Jodi Picoult - Between the lines

Delilah’s hands move over this odd book, and letters appear on the window, as if by magic. “That’s amazing!” I cry out. “I must tell Orville about this!”

Delilah doesn’t seem to hear me. “The file won’t open. There’s a password. It’s five letters.”

“E-D-G-A-R,” I suggest.

Delilah types the word and hits another key. There is a high-pitched beep, but nothing changes on the big window in front of her.

“Can you think of anything else?” she asks Edgar. “Did you have a pet?”

“I’m allergic to everything but naked mole rats…”

“How about your dad’s name?” Delilah suggests.

Edgar looks down at the ground. “Isaac.”

I watch Delilah’s hands: I-S-A-A-C. Again, that high-pitched beep. Delilah bangs her fist on the computer table. “I can’t believe we’re this close,” she murmurs. “Is there any other password you can think of, Edgar?”

He throws out suggestions: the street address of the house where his mother was born, the name of his mother’s childhood pet, the title of her first published novel. But nothing works. With each failed attempt, I feel heavier and heavier, as if I am physically becoming part of the material of this book.

After a fruitless half hour, Delilah gets out of the chair and kneels down so that I can see her more clearly. “I’m sorry, Oliver,” she whispers, her voice thick with disappointment. “I tried.” She reaches her hand toward me, a five-fingered eclipse, and I raise my hand to hers. But it’s not like it was when she was inside the pages with me. Between our skin, once again, is the thinnest layer of paper.

Orville once told me that people never really touch. That’s because we’re all just a bunch of very tiny atoms surrounded by electromagnetic force. Even when we hold hands we’re not holding hands. The only things coming into contact are the electrons caught between us.

It didn’t make any sense to me at the time; it was more of Orville’s scientific mumbo jumbo. But now… well, now I completely understand.

“So that’s it?” Edgar interrupts my thoughts. “We just quit?”

“It was probably a stupid idea anyway,” Delilah murmurs.

“But what about him?” Edgar jerks a thumb in my direction. “Everyone deserves a happy ending.” He shakes his head. “I sound just like my mother. She used to say that to me every night before she tucked me in.”

Delilah slowly turns, counting on her fingers. She slips into the chair again, and her hands fly over the letters in front of the computer. “Everyone,” she repeats, and she types the letter E .

“Deserves.” D.

“A Happy Ending.” A-H-E.

And just like that, the window of the computer is filled with hundreds of words-words I have lived a thousand times, every day of my life.

Delilah scrolls down and starts to speak. Before I can even realize what she is doing, Edgar flips through the pages of the book to find the part she is reading aloud.

Tumbling head over heels, I am slammed into the margins. A fairy crashes into me so quickly I cannot recognize her; just when I think I’ve caught a glimpse of her silver hair, all the breath is knocked out of me as Trogg the troll rolls like a cannonball and hits me square in the chest. “Places!” Frump shrieks, and Queen Maureen floats past me, the bell of her gown acting like a sail as we whip through a dozen pages to the final scene.

The sand is hot beneath my boots. Seraphima is wrapped in silk and lace and smug delight, clasping my hand. But for the first time, she’s not looking at me. With a wistful expression, her gaze is following Frump as he waddles across the beach, the wedding ring tied to his collar. Socks waits and whinnies in the distance, with cans tied to his saddle and a big sash that reads JUST MARRIED fluttering out behind his hooves.

Delilah’s voice narrates, as if on a loudspeaker, and like a puppet, I do as I’m told.

“On Everafter Beach, as far as the eye could see, the entire kingdom gathered to witness the wedding of Prince Oliver and Princess Seraphima. Captain Crabbe and his mates had illuminated the beach with torches fueled by laughing gas and ignited with a gentle flame of Pyro’s breath. The mermaids had crafted a long aisle of crushed pink shells; the trolls had built a gazebo of twisted willow fronds, which Orville had decorated with magical flowers that glowed from within, and that sang as the bride approached. The fairies carried Seraphima’s silver train as she gazed up at the man she wanted to be with forever.”

I can feel them bubbling up inside me, the same words I have said so many times before.

“Seraphima,” I speak, my voice an echo of Delilah’s, “everyone deserves a happy ending. Will you be mine?”

Hearing the sentence, I wonder why I didn’t think of it as a password.

“Oh, Oliver,” Seraphima replies. “Do you even have to ask?”

I may be the only one who notices the slight tremor in her voice. Could it be, finally, that she realizes there’s more to us than just the story?

This is the part where she launches herself into my arms and slobbers all over me. I get the sense that perhaps for the first time, neither one of us wants to play the parts we must. I close my eyes and stiffen my spine, bracing myself for what’s to come, but instead, I feel a magnetic pull on my foot, tugging me backward, as if I have absolutely no choice but to take a step away from Seraphima.

“Oliver,” Delilah says aloud as she types, “suddenly wrenches away from his would-be bride.” She glances over her shoulder at me. “How’s that?” she asks.

My mouth fills with the sharp edges of words that poke into my tongue and force me to spit them out. “I can’t marry you,” I say, hearing Delilah speak the same sentence simultaneously. “I’m being sent to start my own story, in a different world, with Delilah Eve McPhee.”

Seraphima blinks at me, her eyes bugging out. She looks hopeful, and scared, and confused, but she knows better than to question the plot when the book is wide open and there’s a Reader involved. I can see, from the corner of my eye, everyone else shifting uncomfortably. After all, this isn’t the fairy tale they know.

There is a tingle in my right hand. At first I think Seraphima has succeeded in cutting off my circulation, but then I realize my flesh is fading, flickering in and out like a flame, until in an instant, it’s gone.

“Your arm!” Seraphima gasps, breaking the rules. Or so I think, until I realize that Delilah has said it too. I glance out of the book and see a disembodied wrist and hand floating in the space between Edgar and Delilah.

“I think it’s working,” Edgar whispers.

I’m feeling light-headed, and finding it hard to breathe. When I look down, there is a quivering in the fabric of my tunic, and suddenly, it begins to unravel and vanish before my eyes.

“Oliver,” Delilah says, “your tunic. It’s weaving itself together in front of us!”

My heart is pounding so hard I am certain that everyone on the beach can hear it, and possibly Delilah and Edgar too. Could this really be working? Could I be this close to being free?

I look at Frump, who stares at me with a mix of betrayal and fear on his furry little face. I can’t speak to him-I haven’t been given the words-but I silently mouth a message. Goodbye, friend. I close my eyes, and hope for the best.

“Edgar?” An unfamiliar voice floats over the beach. “What are you two reading?”