Her eyes narrow. “You know what? You’re wrong. I do know you. I know that you’re an asshole.” She stomps over to her car. “Jesus, I just felt bad for you and everything you’ve been going through. I wanted to help you!”
She gets in her car and speeds off before I can respond. Not that I have anything else to say.
Sometimes things in this small town are so backward, I can hardly see straight. I stand there, trying to think of one thing I actually like about this town right now.
And that’s when I think of the girl who is so different from everyone else. The girl who’d never seen a covered bridge. The girl who doesn’t really like football.
It’s so cliché, but right now I feel like this small town might smother me, and Lauren is a breath of fresh air.
I want to see her. I want to remember what it’s like to feel normal again.
So I get in my truck, and I head toward the Jiffy Mart.
Josh and Erica
let me go with
Stasia after the game.
She has a white
Ford Focus instead of
a blue bicycle.
We ride back
to Willow, singing
along to the radio.
A Katy Perry song
comes on, and I think
that they seem like
kindred spirits,
with Stasia’s pink hair
and crazy clothes
and how she loves lollipops
(grape is her favorite).
There is something
about singing with
a girlfriend in the car,
happy and carefree,
that makes you
feel like you can
do
I tell myself I can
do what I want to do.
I can talk to Colby
when he gets off
the bus and tell him
I had so much fun
that day we spent
together and I’ve
missed him.
Maybe he feels
the same, maybe not,
but I want to know.
Stasia parks in a
dark corner, and
we wait for the bus
to arrive.
“He’s really cute,” she says.
She reaches into
the glove box to get
a lollipop. She offers
me one, but I decline.
The butterflies are
circling, and I tell myself
it’s because I’m
excited, not nervous.
We watch as
a beautiful girl
walks up to
Colby’s truck
and looks inside
before she turns
around and leans
up against it,
her arms crossed
like she’s ready to
wait all night.
“Who is that?” I whisper.
“Meghan Cooley,” Stasia says.
“His ex.”
Suddenly, I’m wishing
I would feel afraid again.
Or nervous.
Or excited.
Anything besides the
sadness that fills me.
I can’t believe
it’s going to end
like this.
“Do you want to stay?” she asks.
The story
of my whole
miserable life.
I look for her bike when I pull in, but of course, it’s not there. Like I really expected her to be riding around this late on a Friday night?
Crazy, wishful thinking. There’s no way I could be so lucky as to catch two breaks tonight.
I go inside to get a slushie, and as I turn the corner, there she is, Bugles and a soda in hand, waiting in line to pay at the register.
I freeze.
What do I do?
What do I say?
Lauren raises the bag, as if to say, no surprise, right?
Stasia comes up behind her, holding a tray of nachos. This is so awkward. I’m about to turn toward the slushie machine, where I can hide for a second and collect my thoughts, when I see Lauren hand Stasia her stuff and whisper something to her.
Then Lauren walks toward me.
“I can’t believe I actually found you here,” I say.
She looks surprised. “You were looking for me?”
I swallow hard. “Yeah. I was. I, uh, I saw you at the game. When Coach pulled me out.”
She nods. “You made a touchdown. After that, I mean.”
“I did.” I motion toward the door. “Could we talk outside for a minute?”
“Sure.”
I go to the door and hold it open while she steps out. I follow her down to the far corner of the store, where it’s kind of private. And dark.
She has her arms crossed over her chest. “Are you cold?” I ask. “We can sit in my truck, if you want.”
She smiles. “No. I’m okay.”
I stick my hands in my pockets, in case they start shaking. “Look, I owe you an apology. I’ve had a lot going on, and, uh, I think I probably gave you the wrong impression.”
“Oh,” she says, her smile gone. “Well, you don’t have to apologize. I mean, it was just one day and it was probably wrong to think —”
“Wait,” I say. “No, that’s not it. I meant, I think I’ve given you the wrong impression recently . Like, made you think I don’t want anything to do with you, but it’s not that at all. It’s just, this whole thing with Benny . . .”
I think I see relief on her face. I hope I see relief on her face. “Oh, right. No, I get it. I mean, it’s gotta be hard.”
“Yeah. It is. I wish you could have met him. He’s a great guy.”
“Well, hopefully, someday I can. He can recover from this, can’t he?”
“Absolutely. It could take a while, but yeah.”
“That’s good.”
“Anyway, I’m sorry. If it seemed like I was ignoring you or whatever.”
Before she can respond, the door opens, and we both turn. Stasia looks around, and when she spots us, she calls out, “I’ll be in the car.”
Oh God. I can’t make the same mistake twice. It’s now or never. “Before you go,” I say, the words tumbling out like a
ball off a bad kick, “would you want to go out with me? Maybe tomorrow night? Or, you know, whenever you’re free, I guess.”
Lauren shakes her head, like she doesn’t understand. “Wait. So what about that cheerleader?”
“What about her?”
“I saw her, waiting for you at school. You’re not . . . together?”
“Oh, no. No way.”
She gives me a little grin. “Well, that’s a relief.”
I nudge her with my elbow. “You weren’t jealous, were you?”
I think she’s trying to play it cool. “What? No. I just didn’t know what was going on, that’s all.”
“Okay, good. Because I promise, there’s nothing to worry about. So, are you free tomorrow night?”
“Yeah. I work tomorrow afternoon, until six. Can you pick me up at seven?”
“Where are you working?”
“King’s Doughnuts.”
“Oh, man, I love their doughnuts. That is a sweet job, Lauren.”
She chuckles at my bad pun. “Real funny.” She points toward Stasia’s car. “I should probably get going. I’ll see you tomorrow night.”
“Yeah. Seven o’clock. Don’t eat dinner, okay? I want to take you to my favorite restaurant.”
She points at the store. “If you bring me here for corn dogs, I’m going to be totally insulted.”
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