Tim Winton - The Riders

Scully squinted, hesitating. He felt as reluctant as a hermit, and foolish for feeling so.

‘Come on, Scully, be a divil!’

‘Okay,’ he smiled. ‘Thanks.’

Scully stood in the blue cloud the AN POST van left behind and heard Pete go crashing gears through the village. He stamped his feet and heard girls squealing behind him. The little van suddenly braked on the hill, U-turned and came whinnying back. Pete pulled in again, blushing fiercely and shoved an arm out the window.

‘Knew I stopped by for somethin. Telegram, Scully.’

He opened it while Pete drove off again.

SETTLEMENT THROUGH. CONFIRMED AE46 SHANNON SUNDAY MORNING. JENNIFER.

He stuffed it in his pocket and stood uncertainly there by the school, imagining them suddenly here with him. His hands shook. And then he realized — the bastard had read it. Peter knew before be did. Country life!

• • •

SATURDAY NIGHT SCULLY SHAVED and pulled on his best jeans, his roo-skin boots and a black pullover. From the tin trunk in the Transit he pulled the sleek black greatcoat bought one day in Place Monge in the desperate days of Paris. Four hundred francs secondhand. He shook his head even now at the thought. He’d worked hard for that coat. He brushed it down by the hearth and hung it up a while to air while he scrubbed his teeth with iron concentration. Scully, he thought, you look like a convict. You confirm every Englishman’s deep and haughty suspicion. You can’t help the face, but for goodness’ sake get a haircut.

He stoked the fire and loaded it with turf, and then gathered up the house keys, big medieval things, that felt heavy as a revolver in his pocket.

He read the crumpled telegram again. CONFIRMED, SUNDAY. The paper lay pale and odd on the scrubbed pine table, casting shadows from the firelight across the wood.

He thought of the night they bought this place. When he woke in the wide musty room above Davy Finneran’s pub to see Jennifer standing naked at the window, lit by the neon of the chipper across the street as the last drinkers rolled home down the street. Her body was dark from the Greek sun. The bed held the scent of their sex. Billie slept on a sofa by the door, her limbs every which way. Scully didn’t move for a while. He lay in the hammocky bed, his mouth dry from celebrating. He just watched her over by the window as the church bells tolled. Her shoulders twitched; she sniffed. Scully loved her. He was not going home, he would never see his house and all his stuff again, but he loved her and she must know it. She wiped her eyes, wiped them and turned, startled to see him awake.

‘A… a dream,’ she whispered.

But she seemed not to have even been to sleep.

‘You alright?’

She nodded.

‘Come to bed.’

For a moment, her body suddenly graven, she hesitated before padding across to him. She was cold, almost clammy against him.

‘I’m sorry,’ she murmured.

‘About a dream?’

Her breath was warm against his shoulder. He held her to him and slept.

Now Scully heard the Renault labour up the hill. He stoked the fire and switched out the light and went outside to meet Peter.

• • •

PETE-THE-POST DROVE THEM slowly through the gathering rain to Shinrone, passing the half-pint of Bushmills to Scully now and then who sipped and watched the tunnel the headlights made between the hedges and stone walls.

‘That’s a grand coat.’

‘Bought it in Paris.’

‘Paris. Friggin Paris, eh?’

Scully laughed. ‘Paris.’

‘Is it like the movies?’

‘Not so you’d notice.’

‘I liked them Gene Kelly sorta fillums, you know with the dancin and the umbrellas and the kissin by the fountain.’

‘Well, we did a lotta that, of course.’

‘So what the frig did you do?’

Scully sighed. ‘Worked me arse off, Pete. I painted and Jennifer wrote.’

‘Painted? You didn’t tell me you’re the artist type.’

‘I painted apartments, mate. Cash money. Worst job of my life, don’t ask.’

‘And the writin?’

Scully took a pull of the hot, peaty Bushmills. Paris really wasn’t the kind of thing he had in mind on a fun night out. He wanted to forget the damn place once and for all. The long miserable days scraping the ceilings of tight-arsed Parisian skinflints. The desperate scuffle outside the school every morning with Billie, and those evenings of tears and rage when Jennifer’s frustration was like an animal in the room with them. It was a kind of affliction for her. After the early buzz, the heady weeks of hope and excitement, the days she slugged it out in the tiny apartment alive with ideas, and new friends to try them on, she became this thwarted creature.

Some nights they stayed up and drank too much pastis while he tried to console her but she lashed out like something wild and cornered. It was his fault, she said. He was lazy, under — motivated — he had no ambition, no guts, which struck him as a bit rich, considering his circumstances. He did shit work all day so she could write. And gladly. God how he wanted her to break through into some kind of success, some new version of herself that made her happy.

But Paris was a black hole, somewhere where Jennifer came hard up against the wall of her limitations while all he could do was stand by and watch.

‘Scully?’

‘Hm?’

‘Tell me about the writing. Are you asleep or drunk already?’

‘Well, I liked it.’

‘What did she write? For certain, she’s the poetical type, takin the bothy the way she did.’

Scully smiled and passed back the bottle. ‘Actually she’s very businesslike, Pete. Likes things neat and sharp, you know. Comes from a very proper family. Escaped from them really. She’s always thought her parents held her back from doing what she’d like to try. They pressured her into a career in the public service and stuff. She says they made her ordinary when she wasn’t. Safe, dull, that kind of thing, which she isn’t. I liked her because she was so… straight, I guess. But she hates that, being straight. Writing was one of those things she always thought of doing. You know, weird, risky things, the kind of things parents hate. All this travelling was her chance. She quit her job, had her heart set on Paris. Paris was poetry for her. And she wrote some nice poems, showed em to people and was kind of… crushed. Those bastards, her mates, they thought it was a bit of a joke. Well, fuck them. I thought the poems were good.’

‘You liked them cause you love her.’

‘No, I liked them cause I liked them.’ Scully watched the ragged hedges peel by. ‘Anyway, it didn’t work out.’

‘So much for dancin by the fountains.’

‘Yeah.’

Pete chugged on the whiskey bottle and gasped with pleasure. He steered with his knees a while and hummed theatrically.

‘By God, Scully, you’ve seen the world!’

‘On the cheap, mate, on the cheap.’

‘And what did you do in Greece, lie in the bakin sun and drink them little drinks with hats on em?’

Scully laughed. ‘No, I worked for a stonemason humping granite up a hill. Loved it. Great place. Greece is like Australia invaded by the Irish.’

‘Good gravy, man!’

‘It’s true. Nothin works and no one gives a shit. Perfect.’

‘And what did Jennifer do?’

‘She painted.’

‘Houses?’

‘No, art painting. Well, you know, she had to have a try. She was okay, I thought. Trouble with Jennifer is she can turn her hand to anything. She’s quite good at a lot of things, but she wants to be a genius at one thing. Maybe it’ll happen. One day. She deserves a break.’

‘You love the girl.’

‘I do.’

They coasted into Shinrone, rain drifting oblique in the lights of the little town which seemed choked with parked cars.