Thomas Trofimuk - Waiting for Columbus

“ Columbus taught me. It’s a derivation of something called a gambit.”

On a day when the sky is ripped with gray and cool breezes arrive in blusters from the Atlantic, Consuela tells Columbus she’s procured a bota of wine and asks if he’d like a drink.

“Ah, you are seducing me,” he says. “This behavior is not unappealing. It’s about time you tried to take advantage of me.”

“I am not seducing you,” she whispers. “I just want to share a bottle of wine with my… friend.” She almost said favorite patient but that would be too outlandish for her to handle. Feeding patients booze is forbidden. It’s against the rules. Even though she has permission, this goes against everything she knows about being a nurse. “Not here, though. Meet me at the pool.”

“It’s been a while since I had a drink of wine with a beautiful woman,” Columbus says. He’s sitting on the edge of the pool, presiding over the pool, with his back to the doorway. She has grown to love the way he always knows when she is in the room. No matter how quiet she is or how careful she is about her scent, he knows.

“I saw this coming days ago,” he says.

“What did you see?” Jesus, this isn’t going to work, she thinks. She starts to panic.

“The weather. Cooler weather. I adjusted the temperature of the water.”

Consuela dips her toes into the pool and she finds the water is hot. They decide to move their deck chairs so they can put their feet in the water. Consuela passes the bota to him and he sprays a long stream of wine into his mouth. They pass the bota back and forth. If this first bota doesn’t do the trick, there’s another just inside the pool-room archway, which she dropped off as she came in.

“So what’s going on in that head of yours, Columbus? Do you know who you are today?”

“The ugly dreams are back. I can’t seem to dream about anything pleasant.” He stops. Takes a couple of barely controlled breaths. “Butterflies would be nice. Puppies. Kittens. Anything but what I find in my sleep…”

“Do you want to talk about your dreams?”

“We have talked about them. They’re ugly things. Horrifying. And I am here with a beautiful woman, and the wine is good. So no, I don’t want to talk about them.”

“Thank you, by the way.”

He looks at her, perplexed, then nods. “Well, you are a beautiful woman, regardless of what you may believe or think.”

They finish the bota and Consuela stands.

“Where are you going?”

“Do you think I would bring just one bottle of wine?”

“Nurse Consuela, you little vixen. I’d offer to get up and help you find that bottle but I’m not entirely certain I can.”

“We will taste the Pesquera now. I’m told it is an excellent Spanish wine. One of the best.”

“And the first bottle?”

“A bordeaux,” she says matter-of-factly.

That’s enough to push him back into the story. His eyes become sad and dark, edged with pain. The creases on his forehead deepen. He clears his throat and sighs heavily, then leans back in his chair and begins. “Ah, yes, the Café Bordeaux. This is where things go terribly wrong…”

Columbus arrives at the Café Bordeaux a few minutes early. There’s a lovely warmth to this place. Brownish, reddish, orange colors permeate the room and give it a comfort beyond its plush chairs and thick carpets. Selena wants to say good-bye, he thinks. This is her kind of café. It feels like Selena. It has the feel of privacy regardless of how public it may be.

He passes a table of four monks, hoods up, heads down, focused on the mastication of their food. He and Juan drank at least a bottle of wine each at the previous café, and upon sitting down, Columbus immediately orders another. The waiter is a small ferret of a man with a slender mustache. He is not friendly but his efficiency makes up for this. The wine is presented, uncorked, and poured with little fanfare. Columbus appreciates this man’s sharp-edged professionalism. If he hadn’t already filled his roster of sailors, he’d have invited this man along.

At the next table, separated from his by a dwarf palm tree, a mother and her two daughters, young girls about ten and twelve years old, are having dinner. The daughters have long dark hair, brushed and shining. They are so well behaved. Their mother, a woman who has a knowing smile, seems pleased, proud to be out with her daughters. Her smile makes Columbus feel she understands her daughters, that she listens with love. Columbus cannot help but overhear their conversation. They are discussing what they will wear the next day to watch the ships set sail. This pleases him. The youngest daughter talks excitedly about starting school in the fall. The oldest rolls her eyes.

Columbus takes another sip of wine. There’s no stopping this now, he thinks. He will sail in the morning. They will discover whatever is there. He thinks of the falling rock-a five-meter-high rock he has been pushing for the past ten years. Finally, he has loosened it to the point where it is going to fall. The rock is in motion, it has momentum, and Columbus can’t stop it.

He looks up in shock when she arrives, and he is stunned when she sits across from him, lets her hood fall to her shoulders, smiles. Her eyes have receded into her face, pupils dilated, and her complexion is sallow, pasty. Whatever drug she’s on, it has not been kind to her looks.

“My love,” Cassandra says inside a breathy whisper.

“Cassandra.” Columbus is off-kilter. This is a surprise. “Cassandra?”

“No kiss, Columbus? Have you no kisses for me?”

Columbus leans across the table and kisses her cheek gently. There is a faint scar along her jawline. Her skin feels cool and moist. She seems altered, like life itself has withdrawn slightly from her body.

“Have I become your sister?”

“My sisters are all at home in Genoa.”

“ Genoa. Well, I did not know that. You have family out of this country. Keeping secrets, are we, my love? I thought we had no secrets. I thought we shared everything.”

“We shared one evening-”

“And a night and a morning and an early afternoon.”

“Yes, of course, a beautiful time, but a short time.”

“And now you are leaving me.”

“Cassandra, I am leaving everything, everybody. Not just you. I have two sons. And I have a wife.”

“You have a wife?”

“Well, it is fairly common knowledge.”

“Not to me. You didn’t think it important to share that piece of vital information with me?”

Columbus leans back in his chair. “There was not an appropriate time to share my life’s history with you.” It would not be wise to volunteer any information about Beatriz or Selena, he thinks. Not now. Not ever.

“We could make the time, if only you would not do this thing tomorrow.”

“Cassandra, it is set. I sail tomorrow with the tide. There are three ships. And there are many men counting on me. The king and queen are counting on me.”

“And what of me? Were you going to leave without saying good-bye?”

Columbus begins to feel very twitchy. He does not like the way this conversation is going. She seems to be calm but there is some sort of violence hidden under the skin. Perhaps her voice is too calm. “Well, I will remember you. I will take you with me wherever I wind up.”

“And what about my love?”

“Your love?”

“Yes, I love you, Columbus. I love you like life itself. I have always loved you. I have always been waiting for you. All my life I have waited.”

“But I have not seen you for seven years.”

“And I have loved you all that time.”

“It’s been seven years!”