Maeve Binchy - Evening Class

'Couldn't you have left them there, Luigi, rather than steal keys and get them back?'

Tt was always a bit complicated,' he said repentantly.

'And the television?'

'It's a long story.'

'Tell me some of it.'

'Well, it was given to me as a present for… er, storing the… er, boxes of tapes. And I didn't want to give it to Suzi because… well, you know I couldn't have. She'd know, or guess or something.'

'But there's nothing for her to find out now.'

'No, Signora.' He felt as if he were four years old with his head hanging down.

' In bocca al lupo , Luigi,' said Signora, and locked the door behind them firmly, leaning against it and testing to make quite sure it was closed.

INNOD

When Constance O'Connor was fifteen her mother stopped serving desserts at home. There were no cakes at tea, a low fat spread was on the table instead of butter, and sweets and chocolate forbidden from the house.

'You're getting a bit hippy, darling,' her mother said when Constance protested.

'All the tennis lessons, all the smart places we go, will be no use at all if you have a big bum.'

'No use for what?'

'To attract the right kind of husband,' her mother had laughed. And then, before Connie could persist, she said: 'Believe me, I know what I'm saying. I'm not saying it's fair, but it's the way things are, so if we know the rules why not play by them?'

'They might have been the rules in your day, Mother, back in the forties, but everything's changed since then.'

'Believe me,' her mother said. It was a great phrase of hers, she ordered people to believe her on this and on that. 'Nothing has changed, 1940s, 1960s, they still want a slim, trim wife. It looks classy. The kind of men we want, want women who look the part. Just be glad you know that and lots of your friends at school don't.'

Connie had asked her father. 'Did you marry Mother because she was slim?'

'No, I married her because she was lovely and delightful and warm and because she looked after herself. I knew someone who looked after herself would look after me, and you when you came along, and the home. It's as simple as that.'

Connie was at an expensive girls' school.

Her mother always insisted she invite her friends around to supper or for the weekend. 'That way they'll invite you and you can meet their brothers and their friends,' Mother said.

'Oh, Mother, it's idiotic. It's not like some kind of Society where we are all presented at court. I'll meet whoever I meet, that's the way it is.'

'That's not the way it is,' her mother said.

And when Connie was seventeen or eighteen she found herself going out with exactly the people her mother would have chosen for her; doctors' sons, lawyers' sons, young people whose fathers were very successful in business. Some of them were great fun, some of them were very stupid, but Connie knew it would all be all right when she went to university. Then she could really meet the

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kind of people she knew were out there. She could make her own friends, not just pick from the tiny circle that her mother had thought suitable.

She had registered to go to University College Dublin just before her nineteenth birthday. She had gone in and walked around the campus several times and attended a few public lectures there so that she wouldn't feel nervous when it all started in October.

But in September the unbelievable happened. Her father died. A dentist who spent a great deal of his time on the golf course, and whose successful practice had a lot to do with being a partner in his uncle's firm, should have lived for ever. That's what everyone said. Didn't smoke, only the odd drink to be sociable, took plenty of exercise. No stress in his life.

But of course they hadn't known about the gambling. Nobody had known until later the debts that existed. That the house would have to be sold. That there would be no money for Connie or any of them to go to university.

Connie's mother had been ice cold about it all. She behaved perfectly at the funeral, invited everyone around to the house for salads and wine. 'Richard would have wanted it this way,' she said.

Already the rumours were beginning to spread, but she kept her head up high. When she was alone with Connie, and only then, she let her public face fall. 'If he weren't dead I would kill him,' she said over and over. 'With my own bare hands I would choke the life out of him for doing this to us.'

'Poor Daddy.' Connie had a softer heart. 'He must have been very upset in his mind to throw money away on dogs and horses. He must have been looking for something.'

'If he were still here to face me, he would have known what he was looking for,' her mother said.

'But if he had lived, he would have explained, won it back maybe, told us.' Connie wanted a good memory of her father who had been kind and good-tempered. He hadn't fussed as much as Mother, and made so many rules and laid down so many laws.

'Don't be a fool, Connie. There's no time for that now. Our only hope is that you will marry well.'

'Mother! Don't be idiotic , Mother. I'm not going to get married for years. I have all my college years to get through, then I want to travel. I'm going to wait until I'm nearly thirty before I settle down.'

Her mother looked at her with a very hard face. 'Let's get this understood here and now, there will be no university. Who will pay the fees, who will pay your upkeep?'

'What do you want me to do instead?'

'You'll do what you have to do. You'll live with your father's family, his uncles and brothers are very ashamed about this weakness of his. Some of them knew, some didn't. But they're going to keep you in Dublin for a year while you do a secretarial course, and possibly a couple of other things as well, then you'll get a job and marry somebody suitable as soon as possible.'

'But Mother… I'm going to do a degree, it's all arranged, I've been accepted.'

'It's all unarranged now.'

'That's not fair, it can't be.'

'Talk to your late father about it, it's his doing, not mine.'

'But couldn't I get a job and go to college at the same time?'

'It doesn't happen. And that crowd of his relatives aren't going to put you up in their house if you're working as a cleaner or a shopgirl, which is all you can hope to get.'

Maybe she should have fought harder, Connie told herself. But it was hard to remember how times were then. And how shocked and upset they all were.

And how frightened she was going to live with her cousins whom she didn't know, while Mother and the twins went back to the country to live with Mother's family. Mother said that going back to the small town she had left in triumph long ago was the hardest thing a human should be asked to do.

'But they'll be sorry for you so they'll be nice to you,' Connie had said.

'I don't want their pity, their niceness. I wanted my pride. He took that away. That's what I will never forgive him for, not until the day I die.'

At her secretarial course Connie met Vera, who had been at school with her.

'I'm desperately sorry about your father losing all his money,' Vera said immediately, and Connie's eyes filled with tears.

'It was terrible,' she said. 'Because it's not like the awfulness of your father dying anyway, it's as if he were a different person all the time and none of us ever knew him.'

'Oh, you did know him, it's just you didn't know him liking a flutter, and he'd never have done it if he thought you were all going to be upset,' said Vera.

Connie was delighted to meet someone so kind and understanding. And even though she and Vera had never been close at school they became very firm friends at that moment.

'I think you don't know how nice it is having someone being sympathetic,' she wrote to her mother. 'It's like a warm bath. I bet people would be like that to you around Grannie's home if you let them and told them how awful you felt.'