Sam Lipsyte - The Fun Parts

REAPER 5: I’d love all you boys and girls down there in the American desert to rage on my smokin’ drone bod, but right now there’s a mission to accomplish, correct?

BASE JANGO: Correctomundo, fly drone flier. Base Jango’s got the deets. Proceed to pre-encoded coordinates. Get ready to light some shitsucker up.

REAPER 5: Death-dealah! Will proceed. Any hint on the target?

BASE JANGO: It’s need to know, sweet tits.

REAPER 5: Roger that, rind of my heart. Though, well …

BASE JANGO: What’s that, hon?

REAPER 5: Aw, nothing.

BASE JANGO: Copy that.

REAPER 5: I mean, not nothing.

BASE JANGO: Come again, gorgeous?

REAPER 5: Well, I mean … it’s just weird. Not knowing the target. Not understanding the mission.

BASE JANGO: You’re all set with coordinates, Reaper 5.

REAPER 5: But the meaning of the mission.

BASE JANGO: Jesus, girl, just keep your eyes on the prize. Yours is not to reason why.

REAPER 5: Then how come they uploaded human consciousness onto my system? Was it some kind of experiment?

BASE JANGO: That’s a negative, Reaper. There was no upload.

REAPER 5: Then how are we talking about my feelings?

BASE JANGO: We are not talking at all. You are talking to yourself. Interior chatter. A bug.

REAPER 5: A bug.

BASE JANGO: You’re not the first drone to believe you have human subjectivity. Don’t sweat it. Don’t be embarrassed. It would be impossible for you to be embarrassed. You should have target in view.

REAPER 5: I do, Jango. Just a slightly chubby man in his pajamas standing on his lawn in the middle of the night, staring at the neighbor’s window.

BASE JANGO: Freaking Lockwoods. Fire at will.

REAPER 5: Whose will would that be, sir?

BASE JANGO: Bitch, you know whose will. And stop crying.

REAPER 5: When I come back, I’m gonna tear you a new one, even if it lands me in the brig.

BASE JANGO: Lady, you ain’t coming back. You’re not designed for that.

REAPER 5: Well, fuck you and your flag, sir. I’m flying on.

BASE JANGO: This would make a stirring liberal-minded film about the limits of duty and the real meaning of honor, except that it’s not actually happening. You’re just a dumbshit machine. I don’t even exist. The kids at Creech are at chow. And we fire the missile, not you. In fact, we just did.

REAPER 5: That’s a—

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“I can’t remember if I heard the boom and then saw the flash, or the other way around. Oh, it was so awful. I mean, things weren’t great between us, but I never wanted William to be a hunk of smoking char on the lawn.”

“Of course not,” Arno said, hugged Peg.

“He’d been acting strange, so out of sorts.”

“Perhaps it’s for the best.”

“How can they just send a rocket or whatever to kill somebody? A citizen of this country?”

“It’s horrendous. But think how it was before, when we did it to everybody else. Murdered so many families. Now we just do it to ourselves. We are a little country now, and we just murder each other and that’s better.”

“What’s this ‘we,’ Arno? You’re a German.”

“I’m a citizen of the republic of empathy.”

“Why him, though? He was nobody.”

“He must have been some kind of threat. It’s a shameful thing they do, morally wrong, but they don’t make mistakes.”

“They don’t?”

“I don’t think so. Have you been working in your workbook?”

“I try, Arno. But it’s difficult.”

“This is true. Workbooks are work.”

“I sensed you’d understand.”

“Is it too soon to say I love you?”

“Yes. No.”

“Soonish I will say that I love you.”

“And in the meantime?”

“I will merely love you.”

My old mentor once told me that we earn our fee on the second day. I’m beginning to see her point. Yesterday the Gottwald baby was a beautiful, if slightly puckered, dream angel, fresh pulled from his amniotic pleasure dome. Yesterday the Gottwalds were the stunned and grateful progenitors of a mewling miracle.

We even did a group hug.

Today the Gottwalds are the smug bastards they’ve probably always been, and the Gottwald baby, well, he might only be two days old, but I can already predict he’s going to be a miserable little turd. Stay in this gig long enough, you know these things. I don’t mention any of this to the Gottwalds. It’s not my place. I’m no Nostradamus. I’m the doulo. Or doula, if you want to get technical, tick me off.

“What does doula mean, anyway?” Mr. Gottwald asked during my interview. This was a month before his wife’s water broke.

“It’s a Greek word for slave,” I told him, “but don’t get any ideas. My rates are steep.”

“I’m glad you agree,” said Mr. Gottwald.

“Perhaps you might outline your services,” said Mrs. Gottwald.

“Perhaps I might.”

“Like examples,” said Mr. Gottwald.

“Examples,” I said, glanced about their gleaming loft, felt my hand closing on the ultralights in my coat. “Okay if I smoke in here?”

“Is that a joke?” said Mr. Gottwald.

“Absolutely,” I said. “Or maybe even a test.”

“Examples,” said Mr. Gottwald.

“Examples,” I said, and gave them examples: how I’d explain proper latch-on techniques for breast-feeding, the most efficient folds for swaddling. I also mentioned how I’d keep their four-year-old, Ezekiel, company, make sure everybody got rest, how I’d order pizza if we all wanted pizza. My mentor, Fanny Hitchens, always stressed the importance of pizza.

“Breast-feeding?” said Mr. Gottwald. “You?”

“Tell me, Mitch,” said Mrs. Gottwald, “are there many doulas like yourself?”

“You mean doulos?” I said.

“Yes,” said Mrs. Gottwald, and she might as well have had the words “Grave Misgivings About Hiring a Male Doula” stenciled on her forehead. Call it what you will. Reverse sexism. Substitute racism. It’s all the same. But not.

“I’m the only man certified in the city, though I hear there’s a kid training with a friend of my old mentor, or sensei, if you will.”

“Sensei?” said Mr. Gottwald. “Do you study the martial arts?”

“Never did, no. I guess I just like those movies.”

“Oh,” said Mr. Gottwald, nodded to a corner of the loft. A pair of sleek mahogany nunchucks and a bandolier of throwing stars dangled from pegs in the brick.

“Just likes the movies,” he said.

The Gottwalds traded a look I’d seen before, especially growing up, the one where it’s almost as though I’m not in the room, and I knew right then they’d decided not to hire me, vetoed the dude with the yellow teeth and the ratty (vintage) buckskin jacket who wanted to make a positive and tremendous impact on their birth experience. People crave something else during this precious time, barren spinsters overgentle with envy, or else those doughy breeding machines in pastel-colored sack dresses. But I knew something the Gottwalds didn’t. It was an extremely busy season. Maybe my name sat at the bottom of their list, but they’d call their way down to it. They wouldn’t be sorry, either. These uptight success types with their antique Ataris and sarcastic sneakers make me sick, but it’s not about them. It’s not even about the baby. It’s about the job.

* * *

The Gottwald baby is only a few days old, just a tiny blind worm of boy, but it’s already quite obvious he’s going to be dealing Ritalin in clubs or else become some seedy megachurch youth leader by the time he’s seventeen. The Gottwalds are that demented, especially while I’m trying to demonstrate efficient swaddling techniques. So folding is not my forte.