern. From my standpoint the longer the better, but still… A person can do an awful lot of talking in twelve hours.' He was quiet for a moment. 'It's not as if I haven't seen this all along.

The idea of killing him is so repellent that I haven't been able to think of it as anything but a chess-problem. A game. You have no idea how much thought I've put into this. Even to the strain of poison. It's said to make the throat swell, do you know that? Victims are said to be struck dumb, unable to name their poisoner.' He sighed. 'Too easy to beguile myself with the Medicis, the Borgias, all those poisoned rings and roses… It's possible to do that, did you know? To poison a rose, then present it as a gift? The lady pricks her ringer, then falls dead. I know how to make a candle that will kill if burned in a closed room.

Or how to poison a pillow, or a prayer book I said: 'What about sleeping pills?'

He glanced at me, annoyed.

Tm serious. People die from them all the time.'

'Where are we going to get sleeping pills?'

'This is Hampden College. If we want sleeping pills, we can get them.'

We looked at each other.

'How would we give them?' he said.

'Tell him they're Tylenol.'

'And how do we get him to swallow nine or ten Tylenol?'

'We could break them open in a glass of whiskey.'

'You think Bunny is likely to drink a glass of whiskey with a lot of white powder at the bottom?'

'I think he's just as apt to do that as eat a dish of toadstools.'

There was a long silence, during which a bird trilled noisily outside the window. Henry closed his eyes for a long moment and rubbed his temple with his fingertips.

'What are you going to do?' I said.

'I think I'm going to go out and run a few errands,' he said. 'I want you to go home and go to sleep.'

'Do you have any ideas?'

'No. But there's something I want to look into. I'd drive you back to school, but I don't think it's a good idea for us to be seen together just now.' He began to fish in the pocket of his bathrobe, pulling out matches, pen nibs, his blue enamel pillbox. Finally he found a couple of quarters and laid them on the table. 'Here,' he said. 'Stop at the newsstand and buy a paper on your way home.'

'Why?'

'In case anyone should wonder why you're wandering around at this hour. I may have to talk to you tonight. If I don't find you in, I'll leave a message that a Doctor Springfield called. Don't try to get in touch with me before then, unless of course you have to.'

'Sure.'

'I'll see you later, then,' he said, starting out of the kitchen.

Then he turned in the door and looked at me. Till never forget this, you know,' he said matter-offactly.

'It's nothing.'

'It's everything and you know it.'

'You've done me a favor or two yourself,' I said, but he had already started out and didn't hear me. At any rate, he didn't answer.

I bought a newspaper at the little store down the street and walked back to school through the dank, verdant woods, off the main path, stepping over the boulders and rotting logs that occasionally blocked my way.

It was still early when I got to campus. I went in the back door of Monmouth and, pausing at the top of the stairs, I was startled to see the house chairperson and a flock of girls in housecoats, huddled around the broom closet and conversing in varying tones of shrill outrage. When I tried to brush past them, Judy Poovey, clad in a black kimono, grabbed my arm. 'Hey,' she said.

'Somebody puked in this broom closet.'

'It was one of those goddamned freshmen,' said a girl at my elbow. 'They get stinking drunk and come to the upper-class suites to barf.'

'Well, 1 don't know who did it,' the house chairperson said, 'but whoever it was, they had spaghetti for dinner.'

'Hmnn.'

'That means they're not on the meal ticket, then.'

I pushed through them to my room, locking the door behind me, and went, almost immediately, to sleep.

I slept all day, face down in the pillow, a comfortable dead-man's float only remotely disturbed by a chill undertow of reality talk, footsteps, slamming doors – which threaded fitfully through the dark, blood-warm waters of dream. Day ran into night, and still I slept, until finally the rush and rumble of a flushing toilet rolled me on my back and up from sleep.

The Saturday night party had already started, in Putnam House next door. That meant dinner was over, the snack bar was closed, and I'd slept at least fourteen hours. My house was deserted. I got up and shaved and took a hot bath. Then I put on my robe and, eating an apple I'd found in the house kitchen, walked downstairs in my bare feet to see if any messages had been left for me by the phone.

There were three. Bunny Corcoran, at a quarter to six. My mother, from California, at eight-forty-five. And a Dr H. Springfield, D. D. S., who suggested I visit at my earliest convenience.

I was famished. When I got to Henry's, I was glad to see that Charles and Francis were still picking at a cold chicken and some salad.

Henry looked as if he hadn't slept since I'd seen him last. He was wearing an old tweed jacket with sprung elbows, and there were grass stains on the knees of his trousers; khaki gaiters were laced over his mud-caked shoes. 'The plates are in the sideboard, if you're hungry,' he said, pulling out his chair and sitting down heavily, like some old farmer just home from the field.

'Where have you been?'

'We'll talk about it after dinner.'

'Where's Camilla?'

Charles began to laugh.

Francis put down his chicken leg. 'She's got a date,' he said.

'You're kidding. With who?'

'Cloke Rayburn.'

They're at the party,' Charles said. 'He took her out for drinks before and everything.'

'Marion and Bunny are with them,' Francis said. 'It was Henry's idea. Tonight she's keeping an eye on you-know-who.'

'You-know-who left a message for me on the telephone this afternoon,' I said.

'You-know-who has been on the warpath all day long,' said Charles, cutting himself a slice of bread.

'Not now, please,' said Henry in a tired voice.

After the dishes were cleared Henry put his elbows on the table and lit a cigarette. He needed a shave and there were dark circles under his eyes.

'So what's the plan?' said Francis.

Henry tossed the match into the ashtray. 'This weekend,' he said. Tomorrow,'

I paused with my coffee cup halfway to my lips.

'Oh my God,' said Charles, disconcerted. 'So soon?'

'It can't wait any longer.'

'How? What can we do on such short notice?'

'I don't like it either, but if we wait we won't have another chance until next weekend. If it comes to that, we may not have another chance at all.'

There was a brief silence.

This is for real?' said Charles uncertainly. This is, like, a definite thing?'

'Nothing is definite,' said Henry. The circumstances won't be entirely under our control. But I want us to be ready should the opportunity present itself.'

'This sounds sort of indeterminate,' said Francis.

It is. It can't be any other way, unfortunately, as Bunny will be doing most of the work.'

'How's that?' said Charles, leaning back in his chair.

'An accident. A hiking accident, to be precise.' Henry paused.

'Tomorrow's Sunday.'

'Yes.'

'So tomorrow, if the weather's nice, Bunny will more likely than not go for a walk.'

'He doesn't always go,' said Charles.

'Say he does. And we have a fairly good idea of his route.'

'It varies,' I said. I had accompanied Bunny on a good many of those walks the term before. He was apt to cross streams, climb fences, make any number of unexpected detours.