Douglas Kennedy - Woman in the Fifth

Don’t bother to reply to this letter. It will be deleted upon receipt.

Susan

I found myself shaking so badly as I finished reading this email that I had to hold on to the cheap wooden table on which the computer rested. ‘… what she didn’t know was just how horribly you had behaved toward that unfortunate girl .’ Another lie — and one perpetrated by Robson in his campaign to ruin me. ‘ And now Megan wants nothing to do with you .’ Pressing my fingertips against my eyes, I tried very hard to stop myself from crying. When I brought myself under control, I pulled away my hands — and saw that the young bearded guy behind the cafe counter was studying me. When our eyes met, he turned away — embarrassed that I caught him looking at me in such distress. I wiped my eyes and came over to the counter.

‘A drink?’ he asked me.

‘An espresso, please,’ I said.

‘More bad news?’ he asked.

I nodded.

‘Maybe things will change.’

‘Not this time.’

He finished making the coffee and placed it in front of me. Then he reached for a bottle of Scotch and poured out a small shot for me.

‘Here — drink,’ he said.

‘Thank you.’

I threw back the whisky. It stung going down, but I could also feel its immediate balming effect. After gulping the refill that he poured me I asked him, ‘Do you speak Turkish?’

‘Why do you want to know this?’ he asked.

‘Because I need to write somebody an email in Turkish.’

‘What sort of email?’

‘A personal email.’

‘I am not a translator.’

‘It’s only three lines long.’

A pause. I could see he was sizing me up, wondering why I needed to write something in Turkish.

‘What’s your name?’ he asked.

I told him and proffered my hand.

‘I’m Kamal,’ he said. ‘And this translation — it is just three lines?’

‘That’s right.’

He pushed a pad toward me.

‘OK,’ he said. ‘Write.’

I picked up the stub of a pencil that he placed on top of the pad and wrote, in French, the veiled communique I had been hatching in my head since waking up this afternoon:

Dear Mrs Pafnuk

I am the new resident of the room which Adnan used to live in. I was just wondering if there was anything he left behind that he needs to be sent on to him. Please send him my best wishes, and tell him I remain grateful to him for his kindnesses shown to me. I think of him often and would like to offer my assistance if his family is in need of any help.

Yours sincerely

And I signed it with my email address.

I pushed the pad toward the guy. He looked down at the message.

‘It’s five lines, not three,’ he said, then flashed me the smallest of smiles.

‘You have the email address?’ he asked.

I handed over the scrap of paper slipped under my door.

‘OK,’ he said. ‘I take care of it.’

He disappeared over to a terminal. A few minutes went by. He finished typing and said, ‘It’s sent.’

‘What do I owe you?’

‘One euro for the coffee, the whisky is on the house.’

‘And for the translation?’

‘Nothing.’

‘Are you sure?’

‘I knew Adnan.’

That threw me.

‘Don’t worry,’ he said quietly. ‘I know it wasn’t your fault.’

But so much is my fault.

I was tempted to send Megan one more email — but figured she would now report it immediately to her mother, and Susan would then make good on her threat to get a barring order, and I wouldn’t have the money to fight it, and any hope of ever seeing Megan again …

Abandon all hope of that. Your ex-wife has ensured that she’ll despise you forever.

I spent the next few days in a depressed fog — going through the motions of my routine, but almost catatonic with grief as the realization hit home: My contact with Megan is over. Every day I checked my email, trying to convince myself that she mightn’t have listened to her mother and decided to risk contact with me. But the mailbox remained empty … until, around a week later, when there was a reply waiting for me from Mrs Pafnuk. It was written in Turkish and Kamal translated it for me.

Dear Mr Ricks

I was very pleased to hear from you. So too was Adnan, whom I visited yesterday. He said that the conditions are dreadful, but he can do nothing except try to stay sane and see the time out. He sends you his best wishes — and asks me to convey to you his feelings of friendship, and hopes that you will look around his room carefully and see if you can find a storage area where he kept something very special. He senses that you have already found it — and know its contents — but are being understandably cautious. Please contact me again by email to let me know if you have found what he hopes you have found. Once again, my husband thanks you greatly for your assistance and sends you fraternal greetings.

Sincerely,

Mrs Z. Pafnuk

When Kamal finished reading the email out to me in French, he pursed his lips and said, ‘She obviously hired the local scribe in her village to write this for her.’

‘How can you tell?’ I asked.

‘Adnan told me she could hardly read or write. He would come here twice a week to write her — and he would dictate to me what to write, because he also couldn’t read or write that much either.’

‘So you’re the local scribe here as well?’

‘You run an Internet cafe in a quartier like this, you end up writing many emails for people. But by this time next year, this cafe will be no more. Our lease is up in nine months — and I know that the landlord will double the rent. Because the quartier is changing. The French are moving back.’

‘The wealthy French?’ I asked.

‘ Bien sur . The bobos . They’re buying up all the loft spaces in the Tenth and pushing property prices way up. I promise you, eighteen months from now this cafe will be a chic restaurant or a boutique that sells expensive soaps. Within two years, the only Turks you will find around here will be the waiters.’

‘And what will you do?’ I asked.

‘Survive, comme d’habitude . Do you want to reply to this email?’

‘Yes,’ I said and reached for a pad by the computer and scribbled:

Dear Mrs Pafnuk

I have found what Adnan left behind. How would you me to transfer it to you?

Yours sincerely

I handed the note to Kamal.

‘How much money did you find?’ he asked.

‘How do you know it was money?’ I asked.

‘Do not worry. I will not come to your room tonight, and beat you over the head with a hammer and take it.’

‘That’s nice to know.’

‘So it was a large sum?’ ‘A good sum, yes.’

He looked at me with care.

‘You are an honorable man,’ he said.

‘No,’ I said. ‘I’m not.’

Two days later, there was a return email from Mrs Pafnuk. She asked me to send the ‘item’ by Western Union telegraphic exchange to their office in Ankara. ‘I will be visiting Adnan on Sunday and can collect it then.’

After translating her email, Kamal said, ‘There is a Western Union on the boulevard de la Villette, near the Belleville metro .’

‘I’ll head there right after this.’

‘Come on, tell me. How much money did you find?’

I hesitated.

‘OK, don’t tell me. I was just curious.’

‘Four grand,’ I said.

He whistled through his teeth.

‘You must be very rich to have decided to inform Adnan’s wife about all that cash—’

‘If I was rich,’ I said, cutting him off, ‘I would hardly be living in a chambre de bonne on the rue de Paradis.’

‘That is true,’ Kamal said. ‘Then you are evidently a fool.’