Stanley Elkin - Criers & Kibitzers, Kibitzers & Criers

“—of magic,” he said, “what occidentals call ‘a witch doctor.’ There are spices that induce these effects. The Bogdovii was actually able to stimulate the growth of rocks with the powder. The Dutch traders were ready to go to war for the formula. Well, you can see what it could mean for the Low Countries. Without accessible quarries they’ve never been able to construct a permanent system of dikes. But with the Bogdovii’s powder “—he reached out and casually caught the speeding chip as if it had been a ping-pong ball—“they could turn a grain of sand into a pebble, use the pebbles to grow stones, the stones to grow rocks. This little piece of gravel, for example, could be changed into a mountain.” He dipped his thumb into his palm as I had and balanced the gravel on his nail. He flicked it; it rose from his nail like a missile and climbed an impossible arc. It disappeared. “The Bogdovii never revealed how it was done.”

I stood up. Eugene tried to follow me.

“Listen,” he said, “you’ll get him.”

“Swallow,” I told him. “Swallow, you pig!”

I have lived my life in pursuit of the vulnerable: Push the chink seeker, wheeler dealer in the flawed cement of the personality, a collapse maker. But what isn’t vulnerable, who isn’t? There is that which is unspeakable, so I speak it, that which is unthinkable, which I think. Me and the devil, we do God’s dirty work, after all.

I went home after I left him. I turned once at the gate, and the boys were around him still. The useless Eugene had moved closer. He made room for him against the fence.

I ran into Frank the fat boy. He made a move to cross the street, but I had seen him and he went through a clumsy retractive motion. I could tell he thought I would get him for that, but I moved by, indifferent to a grossness in which I had once delighted. As I passed he seemed puzzled, a little hurt, a little — this was astonishing — guilty. Sure guilty. Why not guilty? The forgiven tire of their exemption. Nothing could ever be forgiven, and I forgave nothing. I held them to the mark. Who else cared about the fatties, about the dummies and slobs and clowns, about the gimps and squares and oafs and fools, the kids with a mouthful of mush, all those shut-ins of the mind and heart, all those losers? Frank the fat boy knew, and passed me shyly. His wide, fat body, stiffened, forced jokishly martial when he saw me, had already become flaccid as he moved by, had already made one more forgiven surrender. Who cared?

The streets were full of failure. Let them. Let them be. There was a paragon, a paragon loose. What could he be doing here, why had he come, what did he want? It was impossible that this hero from India and everywhere had made his home here; that he lived, as Frank the fat boy did, as Eugene did, as I did, in an apartment; that he shared our lives.

In the afternoon I looked for Eugene. He was in the park, in a tree. There was a book in his lap. He leaned against the thick trunk.

“Eugene,” I called up to him.

“Push, they’re closed. It’s Sunday, Push. The stores are closed. I looked for the canteen. The stores are closed.”

“Where is he?”

“Who, Push? What do you want, Push?”

“ Him . Your pal. The prince. Where? Tell me, Eugene, or I’ll shake you out of that tree. I’ll burn you down. I swear it. Where is he?”

“No, Push. I was wrong about that guy. He’s nice. He’s really nice. Push, he told me about a doctor who could help me. Leave him alone, Push.”

“Where, Eugene? Where? I count to three.”

Eugene shrugged and came down the tree.

I found the name Eugene gave me — funny, foreign — over the bell in the outer hall. The buzzer sounded and I pushed open the door. I stood inside and looked up the carpeted stairs, the angled banisters.

“What is it?” She sounded old, worried.

“The new kid,” I called, “the new kid.”

“It’s for you,” I heard her say.

“Yes?” His voice, the one I couldn’t mimic. I mounted the first stair. I leaned back against the wall and looked up through the high, boxy banister poles. It was like standing inside a pipe organ.

“Yes?”

From where I stood at the bottom of the stairs I could see only a boot. He was wearing boots.

“Yes? What is it, please?”

“ You ,” I roared. “Glass of fashion, mold of form, it’s me! It’s Push the bully!”

I heard his soft, rapid footsteps coming down the stairs — a springy, spongy urgency. He jingled, the bastard. He had coins — I could see them: rough, golden, imperfectly round; raised, massively gowned goddesses, their heads fingered smooth, their arms gone — and keys to strange boxes, thick doors. I saw his boots. I backed away.

“I brought you down,” I said.

“Be quiet, please. There’s a woman who’s ill. A boy who must study. There’s a man with bad bones. An old man needs sleep.”

“He’ll get it,” I said.

“We’ll go outside,” he said.

“No. Do you live here? What do you do? Will you be in our school? Were you telling the truth?”

“Shh. Please. You’re very excited.”

“Tell me your name,” I said. It could be my campaign, I thought. His name . Scratched in new sidewalk, chalked onto walls, written on papers dropped in the street. To leave it behind like so many clues, to give him a fame, to take it away, to slash and cross out, to erase and to smear — my kid’s witchcraft. “Tell me your name.”

“It’s John,” he said softly.

“What?”

“It’s John.”

“John what? Come on now. I’m Push the bully.”

“John Williams,” he said.

“John Williams? John Williams? Only that? Only John Williams?”

He smiled.

“Who’s that on the bell? The name on the box?”

“She needs me,” he said.

“Cut it out.”

“I help her,” he said.

“You stop that.”

“There’s a man that’s in pain. A woman who’s old. A husband that’s worried. A wife that despairs.”

“You’re the bully,” I said. “Your John Williams is a service animal,” I yelled in the hall.

He turned and began to climb the stairs. His calves bloomed in their leather sheathing.

“ Lover, ” I whispered to him.

He turned to me at the landing. He shook his head sadly.

“We’ll see,” I said.

“We’ll see what we’ll see,” he said.

That night I painted his name on the side of the gymnasium in enormous letters. In the morning it was still there, but it wasn’t what I meant. There was nothing incantatory in the huge letters, no scream, no curse. I had never traveled with a gang, there had been no togetherness in my tearing, but this thing on the wall seemed the act of vandals, the low production of ruffians. When you looked at it you were surprised they had gotten the spelling right.

Astonishingly, it was allowed to remain. And each day there was something more celebrational in the giant name, something of increased hospitality, lavish welcome. John Williams might have been a football hero, or someone back from the kidnapers. Finally I had to take it off myself.

Something had changed.

Eugene was not wearing his canteen. Boys didn’t break off their conversations when I came up to them. One afternoon a girl winked at me. (Push has never picked on girls. Their submissiveness is part of their nature. They are ornamental. Don’t get me wrong, please. There is a way in which they function as part of the landscape, like flowers at a funeral. They have a strange cheerfulness. They are the organizers of pep rallies and dances. They put out the Year Book. They are born Gray Ladies. I can’t bully them.)