Richard Powers - Gold Bug Variations

Did he have looks enough to justify that gangbuster, self-conducting solo-humming? Oh, he's beautiful. Undeniably, breath-takingly, in all prosaic senses, the classic regularity of features. He claimed to be a little short, a little overweight, a little caulky. He was none of these when I last saw him, and he knew it. He hid behind a face that shone like no other.

The vertical files now contain us: clippings, grainy pictures of all four faces. They show me as a woman somewhat startled. Only the initiated would call me attractive. The Wire photo of Frank shows a young man whose face is a prism. Bent from its white light is the spectrum of every autumn day that ever hurt him. For standard beauty, he had a decided head start. And yet, all of us would grow infinitely more attractive. Even I would shoot open, turn heads like the rarest hothouse flower. Events conspired to make us all, for a moment, beautiful. His parting question, insouciant and impertinent, seemed to create the very pull it asked about. Somewhere I heard rules breaking, water trickling through limestone. Here was a man possessed of boundary-free confidence, asking not if I was beautiful but if I was ready to become it.

He's right: beauty does correspond to a profound secret. But there's a catch. Not the emblem of inner power, but its by-product: the last, faint track of a slowly unfolding generative order, numb-ingly miraculous, even in end results — mouth, eyes, hair. The epi-phenomenon of desperate cells, every face forms the record of shattering, species-wide experiment. The perfect face, the one we ache inside to stand near, is just the median case. The Artist's composite criminal, one that destroys us to leave. And we always leave, once we learn its creases.

He left me that day with two unknowns for the price of one: I didn't even get his name. But he left a trace, another scrap of nub script discovered that evening before I left. When I went to update the quote of the day, making my perfunctory, usually pointless search of the submissions, I found a piece of drawing paper torn from the same notebook:

Natura nihil agit frustra (Nature makes no grotesques)

Signed Sir Thomas Browne, although he misspelled the name. I used the quote, paying the price. Few selections have produced such public bafflement. But I'd choose confusion even now, over the usual indifference of days.

The Question Board

Mother always insisted I got what I had coming. From birth, I was addicted to questions. When the delivering nurse slapped my rump, instead of howling, I blinked inquisitively. As a child I pushed the why" cycle to break point. At six, I demanded to know why people cried. Mother launched into the authorized version of the uses of sorrow. At the end of her extended explanation, it came out that I really wanted the hydromechanics of tear ducts. By her account, I worsened with each year's new vocabulary. She finally took refuge in a multivolume children's encyclopedia, parking me by it whenever I began to get asky. I can still see the color plates: Archers at Agincourt; Instruments of the Orchestra; two-page rainbow Evolutionary Tree. But her scheme backfired. I could now ask about things that hadn't even existed before. Whys multiplied, poking into the places color plates opened but failed to enter.

So it righted a cosmic imbalance in her eyes that I ended up answering others' questions for a living. She hoped to see me sit behind the Reference Desk until I'd answered as many unanswerables as I had plagued her with all those years. To hasten that payoff, I invented a way to address interrogatives around the clock. The Question Board, with Quotes and Events, completes the trinity I used to break up the routine of human contact. Librarian is a service occupation, gas station attendant of the mind. In an earlier age, I might have made things. Now I only make things available. Another blit in the bulge of the late-capitalist job curve. Service accounts for two thirds of the GNP, with the figure expected to rise well into next century. By the millennium, half of all service professionals will specialize in processing data. My Question Board, then, is both living fossil and meta-mammal.

A portion of board duty is always custodial: disposing of "Why can't Jigs talk English?" and "How 'bout the phone number of the girl who does that shower commercial?" Eight of ten remaining requests are fish in barrels, solutions floating off the pages of major almanacs or last week's periodicals. One in ten demand tougher track-downs, sometimes lasting days before breaking. The final 10 percent, not always demanding, aren't technically answerable. Formally undecidable, to bastardize math jargon: heartbreaking, ludicrous insights into the inquiring spirit, requiring special delicacy. "Q: Is there any meaning to it all?" "A: According to Facts on File…"

Over years I've squirreled away a mass of three-by-five Q-and-A's, perpetually preparing for nebulous further reference. Backtracing, I dig up the cards displayed on the day I met Franklin. If, as all facts at my fingertips insist, I truly live at the crucial moment of this experiment, if creation itself is now at stake, it's tough to tweeze from the whole cloth the significant, saving thread.

Q: I need (desperately) to know the source of the line: "How do you get moonlight into a chamber?" Please find this. My life's at stake.

A.H., 6/20/83

A: Quince: Well, it shall be so. But there is two hard things: that is, to bring the moonlight into a chamber; for you know, Pyramus and Thisby meet by moonlight.

Snout: Doth the moon shine that night we play our play?

Bottom: A calendar, a calendar! Look in the almanac. Find out moonshine, find out moonshine.

Quince: Yes, it doth shine that night.

Bottom: Why, then may you leave a casement of the great chamber window, where we play, open, and the moon may shine in at the casement.

Quince: Ay. Or else one must come in with a bush of thorns and a lantern, and say he comes to disfigure, or to present, the person of Moonshine.

Midsummer Night's Dream, III, i. If we can save your life again, by all means let us know.

J. O'D., 6/23/83

Q: Got an anagram for "ranted"? "Roast mules"?

R.S., 6/04/83

A: This one took time. Unfortunately, anagrams can't be solved by dipping into Reader's Guide. The first is trivial: "ardent." The second took our concerted staff two weeks, although the answer is so simple any child can do it: "somersault," We hope you appreciate the tax dollars that went into these. If your efforts produce any cash prize, we trust you'll split it with your favorite library.

J. O'D., 6/23/83

Q: Where can I go live where the people are really well off, money-wise? I don't care what type of government, because I don't vote anyway.

K.G., 6/22/83

A: For sheer income there's always Nauru, a Pacific island whose eight thousand inhabitants are far wealthier per capita than the U.S. population. They make their money on one product, phosphates, which run the industries of Australia, New Zealand, and Japan. The Nauruans extract the chemicals from huge deposit of seafowl guano laid down over thousands of years. Such affluence has a price. The island is itself largely a giant guano deposit, and the more than two million tons of phosphates exported each year eat it away rapidly. While everyone on Nauru drives expensive cars, there are fewer miles of road to drive on every year. You might as well stay home and vote.

J. O'D, 6/23/83

Q: Has a woman ever given birth to the child of a goat? What was this creature called?

B.R.G., 6/23/83

A: No. But such an offspring would be a satyr — Greek mythological hybrids, man above the waist, goat below.

J. O'D, 6/23/83

This last one attracted special attention. I've marked the card for admittance into my circumspect list of all-time classics. During my Question Board tenure, I've been asked everything at least once. Which is worse, cancer or heart attack? If Chicago time gives more hours than New York time, why don't we go on it too? I'm doing a family tree of Jesus and need to know Mary's last name; was it also Christ? Three weeks in the reference section of the local public would convince even Saint Paul that caritas is, if anything, beside the point. Love doesn't even scratch the surface of what the species needs. Goat-people arise more frequently than anyone except reference librarians knows. I long ago stopped being astonished at the number of people unable to distinguish between whim and brick wall, who choose their newspapers on whether they are readable on the subway.