Michel Déon - The Foundling Boy

That is it for Mireille. I am sorry: she will not reappear, a victim, like Ernst, of the Manicheanism of the times, the haphazard fortunes of good and bad. Stefano returned to Roquebrune and learnt of his girlfriend’s fate. He had been responsible. Should he not have stayed to protect her? A great remorse grew in him; he thought of taking holy orders, hesitated and got married. On the day I write these words, he is a handsome old man who owns a thriving haulage business. From time to time, if there is a strike or a driver is off sick, he will still take the wheel and head onto the autostrada , without stopping, as if he were going to meet Mireille Cece again. In darkness pierced by the blinding beams of headlights, he sees again the irresistible body of the woman who waited for him on the bend at Roquebrune and whose fidelity he never had any reason to doubt. And when he does so he no longer feels alone, but drives on towards her and has the impression that nothing has changed, that the hair at his temples has not gone white and that pleasure awaits at the end of the road.

Let us return to Jean on his milestone in the Massif des Maures. He had been sitting there for two hours when a Renault Primaquatre driven by a commercial traveller stopped. The driver was bored and would happily have picked up a cow, so long as he could tell it about his problem, namely the sale of Isabelle chocolate below cost in the southern departments. Isabelle chocolate, in bars and in powder form, was not reaching its public. The company was skimping on advertising and counting on its sales representatives being everywhere. But in one of those irrational acts that demonstrate that managers inhabit another universe, far from the lives of those who actually have to work, Isabelle SA had just cut its sales force’s expenses. Jean tried hard to follow the monologue of his travelling companion, a short, fat man with podgy fingers and clearly a lover of good eating, as he frequently broke off from his lament to give marks out of ten to restaurants in the villages they passed, accompanied by brief and very specific notes: an excellent saddle of hare there two years ago, a coq au vin as tough as old boots in that pretentious joint last month, or a lovely vin de pays at this bistro which doesn’t look anything special, does it? These mindless ramblings about Isabelle chocolate and gastronomic preferences, which were enough to make an empty stomach turn over, nevertheless distracted Jean from what, or rather who, he was leaving behind him. For two hours, sitting on his milestone as he waited for a sympathetic driver to offer him a lift, he had thought of nothing but Mireille. He would have given anything to go back to her, but an invisible force pressed him into the seat of the noisy Renault, which had to change down to second at the slightest gradient. The soft shapes of the Maures near Saint-Maximin made him think of naked women, offering their round breasts up to the burning sun, and those clumps of black cypresses the tufts between their thighs or under their thrown-back arms. Tomate had been right, and he might even have been too late. Jean should have fled before he was overcome by Mireille’s obsessive nocturnal habits. Would he ever escape from her? She was like a stain on his body and his thoughts … The commercial traveller kept on with his grievances against Isabelle SA, a handful of ambitious, mean capitalists exploiting some grandmother’s recipe, which was actually fortunate, in fact, because Isabelle chocolate, in bar and powder form, was the best France had to offer, perhaps even the best Europe had to offer. Jean nodded. You don’t disagree if you don’t know anything. And he knew nothing compared to such a man. A copy of L’oeuvre was lying on the back seat, the daily paper Albert sometimes read in addition to Populaire for its articles by Michel Déat and the columns of Georges de La Fourchardière, whose caustic plain-speaking made him smile. Jean answered that he had heard this was true from his father, who read L’oeuvre.

‘Ahah, I see, a radical socialist like me! So what’s he waiting for to enrol you in the Jeunesses Radicales?’10

‘Do the Jeunesses Radicales really exist?’

The idea seemed completely laughable. The composite image of a radical socialist in people’s minds generally consisted of Édouard Herriot’s fat stomach, Ferdinand Buisson’s goatee and the flapping trouser seat of the man Léon Daudet had nicknamed ‘stuck-up Bonnevay’. When it came to life, the portrait had Édouard Daladier’s gravelly voice, whose only intelligible words were ‘my party’. Could young people really be tempted to rally to the banner of such men? The salesman appeared outraged by Jean’s ignorance. He was a novice to be converted, to be trained so that France — a great democracy — would be, thanks to its young people’s enthusiasm, the leading nation of Europe. Jean did not know how to answer this. To his immense relief they were coming into Aix, and the salesman pulled up at a garage to fill his tank and put some water in his radiator. Jean was startled: the garage’s name was Chez Antoine. For several minutes he was intensely miserable at the memory of Mireille’s sign. Was she going to remind him of her existence like this all the way back? Let us note in passing that Charles Ventadour was not there. He rarely appeared at his garage since he had been elected to the departmental assembly and the board of a new company that was planning to build luxury villas on a plot of land on the Marseille road. It is true that Jean and he have no reason to be interested in each other. Their conversation would resemble that of the commercial traveller who, interested only in acquiescence, was so delighted by his travelling companion that in a surge of generosity he asked him to lunch.

‘The patronne does all the cooking herself. A true woman of Aix, my young friend. Kind but firm at the same time. You’ll have her chicken with Provençal herbs. She harvests her own herbs. It’s turned on a spit over a fire of vine branches. We’ll drink a Côtes du Rhône. There isn’t much else around here. And if you want my advice, be careful with the rosés. They’re only drinkable where they’re grown, at the vigneron’s. The minute they leave the vineyard, they get adulterated with all sorts of things.’

Jean accepted the invitation, although the man bored him to tears. When the dessert came, he excused himself, went outside, got his bag out of the Renault, and hid in the town until the angry salesman had left. Shortly afterwards, on the Montélimar road, an old Mathis driven by a priest in a beret stopped.

‘Where are you going?’

‘To Grangeville,’ Jean answered absent-mindedly.

‘Grangeville? Where’s that?’

‘Near Dieppe … But I meant, anywhere that takes me closer to it will be welcome, Father, Montélimar, Valence.’

‘Near Dieppe? Well, why not? I just wonder whether this car will last the journey. I lost a wheel this morning. Marvellous … I saw it roll away in front of me but I was still moving, on three legs as it were. I came to a halt on the grass verge, and the hardest thing was finding the nuts again. In any case, the wheel’s still holding with two. See … I can even let go of the steering wheel …’

The Mathis zigzagged dangerously across the road, to the priest’s great enjoyment. He was a man in his thirties with a fairly prominent nose, yellowish skin, and black slanting eyes with the lashes of an Arabian dancing girl.

‘You’re not saying that you’re going near Dieppe, Father?’

‘No, I wasn’t heading that way, but I have a taste for adventure. Having said that, I’m not certain that this Mathis will make it as far as Dieppe. She overheats as soon as I go faster than forty. You don’t smoke?’