‘So you’re Karl Ove, are you?’ he said.
I nodded and shook his hand.
‘Roland Boström,’ he said. ‘Linda’s father.’
‘I’ve heard a lot about you,’ I said. ‘Come in!’
Behind me stood Linda with Vanja in her arms.
‘Hi, dad,’ she said. ‘This is Vanja.’
He stood quite still and looked at Vanja, who looked back, equally still.
‘Oohh,’ he said. His eyes glistened.
‘Let me take your coat,’ I said. ‘Then we can go in and have a cup of coffee.’
His face was open, but his movements were stiff, almost mechanical.
‘Did you do the painting?’ he said as we entered the living room.
‘Yes,’ I said.
He went to the nearest wall and stared at it.
‘Did you do the painting, Karl Ove?’
‘Yes.’
‘You made a grand job of it! You have to be very precise when you paint, and you have been. I’m painting my flat now, you see. Turquoise in the bedroom and creamy white in the sitting room. But I haven’t got any further than the bedroom, the back wall.’
‘That’s good,’ Linda said. ‘I’m sure it’ll be lovely.’
‘Yes, it will be, that’s for certain.’
Something I had never seen before had come over Linda. She adapted to him, she was subordinate to him somehow, she was his child, she gave him attention and her company while also being above him in the sense that she was constantly trying to hide — although never quite succeeding — her shame. He sat down on the sofa, I poured the coffee, went to the kitchen for the cinnamon snails we had bought that morning and returned with a dish. He ate in silence. Linda sat beside him with Vanja on her lap. She showed him her child. I had never imagined it would mean so much to her.
‘Nice buns,’ he said. ‘And the coffee was good too. Did you make it, Karl Ove?’
‘Yes.’
‘Have you got a coffee machine?’
‘Yes.’
‘That’s good,’ he said.
Pause.
‘I wish you all the best,’ he went on to say. ‘Linda’s my only daughter. I’m happy and grateful that I can come and visit you.’
‘Do you feel like seeing some photos, dad?’ Linda asked. ‘Of Vanja when she was born?’
He nodded.
‘Take Vanja for a bit, will you,’ she said to me. The hot little bundle was placed into my arms, her eyes rolled on the brink of sleep while Linda got up and went to the shelves for the photo album.
‘Mhm,’ he said to every picture he was shown.
When they had been through the whole album he stretched out a hand for his cup of coffee on the table, raised it to his mouth in one slow, careful, well-considered movement and drank two big gulps.
‘I’ve been to Norway only once, Karl Ove,’ he said. ‘To Narvik. I was in goal for some football club, and we went there to play a Norwegian team.’
‘Oh yes!’ I said.
‘Yes,’ he said, nodding.
‘Karl Ove has also played football,’ Linda said.
‘Long time ago now,’ I said. ‘And at a very modest level.’
‘Were you in goal?’
‘No.’
‘Right.’
Pause.
He took another swig of coffee in the same, somehow scrupulously planned, way.
‘Well, this has been nice,’ he said when the cup was back on his coaster. ‘But now I’d better think about getting home.’
He stood up.
‘But you’ve only just come!’ Linda said.
‘It was perfect,’ he said. ‘I’d like to invite you to a meal. It’s my turn. Is Tuesday convenient?’
I met Linda’s eyes. It was her decision.
‘It is,’ she said.
‘Then that’s a deal,’ he said. ‘Five o’clock on Tuesday.’
On the way to the hall he peered through the open bedroom door and stopped.
‘Did you do the painting here as well?’
‘Yes,’ I said.
‘May I see?’
‘Of course,’ I said.
We followed him in. He stood in front of the wall and looked up behind the enormous wood burner.
‘It wasn’t easy to paint there, I can see,’ he said. ‘But it looks good!’
Vanja made a little noise. She was lying on my arm so I couldn’t see her face, and I laid her down on the bed. She smiled. Roland sat on the edge of the bed and put his hand around her foot.
‘Don’t you want to hold her?’ Linda asked. ‘You can if you want.’
‘No,’ he said. ‘I’ve seen her now.’
Then he got up, went into the hallway and put on his coat. As he was about to leave he hugged me. His stubble rubbed against my cheek.
‘Nice to meet you, Karl Ove,’ he said. He hugged Linda, grabbed Vanja’s foot again and set off down the stairs in his long coat.
Linda avoided my gaze as she passed Vanja to me and went into the living room to clear the table. I followed.
‘What do you think of him?’ she asked airily on her way.
‘He’s a nice man,’ I said. ‘But he has absolutely no filter against the world. I don’t think I’ve ever seen anyone who radiates such immense vulnerability.’
‘He’s like a child, isn’t he.’
‘Yes, he is. There’s no doubt about that.’
She walked past me with three coffee cups on top of each other in one hand, the cake basket in the other.
‘That’s quite some grandfather Vanja has got,’ I said.
‘Yes, what is it going to be like?’ she asked. There was no irony in her voice; the question came straight from the darkness of her heart.
‘It’ll be fine of course,’ I said.
‘But I don’t want him in our life,’ she said, putting the cups in the dishwasher.
‘If it’s like this I’m sure it’ll be fine,’ I said. ‘No harm in him dropping by for coffee once in a while. And then the odd meal at his place. He is her grandfather after all.’
Linda closed the dishwasher door, took a transparent plastic bag from the bottom drawer of a cabinet and put the three remaining cakes in it, tied a knot and went past me to put it in the hall freezer.
‘But he won’t be happy with that, I know. Now he’s made contact he’ll start ringing. And he only does that when he’s in a mess. There are no limits for him. You have to understand that.’
She went into the living room for the last plates.
‘We can try at any rate,’ I said following her. ‘And see what happens?’
‘OK,’ she said.
At that moment there was a ring at the door.
What could that be? The crazy neighbour again?
But it was Roland. His eyes were frantic.
‘I can’t get out,’ he said. ‘I can’t find the buzzer for the lock. I’ve searched and searched. But it isn’t there. Can you help me?’
‘Of course I can,’ I said. ‘I’ll just pass Vanja over to Linda.’
After doing that I put on my shoes and followed him down to the front hall, showed him where the buzzer was, on the wall to the right of the first door.
‘I’ll make a note of that,’ he said. ‘For next time. On the right of the first door.’
Three days later we had a meal in his flat. He showed us the wall he had painted, and glowed with satisfaction when I praised his handiwork. He hadn’t started cooking yet, and Vanja was asleep in the buggy in the hall, so Linda and I sat alone in the sitting room chatting while he was busy in the kitchen. On the wall were childhood pictures of Linda and her brother, and beside them newspaper articles and cuttings of interviews they had given when they made their debuts. Her brother had also had a book published, in 1996, but, like Linda, he hadn’t produced anything since.
He’s so proud of you,’ I said to Linda.
She looked down at the table.
‘Shall we go out onto the balcony?’ she suggested. ‘So that you can have a smoke?’
There wasn’t a balcony but a roof terrace, from which, between two other roofs, you could see over Östermalm. A roof terrace right by Stureplan; how many millions must the flat be worth? True, it was dark and smoke-infested, but that was easy enough to sort out.
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