“You think? So she writes My Ex on one. And Never made peace with my sister on another. And Didn’t lose last 20 pounds after having kids, and so on. I’m telling you, Vanessa, she went through three markers alone. And then I got her on the edge of the cliff and had her hurl the bricks, one at a time. I told her that the minute they hit the water, that weight was going to be off her shoulders for good.”
“Sure hope there wasn’t a humpback migration going on below the cliff,” I murmur, tapping my foot impatiently. “Look, I hate to break up the professional development session, but we’re about to miss the early showing-”
Vanessa stands up. “I think it’s a terrific idea, Dara,” she says. “You ought to write it up and submit it to a professional journal.”
My mother’s cheeks pinken. “Honestly?”
I grab my purse and my jacket. “Are you going to let yourself out?” I ask my mother.
“No, no,” she says, getting to her feet. “I’ll just go home.”
“Are you sure you don’t want to come along?” Vanessa asks.
“I’m sure my mother’s got better things to do,” I say quickly, and give her a quick hug. “I’ll call you in the morning,” I say, and I drag Vanessa out of the apartment.
Halfway to the car, Vanessa turns around. “I forgot something,” she says, tossing me the keys. “I’ll be right back.” So I let myself into the convertible and turn the ignition. I am surfing the channels of her radio when she slips into the driver’s seat. “Okay,” Vanessa says, backing out of the driveway. “Who spit in your Cheerios?”
“Well, what were you thinking, inviting my mom to come with us?”
“That she’s all alone on a Saturday night?”
“I’m forty, Vanessa-I don’t want to hang out with my mother!”
“You would if you couldn’t,” Vanessa says.
I look at her. In the dark, the reflection from the rearview mirror casts a yellow mask around her eyes. “If you miss your mother so much, you can have mine,” I say.
“I’m just saying you don’t have to be so mean.”
“Well, you don’t have to enable her, either. Did you seriously think her brick exercise was a good one?”
“Sure. I’d use it myself, except the kids would probably write the names of their teachers on the bricks they’re tossing, and that wouldn’t be very constructive.” She pulls up to a stop sign and turns to me. “You know, Zoe, my mother used to tell me the same story five times. Without fail. I was constantly saying, Ma, yes, I know, and rolling my eyes. And now-I can’t even really remember her voice. I think sometimes I’ve got it, in my head, but then it fades before I can ever really hear it. Sometimes, I put on old videotapes just so I don’t completely forget how she sounds, and I listen to her telling me to get a serving spoon for the potatoes, or singing ‘Happy Birthday.’ Right now, I’d kill to have her tell me a story five times. I’d settle for even once.”
I know, halfway through her story, that I am going to cave in. “Is this what you do with the kids in school?” I sigh. “Make them see themselves for the petty, nasty people they really are?”
“If I think it’s going to work,” she says, smiling.
I turn on my cell phone. “I’ll tell my mother to meet us at the theater.”
“She’s already coming. That’s why I ran back into the house-to invite her.”
“Were you really so sure I’d change my mind?”
“Give me a break.” Vanessa laughs. “I even know what you’re going to order at the concession counter.”
She probably does. Vanessa is like that-if you say or do something once, it sticks in her memory so that she will be able to reference it the next time it’s necessary. Like how I once mentioned I don’t like olives, and then, a month later at a restaurant when we were given a basket of olive bread, she asked for crackers instead before I could even make a comment.
“Just for the record,” I say, “there’s still a lot about me you don’t know.”
“Popcorn, no butter,” Vanessa says. “Sprite.” She purses her lips. “And Goobers, because this is a romantic comedy and those are never quite as good without chocolate.”
She’s right. Down to the candy.
I think, not for the first time, that if Max had been even half as observant and attentive as Vanessa, I’d probably still be married.
When we pull up to the theater, I’m amazed to find a crowd. The movie has been out for a few weeks now-it’s a silly, fizzy romantic comedy. The other movie playing is an independent film called July that’s gotten a lot of press, because a very popular preteen singing sensation is starring in it, and because of the subject matter: instead of being a Romeo and Juliet tragedy… the love story is about Juliet and Juliet.
Vanessa spots my mother on the other side of the throng and waves her over. “Can you believe this?” she says, looking around.
I’ve seen a few articles written about the film and the controversy surrounding it. I begin to wonder if we should go see that movie instead, just based on its popular appeal. But as we get closer to the theater, I realize that the people milling around are not in the ticket line. They’re flanking it, and they’re carrying signs:
GOD HATES FAGS
GAY: GOD ABHORS YOU
ADAM AND EVE, NOT ADAM AND STEVE
They are not militant, crazy people. The protesters are calm and organized, and wearing black suits with skinny ties, or modest floral print dresses. They look like your neighbor, your grandmother, your history teacher. In this, I suppose, they have something in common with the people they are slandering.
Beside me, I feel Vanessa’s spine go rigid. “We can leave,” I murmur. “Let’s just rent a video and watch it at home.”
But before I can pull away, I hear my name being called. “Zoe?”
At first, I don’t recognize Max. The last time I saw him, after all, he was drunk and disheveled, and trying to explain to a judge why we should be granted a divorce. I’d heard that he started going to Reid and Liddy’s church, but I hadn’t quite expected a transformation this… radical.
Max is wearing a fitted dark suit with a charcoal tie. His hair has been trimmed neatly, and he’s clean-shaven. On the lapel of his suit is a pin: a small gold cross.
“Wow,” I say. “You look great, Max.”
We do an awkward dance, where we move toward each other for a kiss on the cheek, but then I pull away, and he pulls away, and we both look down at the ground.
“So do you,” he says.
He is wearing a walking cast. “What happened?” I ask. It seems crazy that I wouldn’t know. That Max would have gotten hurt, and no one relayed the message to me.
“It’s nothing. An accident,” Max says.
I wonder who took care of him, when he was first hurt.
Behind me, I am incredibly conscious of my mother and Vanessa. I can feel their presence like heat thrown from a fireplace. Someone in the front of the line buys a ticket to July, and the protest starts up in earnest, with chanting and yelling and sign waving. “I heard you were part of Eternal Glory, now,” I say.
“Actually, it’s a part of me ,” Max replies. “I let Jesus into my heart.”
He says this with a brilliant white smile, the same way he’d say, I got my car waxed this afternoon or I think I’ll have Chinese food for dinner -as if this is part of normal everyday conversation instead of a statement that might give you pause. I wait for Max to snicker-we used to make fun of Reid and Liddy sometimes for the glory-be snippets that fell out of their mouths-but he doesn’t.
“Have you been drinking again?” I ask, the only explanation I can come up with to reconcile the man I know with the one standing in front of me.
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