Rick Moody - The Ice Storm

— Get this message back to base! Back to base! To Base!

— Won’t do any good, Sandy said. I’ve tried everything. His tone was so woeful that Wendy was certain it was true. Disappointment about G. I. Joe with Lifelike Hair weighed heavily on Sandy Williams.

— Mayday! Mayday! Get this message back to base!

Sandy slid the chair back under the desk and stilled the noose, that awful pendulum.

— Okay, bring the prisoner here, he said.

— One more chance.

She couldn’t let it go. Wendy climbed off the bed and carried G. I. Joe toward his executioner.

— Girls are always sticking up for the criminal. But I’m afraid. Sandy said thoughtfully, it’s not gonna do any good. Wendy yanked the dog tag one last time. And behold:

— Major, incoming copter! Joe said.

— Far out!

— It’s just chance, Sandy said. Maybe one time every fifty or so he says that, even though it’s usually a different one. Something about a medic.

He folded his arms.

Together they stood over the prone body of G. I. Joe with Lifelike Hair, now supine on the folded comforter at the foot of Sandy’s bed. Somehow the idea of trying him again, of going back to the well one more time, felt pointless to Wendy. She recognized a moment here in which she saw the machinations of chance in the universe, and she didn’t want to ruin it. Sandy was adorable in this light. He couldn’t wait. He wanted to dispatch Joe, because he had some dignity wrapped up in the notion of inferior goods and dumb culture and stupid America. He was one of those kids who spent hours in front of the television shouting That would never happen. Sandy Williams expected to be cheated. He was ready for it. And it came to pass almost every time, and in this way the world seemed good and true.

When he seized his doll, therefore, he pulled the elastic that connected the dog tag to its interior machinery as though he were going to strangle Joe with it. He seized it as though his certainty about being ripped off was the one thing he knew.

— We’ll attack north at the next pass! Joe said. Wendy noticed again how silent everything was, how silent the house was, now that the storm had settled in to do its worst for a while. Sandy was stunned by Joe’s loquaciousness. Absently he scratched his testicles. He picked Joe up, shook him, held him up to his own ear.

— Let’s hang him anyway.

— Sure, Wendy said.

So they did.

What’s a noose but a slipknot? Joe fit snugly, and Sandy pulled the knot tight, and there he was, dangling. The whole gesture didn’t satisfy, really. And it left Wendy and Sandy alone in the room. She asked if he could turn Joe’s face to the wall and Sandy tried, but the rope was really wound up the wrong way. He kept spinning back around to face them.

And something strange was happening right then. Wendy noticed Sandy was sitting on the bed with his pillow across his lap. Some emotion was overtaking them. She knew what this meant. She knew that Sandy was emerging briefly from under the rock where he lived. Sandy had Wendy alone in his room, in this warm room, in the midst of a swirling winter storm when his brother wanted her, when his brother was looking for her maybe. The whole thing was a gigantic turn-on. Wendy wished she had a helium balloon and could inhale that stuff and whisper in her helium tongue in Sandy’s ear. She wished he had booties on the ends of his pajama legs. She wanted to tickle him with a peacock feather. She wished he was standing naked under the swivel lamp wearing only hockey skates.

— Why’ve you been avoiding me? she said. Sandy actually smiled.

— Not avoiding, he said. Then scowling again. She slid up on the bed, and one by one with exaggerated slowness, she removed her snow boots, like they were stiletto heels. Fuck-me pumps. She knew what was under the pillow, she knew, like a little pinkie, like the stump of an amputated digit, Sandy’s miniature, little penis. She slid up the bed beside him. She told him she wanted to be in his bed, between his sheets.

Sandy actually began to shake.

— We have to go to the guest room, he said. We can’t stay in here. What if Mike…? We should go in there and close the door. We can’t stay here. My parents—

— Don’t worry about them. They’re at that party. They’re getting drunk. Falling all over each other and making jokes about McGovern and stuff.

He looked like he was going to cry. Then he did. Wendy didn’t feel exasperated, but she didn’t feel sympathetic either. His tears were just embarrassing. He wasn’t proud of them either. He tried to disguise their tracks; he was going to claim it was because he was tired, or because he had some special eye disorder, or because of his very strong glasses that even now he wore with a clip-on attachment. He didn’t even know what the problem was. She asked him and he didn’t know.

— It’s just, it’s just—

So Wendy took little Sandy Williams by the hand — his hands trembled and hers did, too — and led him around the corner into the guest room. She left the door just barely ajar, so that it would seem neither open nor closed on purpose, and together they settled themselves, as if they were going to be a photo portrait of young love, on the plaid comforter in the guest room.

— A drink? Wendy said.

Because the vodka was still there. It was right there on the table. Sandy was shocked by the request.

— You’ve never tasted this stuff? It’s not like smoking pot, that’s for sure. It’s not as cool. But it’ll do the trick, Charles.

A single glass remained from the afternoon. As she filled it, Wendy took a sort of pride in her work. She remembered the thrill of her own initiation, in which her brother had played an important part. The best thing about initiation was how it was sort of like destitution. It was destitution with trust. Sandy looked frail and willing and strong and old and vulnerable all at once. His glasses slid down his nose, on a glistening sheen, and stopped at the little bulb at the end of it. The vodka filled the bottom of the glass like liquid winter.

She held up the glass and Sandy held up the bottle and they clanked them together as they had seen adults do.

She tossed it back in one painful swallow. Sandy tried a tiny, little sip from the bottle, and when it had touched his palate he gagged. He coughed once and choked down the rest of the swallow. Wendy told him to try again. He wanted to do as well as Mikey, he was bound to move up in this matter of growing up, so Sandy filled the glass and threw back a whole shot. Drinking his first drink, Wendy thought, involved Sandy in a thousand trying decisions. All these components. But he got it down, and she figured he would get better at it. She had gotten better at it, on holidays when her parents let her, and on school days back behind Saxe with the delinquents, the junior high and freshmen delinquents, the adopted kids, the half-dozen working-class kids, the half-dozen blacks. And then there was the occasional afternoon when she just plain stole booze from her parents. Sure, there was always the worry that they were marking the levels of the bottles with felt-tip laundry pens, but she drank when she had to drink, Sandy set her palm on the center of his chest;

— It feels warm.

— Your folks don’t let you have any?

— Maybe a couple of times. She knew they let Mikey taste.

— One more shot? she said.

She could feel the ease of it in her now; she could feel that the menace of the weather was a good thing, that the woman from Please Don’t Eat the Daisies was doing fine. Any week now the woman would probably have a spot on Love, American Style. Wendy wasn’t afraid of Sandy’s naked body.

— Okay, he said.