Richard Powers - Generosity

Stone’s dread come to life. “I can walk home.”

Candace groans. “Russell! I can not believe you just said that.”

“Really. It’s not that far.”

“Don’t be a nitwit.”

Her son howls in pleasure at the slur. Thassa smiles, too. “You do say some funny things sometimes, Mister. Never mind. That’s why we love you.”

They creep back to Candace’s through three lapidary blocks. The furnace is knocked out, but the apartment is still warm. The adults go about transforming the place into a candlelit séance. Candace gets her son in bed, with an extra blanket, although the odds of the boy sleeping anytime soon are what science might call nonexistent. Gabe whispers to her, like he’s praying. “I’m scared, Mom. What’s going to happen?”

She starts to reassure him. The night is not that cold; the power will be back soon.

“Not that! The whole computer shut off before I could save. I could be totally dead!”

She kisses his forehead in the dark. “You’ll grow back.” That’s the beauty of the digital-replacement world. That’s why everyone is moving there.

She comes back out to the living room, where Thassa and Russell are reviewing the article by the light of six votive candles. “You and I can share my bed,” Candace says. Stone flinches, though she’s pointing at Thassa. Candace smiles a little ruefully and adds, “The man gets the sofa.”

Thassa stands and takes the article from Stone’s hands. “Please stop reading, Russell. You’ll hurt your eyes.” She squeezes his shoulder, grabs two candles, and follows Candace down the hallway to the master bedroom, calling good night.

The sound of fumbling in a linen closet, and Candace comes back out, her arms full of flannel. Stone helps her tuck the sheets around the sofa cushions. His ribs clamp around his pounding heart. His chemicals are idiots, unable to tell an empty symbol from a full one, suckered by nothing more meaningful than propinquity.

He drops his voice. “Is it true?” She looks at him, baffled. “The article?”

Candace stands, holding her neck. “I don’t know. It sure sounds impressive.” In the low light of all these candles, she’s a La Tour. “Hang on. I’ll get you some blankets.” She heads back down the hall. Russell tags after her with a candle, pretending to be useful in this, at least.

She pauses before the linen-closet door. Signals race on the air. She feels the molding with one hand, then turns, the back of her pelvis pressing against the wall, bracing it. Her legs are slightly splayed. One hand drops and reads the stucco, while the other holds her auburn hair off her forehead. Russell comes to a stop in front of her. The flame of his votive casts a globe around them. She just studies him, her pupils dilated, her breath coming in surges. Waiting is her art; her medium, the confusion of others.

Wanting her has never been Stone’s problem. She knows him exactly, his hopes and fears, his reach and shortfall, and still she stands there, holding her hair from her eyes, not quite daring him, just studying to see if he, too, might think that it’s possible to double-cross nature, exploit the exploiter once, in this life.

He holds the candle to her cheek, leans forward, and puts his mouth on hers. Lowering a bucket to a well. He watches her close her eyes and thaw. His chemicals teach something that he long ago discounted.

A sigh comes from down the hall, the master bedroom door closes, and they both snap back to the business of blankets. “Here you are,” she says, loading him. An inward smile tightens her lips. He doesn’t know the word for it. Wise. “Call me if you need anything. You have my number, I think. Sleep well.” And she walks down the hall, brisk and rhythmic, letting herself into the closed bedroom, from which emerges a brisk duet of laughter.

He goes about the apartment, putting out candles. For a minute, he’s a surplice-covered twelve-year-old altar boy following the Benediction at St. John’s Episcopal, Aurora. Amazingly, that ancient creature is still paddling around inside him like some coelacanth, protected by the rumor of its own extinction.

The apartment gathers in eerie silence-no compressor, no blower, no hum or ticking of any powered device. He gets in bed fully dressed. He falls asleep to a ridiculous sense of rightness, dopamine run pointlessly amok. And he does sleep, on his sofa-pillow bed, deeper than any reason. But he dreams himself into a Pynchon novel, with an international cartel trading in the arcane incunabula hidden in people’s cells. His own sperm carries a sequence on the Index Librorum Prohibitorum , and he has to chase through several genomically controlled cities, looking for a doctor who will transfuse his gametes.

He wakes early to the second day of spring. All the lights are on. He rises and makes the rounds, turning them all off. The devices all flash 12:00. He looks outside. The spell is broken. Sometime after midnight, the earth warmed ten degrees. The diamond crust has crumbled and liquefied. Neighbors are scraping off their cars and driving away. The disaster is over, before extracting any but the most token sacrifice. A shame.

Stone relieves his long-suffering bladder, splashes tepid water on his face, and bumbles in the kitchen to start the coffee. From the boy’s room comes the click of keys. Voices muzzy with morning hum from down the hall. Steps falter; doors open and close. Communal return to consciousness: the routine that he’s spent his whole life fleeing.

Candace emerges first. She’s immaculate as ever, in tan blouse and creased gray slacks, but her face is somehow different. Pale and ever so slightly featureless. Cosmetic-free . She raises a thin eyebrow at him.

“Party’s over? Back to the salt mines?”

He nods sympathetically and hands her a cup of coffee.

“Bless you. You’re a secular saint.” She sits wrapped around her stimulant, sufficient unto the day.

Before they’re forced into the exigency of talk, Thassa shows. She’s puffy, frazzled, and wobbly. Her eyes are still pinched shut. “Do not look at me. Not a happy sight!”

Her loginess is deeply comforting. She doesn’t spring up full-blown with the sun. Science should test her now, put this bleary, sedated postadolescent into the data set, before she’s had her morning tea.

Gabe comes out, more charged than the three adults combined. “Everything’s fine,” he reassures Stone, chopping the air. “I only lost like a tenth of my Experience.”

They share another meal, American style this time. They sit at the small round table over synchronized cereal. Why do we need to turn the most naked animal dependency aside from breathing into a religious ritual?

Everyone’s already late. The whole city. The roads have mostly melted, and Candace decides to drive. Stone refuses a lift. All three beg him to get in the car, but he holds his ground. He looks at Thassa, heading off to a last week of normalcy before the subtlest biochemical assays ever discovered publicly declare her a freak of nature. Her face apologizes. What else can I do?

It’s Chicago, morning rush hour. Crusts of ice fall from the blowing branches. Stone steps back, out of the range of anyone’s embrace. The riders wave, the car pulls out, and he starts the long slog back home through the disenchanted world.

“Give me your coffee cup,” Thomas Kurton tells Schiff, who’s caught by the second camera. “We can take a swab off that.” It’s a funny, telegenic moment. Director, camera operators, and sound tech share a look with Tonia, and they all wordlessly agree to a wrap.