Jodi Picoult - Lone Wolf

“But you’re willing to do it now?”

“I’m his son,” Edward says simply. “It’s not a decision anyone wants to make. But it’s not like this hasn’t happened before. I mean, that’s what my father always asked of his family-to give him the freedom to go places we didn’t want him to go.”

“You know your sister feels differently.”

He toys with a sugar packet. “I wish I could believe that my dad is going to open his eyes and wake up and recover, too… but my imagination just isn’t that good.” He stares down at the table. “When I first got here, and people would come into the room to talk to me about my dad’s condition, I always lowered my voice. As if we were going to wake him up because he was asleep. But you know what? I could have yelled at the top of my lungs and he wouldn’t have budged. And now… after eleven days… well. I don’t lower my voice.” The sugar packet slips out of his hands and lands on the floor beside my tote bag. Edward bends to retrieve it, and spies a copy of his father’s book inside. “Homework?” he asks.

I take Lone Wolf out of my bag. “I just started it this morning. Your father is a very interesting man.”

Edward reverently touches the gold lettering on the cover. “May I?” He picks up the book and riffles through the pages. “I was gone when it was published,” he says. “And then one day I was in an English language bookshop, and there it was. I sat down right in the aisle and read the whole thing, six hours straight.” He flips through the middle section, a sheaf of black-and-white photos of Luke Warren with his wolves-as pups, as adults. Feeding, playing, resting.

“See this?” Edward points to a picture that shows Luke in one of the enclosures while a small child sits on the hillside, watching. The child is viewed from the back, head covered with a sweatshirt hood. Cara Warren watches her father teach Kladen and Sikwla how to hunt. “That’s not Cara,” Edward says. “That’s me. My sweatshirt, my skinny ankles, even my book on the grass. It was A Wrinkle in Time, by Madeleine L’Engle-if you go look it up online, you’ll see the same cover.” He traces the caption again with one fingertip. “Years ago, when I first saw that, I wondered if some publishing minion got the citation wrong, or if my dad just gradually edited me out of his life after I left.”

He looks up at me, his eyes suddenly sharp and intense. “In other words,” he tells me, “don’t believe everything you read.”

The inside of the house looks like a snow globe that’s been upended. There are tiny white feathers coating the floor, the couch, and the hair of the woman who opens the door. “Oh,” she says weakly. “Is it already two?”

I had called to speak with Georgie Ng while still at the hospital, asking if now might be a good time to chat with Cara. But from the looks of the tiny twin demons shrieking and sliding through the feathers in their stocking feet, I’m wondering if there’s ever a good time to do anything in this household.

As I step through the entryway, feathers coat my gray skirt like metal filings drawn to a magnet. I wonder how long it will take me to get them off with a lint brush. Georgie is holding the neck of a vacuum cleaner. “I’m so sorry about… this. Kids will be kids, right?”

“I don’t know,” I tell her. “I don’t have any.”

“Wise choice,” Georgie murmurs, grabbing the exploded pillow out of the hand of one of the kids. “What part of stop do you not understand?” she asks. She turns to me again, apologetic. “It might be easier if you go upstairs to talk to Cara,” she suggests. “She’s in the room to the right at the top of the stairs. She knows you’re coming.” Then she disappears around a corner, still holding the vacuum in a death grip, in hot pursuit of her children. “Jackson! Do not put your sister in the clothes dryer!”

Gingerly picking my way through the fluff, I walk upstairs. It is odd to reconcile Georgie Ng with the woman that Luke Warren mentions briefly in his book-a former reporter who fell for him on the job because of his passion for wolves, and realized too late that left no room for a passion for her. I imagine she is happier now, with a more attentive husband and another family. Cara would not be the first child of divorce to shuttle between parents, but the difference in lifestyle between the two must have been drastic.

I knock softly on the door. “Come in,” Cara says.

I admit, I’m curious to meet a girl who has the wherewithal to get the county attorney to listen to her. But Cara looks young, slight, a little nervous. Her right arm is wrapped tight against her body like a broken wing, and between that and her shoulder-length, wavy dark hair and fine features, she calls to mind a bird that’s been pushed from a nest. “Hi,” I say. “I’m Helen, your father’s temporary guardian.” Something flashes over her face when I say that, but it is gone too quickly for me to interpret. “Your mother thought if we talked up here, we might be less…”

“Allergic?” she suggests.

She offers me the seat at the desk, while she sits on the bed. The room is painted a serviceable blue, with a wedding ring quilt on the bed and a single white dresser. It looks like a guest room, but not for a frequent guest. “I’m sure this is very hard for you,” I begin, taking out my notebook. “I’m sorry to have to ask you all these questions right now, but I really need to talk to you about your dad.”

“I know,” she says.

“You two were living together before the accident, is that correct?”

She nods. “For the past four years. At first I was living with my mom, but when she had the twins, it was sometimes hard to feel like I wasn’t a fifth wheel. I mean, I love her and I love Joe and I love having a little brother and sister, but…” Her voice trails off. “My dad says, with the wolves, every day begins and ends with a miracle. Here, every day begins and ends with a cup of coffee, a newspaper, a bath, and a bedtime story. It’s not that I don’t like being here or that I’m not grateful for being here. It’s just… different.”

“So you’re a bit of an adrenaline junkie, like your father?”

“Not really,” Cara admits. “I mean, there were times my dad and I would just rent a movie and have popcorn for dinner, and that was just as good as the times that I got to go to work with him.” She feeds the edge of her quilt through her fingers. “It’s like a telescope. My dad, no matter what he’s doing, zooms right in so he can’t see anything except what’s right there with him at that minute. My mom, she’s always on wide angle.”

“It must have been hard, then, when his focus was on the wolves and not you.”

She is quiet for a moment. “Have you ever been swimming in the summer,” she asks, “when a cloud comes in front of the sun? You know how, for a few seconds, you’re absolutely freezing in the water and you think you’d better get out and dry off? But then all of a sudden the sun’s back out and you’re warm again and when you tell people how much fun you had swimming you wouldn’t even think to mention those clouds.” Cara shrugs. “That’s what it’s like, with my father.”

“How would you describe your relationship with him?”

“He knows me better than anyone else on the planet,” she says immediately.

“When was the last time you saw him?”

“Yesterday morning,” Cara replies. “And my mom promised she’ll take me to the hospital as soon you leave.” She looks up at me. “No offense.”