Atticus Lish - Preparation for the Next Life

Finally. He lifted up his shades, revealing his bruised-looking eyes. New-pong-yow. Where you been? He blinked at her like somebody waking up and seeing the sun.

You are feeling better today, she said. Yesterday he had been sick. He had gotten better and that was good, she said. And you come to see me. I am so glad. Welcome. Welcome to my job.

She cleaned tables near him so she could talk to him.

Maybe it isn’t a good job, she expressed, as she leaned over a table, wiping it with her rag, Skinner watching her moving. It was all immigrants here — had he noticed? But everybody has to work at something, and there shouldn’t be any shame attached to a job. When her English was better, she would do something else. It cheered her that he was here, and she went around with a bounce in her step taking trays off the tables, dumping them in the trash, and stacking them on her cart. When she finished the tables near him, she circled out to tables farther away at the edge of the food court, collected their trays and circled back to him.

She asked Skinner what he was doing today.

Chest.

Oh, she said. Your chest?

Yeah. Chest and shoulders.

You go to the gymnasium?

Yeah, he was. He had to go, he said.

I also go to the gymnasium.

You do?

Not now. Will be! I will be soon. For now, I will exercise by my work. You can tell? She squatted up and down fast and picked up a chopstick, winked at him and flipped it into a bucket.

He wanted to know when she was getting off work so he could meet her.

You won’t be tired? she asked.

No, no way. That was yesterday, not today.

She didn’t want to bother him if he was tired.

It’s no bother. He wanted to see her.

She wiped her swollen hands with her rag.

Work is finish at six o’clock.

All right, I’ll be here then.

Okay.

You good to go?

Oh, I am exciting. Only five hour more.

We’ll go back to the crib.

It was partly a question. He glanced at her to see what she would say. She didn’t say she wouldn’t.

After she pushed her cart through the restaurant counters to the dishwashing machine in the back and he had watched her go, he picked up his shades and walked out through the crowd and left. His leg had stopped shaking while they were talking, and his hood had fallen off revealing his seamed neck. But it had gotten colder since the morning, the clouds had come in, and he put his hood back up over his head and started walking to keep warm, passing businesses that were boarded-up or being run inside units that had been sealed and broken into, down where they threw the garbage down the stairs, below street level. He saw rolls of carpeting behind a half-shut hinging metal gate.

He came to a bar, one of the few bars in Flushing, and went inside. There were arcade games in the corner. A microwave sat on a counter in an adjoining room that contained folding metal chairs. The power cords had dust on them. There were sofas in front of a supersized TV screen — the old kind with the three colored lights like traffic lights that project onto the screen like a slide projector. The bar itself was just a counter with liquor bottles behind it. There were no taps for draft beers in this bar. If you wanted a beer, they gave you a can out of a cooler, which also held a pack of hotdogs. The lights were off and the space smelled like cleaning solution from the bathroom, which an old man they called Johnny had just cleaned. When Johnny was done, he came out of the bathroom with his mop and asked the bartender what else he should do and the bartender told him, Nothing that I know of. The old man was putting the mop away when Skinner came in and asked for a drink.

The bartender poured him a drink and Skinner sat sipping it watching basketball on TV.

The bartender was a talker, and without an invitation, he started telling him a story. The other night, he said, he’d had to give a guy a ride home. I was pissed too, but he couldn’t do anything, he was blind, not a prayer that he could drive, so I said what the hell. We got my car and I dropped him off. It was four in the morning. I come out of his garage, and there’s this cop waiting right there after giving someone a DUI.

The bartender had paused in Windexing the bar to tell his story, and he punctuated what he was saying by making faces of astonishment at his own story.

This was a Friday, so you know it would have been a long weekend. Monday or Tuesday before you get in front of the judge at least!

He blew up his cheeks, as if to say, what a thing! Skinner nodded along when he had to. It had turned into a gray day outside. The bartender kept talking. He remarked that he could tell from Skinner’s accent that he wasn’t local. This led to his asking where Skinner was from and getting out of him that he was a vet. When he heard he was a vet, he took the bottle of Parrot Bay and topped him up.

Skinner already felt the first one and didn’t plan on having anymore. Thanks, he said.

It’s the least I can do, the bartender said and stood there for a minute with his arms propped on the bar and his head half-bowed holding a moment of silence for the armed forces. The old man Johnny had taken his place at the bar while they were talking and was sitting with a can of Budweiser. Now he turned on his seat and worked his mouth, trying to speak.

You was over there?

Skinner didn’t hear him.

Johnny’s talking to you, the bartender said.

He looked over at the old man moving his mouth.

You was over there in Iraq?

Yeah, Skinner said.

Johnny’s a navy man, the bartender told him.

Cool. Hey.

I was in the navy. But what you guys are doing is… is unbelievable.

Skinner threw back his drink and swallowed it. The bartender filled his glass again.

It’s on me, chief.

Good looking out, Skinner said, rubbing his face. His knee started bouncing up and down.

This guy’s your friend, Johnny said. He’ll take care a you.

Wherever you go in the world, look for the Irish bar, the bartender said. They’ll help you out. And if they can’t help you, they’ll know someone who can. He made an expression of taking you into confidence.

Johnny staggered off to the bathroom he had cleaned, to use it, and while he was gone, the bartender took Skinner into his confidence again, telling him that Johnny should have been dead years ago. He shouldn’t be alive, he said with his voice lowered.

Skinner took another large swallow of his drink and felt it burn and make him slightly sick and then spread and commence the changes in his brain which felt like shades coming down.

I’ve been all over the world, the bartender was saying. Brazil, Amsterdam, China.

What were you doing over there?

Fucking whores.

No shit.

I’ve fucked whores everywhere. I call it touring and whoring.

Skinner didn’t understand the man’s brogue and made him repeat what he’d said.

Oh, touring. I get it now. You was touring! You never know with people what you’re gonna learn.

They toasted each other in formal style.

Another one for my man, Skinner said pointing at Johnny’s beer. He shook the bartender’s thin freckled hand. Get yourself one, dude.

Don’t mind if I do, the bartender said.

Another hour passed this way. The bartender, who wore a black t-shirt, came out from behind the bar, wearing black jeans and long black leather shoes that tapered to a squared-off toe, and went outside, taking a lighter from the black leather holster on his belt, to smoke a cigarette on what was now the street at night, taillights everywhere coming off the freeway, people going home from work, the subway rumbling underneath the bar. Johnny was leaning out of his chair talking to Skinner. The war was the subject of conversation once again.