Stanley Elkin - Criers & Kibitzers, Kibitzers & Criers

Wednesday he said, “I heard you buy books. That must be interesting. And sad. It must be very sad. A man who loves books doesn’t like to sell them. It would be the last thing. Excuse me. I’ve got no right to talk to you this way. You buy books and I’ve got books to sell. There. It’s business now. As it should be. My library—” He smiled helplessly. “Excuse me. Such a grand name. Library.” He began again slowly. “My books, my books are in there. Look them over. I’m afraid my taste has been rather eclectic. You see, my education has not been formal. There are over eleven hundred. Of course, many are paperbacks. Well, you can see that. I feel as if I’m selling my mind.”

The book buyer gave Ed Wolfe one hundred twenty dollars for his mind.

On Thursday he wrote a letter:

American Annuity & Life Insurance Company,

Suite 410,

Lipton-Hill Building,

2007 Beverly Street, S.W.,

Boston 19, Massachusetts

Dear Sirs,

I am writing in regard to Policy Number 593-000-34-78, a $5,000, twenty-year annuity held by Edward Wolfe of the address below.

Although only four payments have been made, and sixteen years remain before the policy matures, I find I must make application for the immediate return of my payments and cancel the policy.

I have read the “In event of cancellation” clause in my policy, and realize that I am entitled to only a flat three percent interest on the “total paid-in amount of the partial amortizement.” Your records will show that I have made four payments of $198.45 each. If your figures check with mine this would come to $793.80. Adding three percent interest to this amount ($23.81.), your company owes me $817.61.

Your prompt attention to my request would be gratefully appreciated, although I feel, frankly, as though I were selling my future.

On Monday someone came to buy his record collection. “What do you want to hear? I’ll put something comfortable on while we talk. What do you like? Here, try this. Go ahead, put it on the machine. By the edges, man. By the edges! I feel as if I’m selling my throat. Never mind about that. Dig the sounds. Orphans up from Orleans singing the news of chain gangs to cafe society. You can smell the freight trains, man. Recorded during actual performance. You can hear the ice cubes clinkin’ in the glasses, the waiters picking up their tips. I have jazz. Folk. Classical. Broadway. Spoken word. Spoken word, man! I feel as though I’m selling my ears. The stuff lives in my heart or I wouldn’t sell. I have a one-price throat, one-price ears. Sixty dollars for the noise the world makes, man. But remember, I’ll be watching. By the edges. Only by the edges !”

On Friday he went to a pawnshop in a Checker cab.

“ You? You buy gold? You buy clothes? You buy Hawaiian guitars? You buy pistols for resale to suicides? I wouldn’t have recognized you. Where’s the skullcap, the garters around the sleeves? The cigar I wouldn’t ask you about. You look like anybody. You look like everybody. I don’t know what to say. I’m stuck. I don’t know how to deal with you. I was going to tell you something sordid, you know? You know what I mean? Okay, I’ll give you facts.

“The fact is, I’m the average man. That’s what the fact is. Eleven shirts, 15 neck, 34 sleeve. Six slacks, 32 waist. Five suits at 38 long. Shoes 10-C. A 7½ hat. You know something? Those marginal restaurants where you can never remember whether they’ll let you in without a jacket? Well, the jackets they lend you in those places always fit me. That’s the kind of guy you’re dealing with. You can have confidence. Look at the clothes. Feel the material. And there’s one thing about me. I’m fastidious. Fastidious. Immaculate. You think I’d be clumsy. A fall guy falls down, right? There’s not a mark on the clothes. Inside? Inside it’s another story. I don’t speak of inside. Inside it’s all Band-Aids, plaster, iodine, sticky stuff for burns. But outside — fastidiousness, immaculation, reality! My clothes will fly off your racks. I promise. I feel as if I’m selling my skin. Does that check with your figures?

“So now you know. It’s me, Ed Wolfe. Ed Wolfe, the orphan? I lived in the orphanage for sixteen years. They gave me a name. It was a Jewish orphanage, so they gave me a Jewish name. Almost. That is, they couldn’t know for sure themselves, so they kept it deliberately vague. I’m a foundling. A lostling. Who needs it, right? Who the hell needs it? I’m at loose ends, pawnbroker. I’m at loose ends out of looser beginnings. I need the money to stay alive. All you can give me.

“Here’s a good watch. Here’s a bad one. For good times and bad. That’s life, right? You can sell them as a package deal. Here are radios. You like Art Linkletter? A phonograph. Automatic. Three speeds. Two speakers. One thing and another thing, see? And a pressure cooker. It’s valueless to me, frankly. No pressure. I can live only on cold meals. Spartan. Spartan.

“I feel as if I’m selling — this is the last of it, I have no more things — I feel as if I’m selling my things.”

On Saturday he called the phone company: “Operator? Let me speak to your supervisor, please.

“Supervisor? Supervisor, I am Ed Wolfe, your subscriber at TErrace 7-3572. There is nothing wrong with the service. The service has been excellent. No one calls, but you have nothing to do with that. However, I must cancel. I find that I no longer have any need of a telephone. Please connect me with the business office.

“Business office? Business office, this is Ed Wolfe. My telephone number is TErrace 7-3572. I am closing my account with you. When the service was first installed I had to surrender a twenty-five-dollar deposit to your company. It was understood that the deposit was to be refunded when our connection with each other had been terminated. Disconnect me. Deduct what I owe on my current account from my deposit and refund the rest immediately. Business office, I feel as if I’m selling my mouth.”

When he had nothing left to sell, when that was finally that, he stayed until he had finished all the food and then moved from his old apartment into a small, thinly furnished room. He took with him a single carton of clothing — the suit, the few shirts, the socks, the pajamas, the underwear and overcoat he did not sell. It was in preparing this carton that he discovered the hangers. There were hundreds of them. His own, previous tenants’. Hundreds. In each closet, on rods, in dark, dark corners, was this anonymous residue of all their lives. He unpacked his carton and put the hangers inside. They made a weight. He took them to the pawnshop and demanded a dollar for them. They were worth more, he argued. In an A&P he got another carton for nothing and went back to repack his clothes.

At the new place the landlord gave him his key.

“You got anything else?” the landlord asked. “I could give you a hand.”

“No,” he said. “Nothing.”

Following the landlord up the deep stairs he was conscious of the $2,479.03 he had packed into the pockets of the suit and shirts and pajamas and overcoat inside the carton. It was like carrying a community of economically viable dolls.

When the landlord left him he opened the carton and gathered all his money together. In fading light he reviewed the figures he had entered in the pages of an old spiral notebook:

So, he thought, that was what he was worth. That was the going rate for orphans in a wicked world. Something under $2,500. He took his pencil and crossed out all the nouns on his list. He tore the list carefully from top to bottom and crumpled the half which inventoried his ex-possessions. Then he crumpled the other half.