William Vollmann - The Royal Family

At this, the tall man, smiling grimly, clapped his palms echoingly together so that the whole world almost collapsed like a beer can ground under someone’s heel, and he said to the blonde: Yeah, bitch, don’t get smart with my bitch. You heard what she said.

Well, lordy lordy day, as Maj would say. Ain’t he in a grand mood? Did your bitch let you cornhole her today, or is that just for fifty-dollar Japanese johns? Is that why she’s so uppity? They call her Strawberry because of her big red ugly nose…

The tall man punched her straight in the face. To Domino it was as if she were sitting on a stool in the Wonderbar and then suddenly came the earsplitting slam of dice on the counter as a cheater shouted: I’m clean, I’m clean! I just paid you! Only the shock of it assaulted her at first. There was no pain yet. But she went down and stayed down for a long time. Then the pain arrived — she knew that part so well because pain was and always would be her offering to the Canaanite idols — and then the shame, rage and sick sadness of the assault began to settle weirdly down upon her shoulders like a crowd of fruit bats coming home, and she felt more alone than she had ever felt since she’d joined her Queen. That night at the Lola Hotel when the Queen had georgia’d her — that was what it had been; rape is rape no matter how many orgasms the rapist chokes down your throat — had commenced the withering of her affection for the Queen; and yet she still loved Maj more than anyone else and had trusted her by trusting the tall man and her other sisters, even Chocolate, from whom she had expected the first backstab to originate. And now with this one punch the tall man had forced her to don once again the scarlet mantle of the outcast. Now she must make her own way over the hard flat plain of grief, across which irrelevant caravans pass into winter. She felt appalled.

Slowly, warily, she rose to her feet, breathing heavily, with blood trickling from her mouth. She spat a bloody tooth into her hand.

I s’pose you’ll go to Maj with this, the tall man sneered. Go ahead, bitch. Do your worst. I know I broke the rules.

Domino laughed in his face. — There are no rules now.

Don’t bet on that. There’s rules about snitches, know what I’m sayin’? Strawberry, step back from this dangerous bitch. We gonna make her fade now. This be our room.

Domino stood fixedly. Her face of course was expressionless, but they could both see the throat working. Domino had always been very pale anyhow. In those last months of the Queen’s reign she seemed worse. Strawberry suddenly found herself imagining that the blonde had kept her aborted baby and was suckling it. For some reason she wanted to gaze upon Domino’s snowy chest. The blonde’s pallid face had gone paler still with hatred, then paler yet again in contrast with her greying hair, and her eyes gleamed so that she seemed almost like a vampire. Her pale face became paler still against her hair. Strawberry’s heart pounded with fear.

The blonde walked downstairs, passed through the heavy grating that stood between her and the night, and posted herself at Eighteenth and Capp, wiggling her hips at the slow-eyed cars, grinning crookedly into the glare of headlights, her face covered with blood. All night her teeth rattled like glass ampoules rolled together in a drug pusher’s palm.

I’m sorry for my part in our misunderstanding, Strawberry said when Domino was emerging from a strange man’s bedroom. — I hope that you are for yours… — for of course it had all been Domino’s fault.

Not really, said Domino with a dry laugh.

Well, I like you and respect you and want to get on with you, but if it’s not going to work out then maybe I should steer clear, no hard feelings…

Well, I’m a muller. I’ll have to mull it over, said Domino, walking away.

That bitch is scandalous, said Strawberry. I hate that bitch.

Why, what she done to you now?

What hasn’t she done?

You make it sound like it goes way back, Chocolate replied cautiously. Like a citizen of a totalitarian country, she knew better than to launch any criticisms, however supposedly secret, of those who had the power to hurt her — which in no way implied that she might not under certain very controlled circumstances acquiesce in the complaints of others. Unable to forget that she had wronged the blonde, she feared her accordingly — even more now after her lapse on Mission Street not so many months before when she’d screamed at Domino and threatened her — and Domino had forbearingly not cut her with that naked razorblade.

We was in the joint together, an’ she snitched on me when I drank my homegirl’s methadone. You ever tried that shit?

I don’t like them downers, said Chocolate.

Fuckin’ A, girl, it’s better than heroin. Lasts longer, too. Makes me feel so good and dreamy, I can hardly tell you. And my homegirl loved me. Her name was Denise. Shit, she was one good bitch. She let me drink her methadone ’cause she loved me. And that bitch Domino snitched on me. And now she snitched again to the Queen, when Justin took up some business with her, just protecting me from her bad vibes.

Now, that I can believe!

She was threatening me, Choc! And then she snitched me off…

(Of course none of this was true, although Strawberry believed it — or rather, she believed in its future likelihood, and so rounded a half-probability up into a certainty. It was Strawberry herself who would snitch to the Brady’s Boys only two nights later.)

With all respect, that’s a strange one for me to get my head around, girl. Domino, now, she’s hard and mean, but I ain’t never seen her snitch.

Well, I’m tellin’ you, Choc, that’s what she did.

You sure?

Yeah.

And you tole the Queen?

Shit, what the fuck’s the point of dragging in Maj for? She’d only take Domino’s side anyways. Domino’s her little blonde pet. Besides, she snitched to Maj, which puts me in the wrong…

You swear she snitched on you?

I swear it, said Strawberry with a trembling voice.

Chocolate cleared her throat, then insinuated: Why don’t you give her the snitch mark? Where I come from, that’s what we do. I promise not to tell…

Mm hm, said Strawberry noncommitally, unwilling to admit that she didn’t know what a snitch mark was, but Chocolate, perceiving her blankness, rushed proudly to fill the breach in her knowledge, thus: What you do, see, is take a straight razor, and you cut her real slow and deep from her mouth to her ear, so everytime for the rest of her worthless life she gotta look in the mirror, or in some stranger’s eyes lookin’ at her, she gotta see the connection between snoopin’ and snitchin’, an’ hopefully she’ll learn to shut the fuck up about another girl’s business.

I see, Strawberry said palely, afraid to take this wrongful and irrevocable step.

Then the Brady’s Boys had caught her.

Bitch! Bitch! Bitch! Come on out here and fight, bitch! You stole my trick, you lowdown stinking bitch! I’d commit suicide before I passed up my revenge on you, bitch! Bitch! Bitch! Bitch! You fuckin’ bitch! You put every nigger dick in the Tenderloin in your mouth, bitch!

Then Domino, drunk, coked up and methed up, finally came staggering furiously out of the Overflo bar to rebut these words of Strawberry’s, and she was pounding the sidewalk with somebody’s padded crutch. — You stole my wedding ring, fucker! she screamed. You ruined my life! And the Queen’s gonna… Queen’s gonna…

But then Strawberry lunged, snatched the crutch, and smashed it down onto Domino’s head. Domino started screeching like a vampire into whose heart a stake is being pounded, and Strawberry dragged her down to the sidewalk, beating her and choking her. The pimps came from across the street and stood around watching the fight. Strawberry raised the crutch and walloped Domino’s forehead again. Finally the tall man strode out of the bar and wrenched the crutch out of his sweetheart’s hands. — Knock it off, bitches, he said. Queen’s not gonna like this.