Maeve Binchy - Evening Class

'Does he talk about things with your mother, do you think?'

Grania shook her head. 'They hardly talk at all. My mother's only interested in the restaurant and going to see her sisters. Dad spends most of his time doing up a sort of study for himself. He's very lonely these days, I couldn't bear to bring anything else on him. But maybe if these evening classes are a huge success and he gets a lot of praise for that… then I could face him with the other thing. Were I to go ahead with it, of course.'

Bill looked admiringly at Grania. Like himself she was more confident than her parents, and also like him she didn't want to upset them. 'We have so much in common,' he said suddenly. 'Isn't it a pity that we don't fancy each other.'

'I know , Bill.' Crania's sigh was heartfelt. 'And you're a very good looking guy, specially in that new jacket. And you've got lovely shiny brown hair and you're young, you won't be dead when I'm forty. Isn't it awful that we couldn't fancy each other but I don't, not even a bit.'

'I know,' Bill said. 'Neither do I, isn't it a crying shame?'

As a treat he decided to take the family to lunch, out to the seaside. They took the train called the DART.

'We're darting out to the seaside,' Olive told several people on the train and they smiled at her. Everyone smiled at Olive, she was so eager. They explained to her that DART meant Dublin Area Rapid Transit but she didn't take it in.

They walked down to look at the harbour and the fishing boasts. There were still summer visitors around and tourists snapping the scene. They walked through the windy main street of the little town and looked at the shops. Bill's mother said it must be wonderful to live in a place like this.

'When we were young anyone could have afforded a place out here,' Bill's father said. 'But it seemed very far away in those days and the better jobs were nearer the city so we didn't come.'

'Maybe Bill would live somewhere like this one day when he got promotion,' his mother suggested, almost afraid to hope.

Bill tried to see himself living in one of the new flats or the old houses here with Lizzie . What would she do all day as he commuted into Dublin City on the DART? Would she have friends out here as she had everywhere? Would they have children? She had said one boy and one girl, and then curtains. But that was a long time ago. Whenever he brought the subject up nowadays she was much more vague. 'Suppose you got pregnant now,' Bill had suggested one night. 'Then we'd have to advance our plans a bit.'

'Absolutely wrong, Bill sweetheart,' she had said. 'We would have to cancel all our plans.'

And he saw for the first time the hint of hardness behind her smile. But of course he dismissed this notion. Bill knew that Lizzie wasn't hard. Like any woman she feared the dangers and accidents of her own body. It wasn't fair really the way it was organised. Women could never be as relaxed about love-making, knowing it might result in something unexpected like pregnancy.

Olive was not a good walker and his mother wanted to visit the church anyway so Bill and his father walked up to the Vico Road, an elegant curved road that swept the bay which had often been compared to the Bay of Naples. A lot of the roads here had Italian names like Vico and Sorrento, and there were houses called La Scala, Milano, Ancona. People who had travelled had brought back memories of similar seaside views. Also it was full of hills like they said the Italian coastline was.

Bill and his father looked at the gardens and homes and admired them without envy. If Lizzie had been here she would have said it was unfair for some people to have houses like that, with two big cars parked outside. But Bill who worked as a bank clerk, and his father who sliced bacon and wearing plastic gloves inserted it into little transparent bags and weighed them out at so many grams each, were able to see these properties without wanting them for themselves.

The sun shone and they looked far down. The sea was

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shimmering. A few yachts were out. They sat on the wall and Bill's father puffed a pipe.

'Did it all turn out as you wanted when you were young?' Bill said.

'Not all of course, but most of it.' His father puffed away.

'Like what bits?'

'Well, having such a good job and keeping it in spite of everything. That was something I'd never have bet money on if I was a gambling man. And then there was your mother accepting me, and being such a marvellous wife, and making us such a great home. And then there was Olive and you, and that was a great reward to us.'

Bill felt a strange choking sensation. His father lived in an unreal world. All these things were blessings? Things to be delighted with? An educationally subnormal daughter. A wife who could barely fry an egg and this was called making a great home? A job that they would never get anyone of his competence to do, and to do so well…

'Dad, why am I part of the good bits?' Bill asked.

'Come on now, you're just asking for praise.' His father smiled at him as if the lad had been teasing him.

'No, I mean it, why are you pleased with me?'

'Who could ask for a better son? Look at the way you take us all out for a day's trip today with your hard earned money, and you contribute to the house plenty, and you're so good to your sister.'

'Everyone loves Olive.'

'Yes they do, but you are specially good to her. Your mother and I have no fears and worries. We know that in the fullness of time when we've gone to Glasnevin cemetery, you'll look after Olive.'

Bill heard himself speak in a tone he didn't recognise as his own. 'Ah, don't you know Olive will always be looked after. You would never worry about a thing like that, would you?'

'I know there are plenty of homes and institutions, but we know that you'd never send Olive off to a place like that.'

And as they sat in the sun with the sea shimmering below a little breeze came up and blew around them and it went straight into Bill Burke's heart. He realised what he had never faced in his twenty-three years of living. He knew now that Olive was his problem, not just theirs. That his big simple sister was his for life. When he and Lizzie married in two years' time, when he went abroad with

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Lizzie to live, when theif-two children were born, Olwe would be part of their family

His father and mother might live for another twenty years. Olive would only be forty-five then, with the mind of a child. He felt very cold indeed.

'Come on, Dad, Mam will have said three rosaries in the church and they'll be in the pub waiting for us.'

And indeed there they were, Olive's big face shining to see her brother come in.

'That's Bill, the bank manager,' she said.

And everyone in the pub smiled. As they would always smile at Olive when they didn't have to take her on for life.

Bill went up to Mountainview to register for the Italian lesson. He realised with a heavy heart how lucky he had been that his father had saved money to send him to a smaller and better school. In Bill's school there were proper games pitches and the parents had paid a so-called Voluntary Subscription to maintain some of the frills and extras that would never be known in Mountainview.

He looked at the shabby paint and the ugly bicycle shed. Few boys who went to school here would find it easy to get into the bank as he had done. Or was he just being snobbish? Perhaps things had changed. Perhaps he was guiltier than others because he was trying to keep a system going in his mind. It was something he could talk to Grania about. Her father taught here after all.

It was not something he could talk to Lizzie about.

Lizzie had become excited about the lessons. 'I'm telling everyone that we'll be speaking Italian shortly,' she laughed happily. For an instant she reminded him of Olive. The same innocent belief that once you mentioned something that was it, it had happened, and you were somehow in command. But who could compare the beautiful feckless wild-eyed Lizzie to poor Olive, the lumpen slow smiling sister who would be his for evermore?